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Birthday
• 1991-07-11
Gender
• Female
Location
• somewhere where you don't know, actually London in England
Member Since
• 2003-10-10
Occupation
• Sixth Form student, fan girl, writer and struggling artist/ creator
Real Name
• Amaris Hope you like the name because it is really so!

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Achievements
• Not killing the people in my school YET, or the world; being able to push people away; being socially isolated; let my grades go down because I'm lazy and an idiot; read all the books in my library, get my english teacher to think I self-harm (DSH)
Anime Fan Since
• I was 7, Yr 3, 1998 or so. The first anime was the infamous 'Sailor Moon'! XD
Favorite Anime
• Most of them except Ultimate Muscle because it is soo ruubiishh-o! I Love 'Neon Genesis Evangelion'! Shinji is such a passive-aggressive boy, and he hates himself so! I can relate, because I hate myself. I hate everyone else in the world!Human condition!
Goals
• to actually finish a story!;To not die before 40, to get a good job which I enjoy- IMPOSSIBLE!; To find someone I love; to not end up killing myself because I suffer from depression.
Hobbies
• reading, writing (all-sorts) and watching tv, getting annoyed, typing, blaming myself; being TOO perceptive; seeing all the faults of the world; telling people off if they are wrong; trying to decipher the world
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• daydreaming, singing, irritating the hell out of people, scarcasm, coldness, singing out of tune, being horrible, making skwibblies, procrastinating, staring into space, drawing, forgetting things and other stuff




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Monday, April 11, 2005

   Just so sick of being happy
This may sound weird to you, but I hate being happy! I hate how I am just so up-beat! I want to go back to Year 7&8, where I was always so moapy, and when I was in Year 8, I had a 'Learning mentor'! She was a happy up-beat lady with idiocity written all over her face, trying to get to the root of my 'low self-esteem', and 'lack of happiness'. I thought it as a whole joke! I was so happy at the end of year, when she asked me if I wanted to stay on doing it, even though she wouldn't be at our school the next year, and I was sure. She seemed very sad! Idiot! I was SO sick and tired of pretending I was happy, and when I started, I VERY TIRED, it was winter, and I was very pissed at all things! Oh how I miss missing lessons, and the awkward silence!
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