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• Not killing the people in my school YET, or the world; being able to push people away; being socially isolated; let my grades go down because I'm lazy and an idiot; read all the books in my library, get my english teacher to think I self-harm (DSH)
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• I was 7, Yr 3, 1998 or so. The first anime was the infamous 'Sailor Moon'! XD
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• Most of them except Ultimate Muscle because it is soo ruubiishh-o! I Love 'Neon Genesis Evangelion'! Shinji is such a passive-aggressive boy, and he hates himself so! I can relate, because I hate myself. I hate everyone else in the world!Human condition!
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• to actually finish a story!;To not die before 40, to get a good job which I enjoy- IMPOSSIBLE!; To find someone I love; to not end up killing myself because I suffer from depression.
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• reading, writing (all-sorts) and watching tv, getting annoyed, typing, blaming myself; being TOO perceptive; seeing all the faults of the world; telling people off if they are wrong; trying to decipher the world
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• daydreaming, singing, irritating the hell out of people, scarcasm, coldness, singing out of tune, being horrible, making skwibblies, procrastinating, staring into space, drawing, forgetting things and other stuff




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Thursday, March 31, 2005

   Posty post on a 'deep' thing I said while I was having an emotional breakdown, while in me bath. I was crying. Too much built up emotion! Darn!
I sit here with my back against the tree. How everything is light, and has a lease of life. It's spring. Everything happy and new, but I feel dead and lifeless. Dead without Draurus here. After all, he is dead. Dead aas a doornail. After he took that fateful plunge that I was so going to take. The knife glints in the dismal, fractured sunlight. How it calls me to bring itself to feel my blood. I remember when he caught me. He smiled, why did he smile? It was like beckoning me to do it. To just end up killing myself? His taunting smile. The knife brings me that memory back. So vivid, yet black and white.

Hope you like it. It's off one of me current stories I'm hjave yet to write.
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