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• 1991-07-11
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• somewhere where you don't know, actually London in England
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• 2003-10-10
Occupation
• Sixth Form student, fan girl, writer and struggling artist/ creator
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• Amaris Hope you like the name because it is really so!

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Achievements
• Not killing the people in my school YET, or the world; being able to push people away; being socially isolated; let my grades go down because I'm lazy and an idiot; read all the books in my library, get my english teacher to think I self-harm (DSH)
Anime Fan Since
• I was 7, Yr 3, 1998 or so. The first anime was the infamous 'Sailor Moon'! XD
Favorite Anime
• Most of them except Ultimate Muscle because it is soo ruubiishh-o! I Love 'Neon Genesis Evangelion'! Shinji is such a passive-aggressive boy, and he hates himself so! I can relate, because I hate myself. I hate everyone else in the world!Human condition!
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• to actually finish a story!;To not die before 40, to get a good job which I enjoy- IMPOSSIBLE!; To find someone I love; to not end up killing myself because I suffer from depression.
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• reading, writing (all-sorts) and watching tv, getting annoyed, typing, blaming myself; being TOO perceptive; seeing all the faults of the world; telling people off if they are wrong; trying to decipher the world
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• daydreaming, singing, irritating the hell out of people, scarcasm, coldness, singing out of tune, being horrible, making skwibblies, procrastinating, staring into space, drawing, forgetting things and other stuff




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myOtaku.com: Outlaw Melfina


Thursday, November 9, 2006

You like it? Please keep in mind these are MY feelings! XD
Yeah man! Plod on! In the only room in which I seek sanctuary
To write things saucy, grotesque and cruel.
My insides pour out, with the imagination of death, disease and debauchery.
My sins are here. Inside they hide away from God I do decide.
I am scared and disagree I can survive this.
After all, I always forget Him when it happens.
I want no one to touch me,
And everyone to hold me.
The little girl that it Amaris.
Her bones are fragile and ego thin
And of course wants to rip the skin.
To show she feels pain like everyone else.
She has excema which is even worse.
She is passive and all lines disbarred
Because she has everything to discard.
Self-harm is bad,
And excema worse.
It would be so bad, I’d need a nurse
To write all my shit of lies and sin
Which my father knows like the din
Inside my head, it eats me up
Until I can’t take it anymore
And have to write it down in silence
“Be seen and not heard” I would quote
In poor silence Amaris sits,
Like trying to decipher an age old myth
And the secret shall be found out only in the noise
Of pen scribbling and breathing

The loops that let the feeling slide
Right out like blood or pen ink- I decide
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