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Saturday, October 7, 2006
I felt like posting earlier but now I don't really feel like it.
Reason 1: I'm on late, so it won't necessarily be read, and I'm sick of being ignored, and putting my heart on a string, so I'm retracting my heart for a while.
Reason2: I feel like I'm not even real anymore. I feel near empty. Maybe this is because I'm not thinking, and "living one day at a time", but I still feel like shit and am in an emotional slump.
Reason 3: I feel likle shit. I got up this morn at a God-forsaking 7 a.m. and thought I'd go into the front room. My brother, who is ten, has been picking on me, and farting all day.
Reason 4: My mum is taking a slab out of my confidence. She has been working for the last two weeks. Yes, she's at home, but that doesn't mean anything. I've been having to make my own dinner, or go and and buy some all week. We've only had one meal from scratch this week.
Reason 5: I@m getting sick of my sister. Everyday she says that she hates me and other crap like that, and she's been listening to metal again, and not eating, and I@m partially concerned, but I've got LOTS of problems on my plate. Especially this week, so I haven't talked to her.
And that's it really. I'll find a song later. I may go and visit some sites. I don't know.
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