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myOtaku.com: Outlaw Melfina
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Thursday, December 21, 2006
Feeling bad, but it's the last day.
I have felt nauseous all day, but it's the last day, so I have to truck on.
The trip/ meal to Nando's was totally as expected. People who haven't come to the meetings since September popped up. All the people there are 18 years old, and I'm the youngest person, so it was pretty alienating. Got to the Tate at 5pm, and we got to Victoria, which is near the Tate at about 6. We had to sit near the door. The door was glass. Not fun. So it was bitterly cold the whole time, and my nose was running all day, so I was just waiting for that. I stuffed myself up, having more than I should have, and I drank alot, and when I got home on the notorious Victoria line, I thought I was going to die. It was interesting listening to peoples' idiocities,a nd talking about getting bladdered all the time. Very pathetic. And as a 15 year old, I know nothing of the sort, and am not subjected that kind of life, even though I knew those kinds of people through my mum being at uni, and I thought it was awful, and still is!
Well, it's still cold here. My stomach hurts really badly, and it's Christmas on Monday, so I'm very much looking forward to getting my 'Neon Genesis Evangelion' boxset, and understanding the true intent of humanity and civilisation! :P
I am happy now. Haven't even thought about the dark and ugly (suicidal thoughts and of self-harm. Got to love it!!!!). That's good.I'm past that layer I think. I am just a drone now.
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