Thursday, February 23, 2006

You like me... you really like me!

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Wow, I got 6 comments last time... that's actually pretty high by my standards. Tohma, don't be guilty, but feel perfectly free to shoot my mother; Silver Shadows, she has many problems, what are you expecting, she's related to me for god's sake; Phedre, the public library is like 5 miles away on the absolute other end of town and the computers there are slow as frozen dirt in a school zone, plus I'm paranoid and can't stand to be online in public. Yeah, I think I addressed all the issues. I hope I did... o_O Today my English teacher held me in after class (and I nearly missed the bus, but that's neither here nor there) to tell me that in 11 years of teaching I'm the best writer I've ever had in her classes, and that there's probably nothing more she can teach me... and I'm all like, o_O; okay...? Can I go now? XD I'm getting tired of being told how great I am because so many people think this kind of stuff actually matters to me. It doesn't. I know from experience what the real world's like and I just don't care about school and stuff after all I've been through. It's the same with my mom... the whole reason she's taking my computer time is because she wants me to study for that god-forsaken spelling bee but I really don't care whether I win or not. The fact that I've gotten as far as I have (and this is true in school, too) is merely chance. I'm not trying to be the best. It just happens. Oh, speaking of which, the 4,500 word book they give us to study for the spelling bee has some interesting words... namely, "pagan", "Lethean", "bonbon" (looooong story, if you know my first name you'll get it), and "sukiyaki" (yum!). It's pretty bizzare, it's like they're watching me or something... o_O Holy jesus, was this post long enough for you? Unlike Tohma, who left us with a stupid 4-line post. ><

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Oh yeah...

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Did I happen to mention I hate my mother? Because it just so happens that I do, funnily enough. Oh, which reminds me, today we got the phone bill... and my mom found the long distance call to Tohma all the way in Chicago on my phone line... it cost 10 bucks... I paid for it, but I lied about who it was... she doesn't need another reason to suspect me addicted to the internet. >< which brings me full-circle. Mom's even further limiting my precious scarce time on the computer, which sucks. I HATE HER! >< XD

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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Meow mix.

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Yeah... me and Tohma are gonna go Tatsuha on all ya'll... fear the fangirl(boy?)ishness of DOOM! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYS. Jeez. I'm on the computer at school and my background is all screwed up with this resolution... >< meaning I have to fix it because it probably looks retarded on your computers too. *sigh* In History we got to listen to I'm Just A Bill (yes, I'm only a bill, and I'm sitting here on capitol hill...) and I started cracking up because it reminded me of the preview at the end of Gravitation vol. 6 (the manga) where Shuichi's sitting in his special costume of doom and they drew a speech bubble that said "I'm just a bill, yes, I'm only a bill". XD Yeah. You had to be there. I spent 4 bucks on a Fruits Basket bookmark for no particular reason. It confuzzles my head. o_O I really confuse me sometimes... do I confuse you too?

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Monday, February 20, 2006

Um... nani?

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Okay, my parents are really freaking me out. First, just out of the blue, they tell me they're going to get a dog for no reason whatsoever. Then they tell me they want to move to Italy just because they saw Under the Tuscan Sun. And they're not kidding around either; it's not one of those "It'd be really cool to go" things. They're seriously looking on Travelocity for cheap plane tickets to Florence and they're even looking at the real estate! I don't wanna go to Italy! >< So they're like, "Bonnie, would you come to Italy with us this summer, just to visit?" And I'm like, hell no! I don't want to be like some stupid gaijin! But what I said was, "I'll make a deal. I'll go to Italy with you if you take me to Japan." No response. My parents are really, truly weirding me out. Now then, out of curiousity, and though I know only one person will get the true meaning behind this question, when I say "whipped cream", what do you think of? XD

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Sunday, February 19, 2006

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Yeah... note the new layout. It's Loveless. And it's sexy. Holy, holy crud. Yeah, this weekend I got Volume 1 of the Loveless manga and I've already read it about 9 times. It's so damn cute! <3 and I feel so sorry for Ritsuka... no one that sexy should be allowed to be abused. XD Great series- it has nothing on Gravi, though, of course. Gravi is godly. I also got .hack//AI buster volume 2. Yay for fangirliness! XD I'm slightly obsessed with .hack. Yeah. Balmung's sexy. XD Sorry! I just feel so fangirlish right now! Forgive me!

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Friday, February 17, 2006

Yay for me

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Yeah. I so totally won the spelling bee. I get to go to Vegas. Hoo-ray. I can hardly suppress my glee. I know you're all like, "wtf? You don't care that you get to go to Vegas?" but if only you knew... I'll explain later. Anywho, I'll be at my dad's house this weekend. I'll be back on Sunday. Okay? Okay buh-bye.

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

Holy ungodly lack of updates, batman!

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Sorry I haven't updated... my mom kinda sorta took away my computer for one random reason or another... She say's I'm obsessed with my computer because that makes no sense, that's like me saying that she's obsessed with real life, in a way. o_O because this is my real life, you know? Yesterday my bus was an hour late. It was fun... we got to take the elementary school route. Oh yeah, today's the county spelling bee type thingy. Woooooh. Meaning I get to get taken out of P.E. How utterly unexciting. But thee good news is after it's over I get my beloved computer back... hopefully. As it is now, though, I'm at school, and the bell's about to ring, so I gotta go. Toodles! And now for an encore presentation of my super special song! SING ALONG! My obsession has a first name, it's R-Y-U-I-C-H-I, My obsession has a second name, it's S-A-K-U-M-A, Oh, I'd love to eat him any day And if you ask me why I'll saaaaay... Cause Ryuichi has a way with being bishie every day.

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Monday, February 13, 2006

*cough*bullshit*cough*

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I got a letter back from Natalie (see post below)... and as I predicted, it was 112% grade-A bullshit. What'd I tell you? Here, I'll post the letter up here (of course, with spelling corrections to save you the same massive headache I had to endure). WARNING! The following letter contains extreme instances of utter bullshit that may be hazardous to your health. If you are pregnant, prone to seizures or are on any other way physically handicapped, it is not recommended that you read this letter. "Hey hun I'm so sorry that you feel this way. I thought we were best friends but if you've been wanting to say that for a long time I guess it was a lie. I'm sorry Bonnie. I know it's hard to be you but you're very special to me. You're my only true friend, other people are just not the same as what our frinedship has been. I still want to be you friend and..." blah, blah, she goes on to list all the countless memories we've shared, "...so anyway I almost cried when I read your letter and I felt really bad. I feel like you can tell me anything and I can tell you anything, Bonnie, I swear to god I don't care what anyone says, I love you and you are my bestest friend ever and I think we'll be friends for years. I want to be your friend forever but I want you to want that to. I will always be there. Love, Natalie." Yeah. BULL. If I'm your only true friend, why did you hurt me? Why do you take advantage of me? Why is it that I've had more fulfilling and satisfying conversations with my wall? And when have you always been there? The past year I've been hurt more than most humans are capable of and where were you? What did you do to help me then? And since when have I told you everything? Since when have I told you anything? I haven't. You know nothing about me, don't pretend that you do. So what should I do now? In a previous life, I would have taken "sorry" at face value and continued with my life. But not now. I don't want to forgive her. I know it's selfish but... I think I have the right to be selfish in this case. I want to show her just how much she's hurt me. I want her to know the true meaning of the word "sorry", the meaning I've come so acquainted to. I want her to feel regret. Is that wrong of me?

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My obsession has a first name, it's G-R-A-V-I...

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I'm at school right now, at lunch... and if I'm on the computers during lunch you can pretty much tell I'm trying to get away from my friends... yeah, right now pissed doesn't even describe how I feel right now. I've been disrespected, taken advantage of, and ignored for the last time. I wrote a nice, juicy note to Natalie during Spanish, basically listing all the thigs wrong with her, asking her if she knew how it felt to be me, asking her whether I deserve this total lack of respect... I also asked her what she'd do if I killed myself tonight... hypothetically, of course. I'm close to the edge, but I haven't fallen over yet. Oh yeah, in a completely unrelated story, I wrote a song! My obsession has a first name, it's R-Y-U-I-C-H-I, My obsession has a first name, it's S-A-K-U-M-A, Oh, I'd love to eat him any day and if you ask me why I'll saaaay... Cause Ryuichi has a way with being bishie every day. XD! Yeah, that's what I do in my spare time. Did you like it?

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Sunday, February 12, 2006

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I'm BORED! WHEEE! ^^ I'm watching season 7 of Friends, it's lotsa fun. I love this show. Oh yeah, there's something else I forgot to say on my last post. On Friday we were in P.E. and we were playing this game where you split into two rows and held up baseball bats across the tunnel thing and one person has to walk across all the bats and at the end my P.E. teacher went and I dropped him... on purpose... XD What can I say? I genuinely don't like the guy. He deserved it.

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