Birthday • 1991-10-23 Gender •
Female Location • Gardnerville AND Reno, Nevada (yeah, both) Member Since • 2005-11-01 Occupation • I'm currently a slave to like 3 different people. ^^ Me, a masochist? Never, Real Name • They tell me it's Bonnie, but I beg to differ. Everyone calls me by my last name anyway.
Personal
Achievements • I got Alicia to admit Gackt was tasty. Yaaay. Anime Fan Since • I think Cardcaptors was the first series I saw, but the one that got me hooked was Digimon. Favorite Anime • Gravitation, Loveless, Chobits, Cardcaptor Sakura, Last Exile, .hack//sign and dusk, X, Azumanga Daioh, Angelic Layer, Weiss Kreuz, Legal Drug, DNAngel, Excel Saga, Fake, Pita-Ten... lately I like some stuff on the Saturday lineup thanks to Tonya. Goals • Crap, my deadline's tomorrow... *glares at Tonya* Hobbies • Sleeping, writing, sleeping, pretending to write while in truth playing minesweeper, staring at the ceiling with my iPod battery hazardously low, travelling, avoiding motivation. Talents • Corrupting the hell out of friends.
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So much for today being an easy day. First off yesterday, I didn't get to update after school because my mom conned me into going to the orthodontist. And apparently my teeth are crap.
And then I didn't do my homework for 1st period...
And then in second period was the writing assessment and how crappy is this for a prompt: "Everyone has to obey some rules in their lives. Think of a time you were supposed to follow a rule. What happened?" And that SO isn't a vague topic! I ended up integrating blood, gore, and the emergency room in mine, so it's all cool.
Then I didn't do my homework for 3rd period so I lied and said I wasn't done with my writing to get out of going to math and getting in trouble.
Then in Spanish I had to go first on the speaking assessment and I swear to god I almost said "Konnichiwa, Bonnie desu" to the teacher. Oh god. THAT would have sucked. xD
Then... fifth period. U.S. History. And let me tell you that the Declaration of Independence has never seemed so erotic. Me and Sierra (Bonniecrat) were looking through it and we found the phrase "Manly firmness." IT WAS FRICKING HILARIOUS. Ms. Dedmon could not get us to shut up.
Then in English I gnawed on Alicia's facts about Alaska. And now I'm here, in the tech room. Wheeee.... and now I'm typing wheeee.... and now Sierra's reminding me I need another dot...
REMINISCING TIME!
OK so one time me and Vinny were at Sierra's house and while she was cooking breakfast we were reading Gravitation and this is how our conversation went:
Sidney (sierra's sister): I wanna read!
Me: No.
Sidney: Why?
Me: Because, as your elder, I have to protect you from the... the...
Vinny: The mansex.
Me: >< Way to be subtle, Victoria.
Vinny: I know.
Good god, that was a long post. Oh, by the way, I decided I'm gonna be Tohma's new stalker and I'm gonna go K-san on her old stalker and blow her brains out! YAY!
Has anyone seen Hare+Guu? It's the single most pointless thing ever. It's about... erm, what is it about? Well, there's this ten-year old kid who lives in some... village, with his mom who I wish my mom was like, and one day his mom comes back from the town meeting completely drunk, and with her she brings Guu. Guu is a little girl who's absolutely sugary-sweet and Hare's instantly in love. His mom says that Guu will be living with them from then on. But the next day Hare wakes up and finds Guu to be a totally different person. She's mean and rude and the worst part is she's eating everything! First she eats a banana, peel and all, and chews it up. Then she spits it out... and it's completely intact. Then she eats Hare's bird friend. Then... she eats Hare himself, who finds an alternate reality inside Guu's stomach! Yeah, I don't get it either...
Anyway, I'm sure you can tell I'm feeling somewhat better today. I have Tohma and XShadowmeX to thank for that... seeing as they're the only ones who would care if I go and jump off a cliff. I'm in tech, Ms. Baumann's being kind of cool, she's letting me listen to my mp3 player in class so now I'm going to have Spicy Marmalade stuck in my head all day. Plus I have Spanish next and my Spanish teacher always let me listen to music. I don't feel much like eating lunch today so I'll probably be on the internet in the library during lunch so it'll just be an easy day. I need a nap.
Okay, I promised I'd tell you, so here goes... it's really hard for me, realize that I haven't told ANYONE in the real world this so... consider yourself lucky.
So I was in the bathtub last night and what else is new, I love baths, being able to get away from people for any amount of time is a blessing. But I digress. I was shaving my legs and, I don't know... somehow that razorblade just looked so inviting and, well... I just came so close to just... ending it all. And I'm not joking around. The razor was right up against my wrist. It's always been in the back of my mind but... I've never come that close before. But I didn't do it, because I'm a coward. I can't do anything right, I can't even kill myself right... I'm just so scared but everywhere I try to go for comfort I just find a dead end. My whole life is just a dead end, an empty void, and I've lived so long shrouded in darkness that I've literally forgotten how bright even the night sky can be. I just want someone to make me feel safe, that everything will work out in the end, but I guess I lost that luxury, along with everything else I had, over a year ago. I just don't know what to do anymore...
Hm, I wish I had a topic to write about. I'm currently in the tech after school so I can't say all the stuff I want to say right now but there's a LOT I need to talk about, there's a lot of serious stuff going on so please check back in a few hours!
Wooosh. I'm in tech class right now and we were doing some crap for Microsoft Excel and I was the first one done (of course) so I got some free time so I decided to post. Whee. OH! Guess what!? On Thursday we have the 8th grade writing proficiency test in second period and GUESS WHAT MY SECOND PERIOD IS? Tech! So I'll probably be done in like 10 minutes (even though they give us an hour, as I'm sure you can tell, I'm not half bad at writing XD) so I'm gonna beg Ms. Baumann to let me go on the internet for the rest of the time! And Ms. Baumann loves me so she'll probably say yes!
I guess I'm kinda like Tohma Seguchi (the real one, not raven fire xD) in that aspect (identity crisis, anyone?) because I'm such a suck-up and the teachers all love me and let me do whatever the hell I want, yesterday my Spanish teacher let me listen to my MP3 player in class (so basically, I was simultaneously listening to J-pop, speaking English and learning Spanish all at the same time- my brain itches)... manipulation is fun! HOLY RUN-ON SENTENCE, BATMAN! Ookay, I'm off to visit all your pages. Now go, thou, and read meh fic! (I only have one more chapter to go... I feel so empty.)
I mean, just look at him! He's fucking adorable! Number one on my list of people I'd rape if they really existed! *squeals, Tohma-style*
Hmm. I'm currently watching Episode 8 of Gravitation... not going to be a very interesting weekend, I'm just going to spend it all alone. But that's okay, after 14 years of living in complete solitude, what's one more night alone? Not a heck of a lot.
I don't think I really need to explain where this link leads to. you can sort of guess. But if you're slow on the uptake, it's chapter 9. The spiciest chapter yet. Not intended for younger viewers. Do not attempt to view in the middle of tech class. Keep out of reach of children. Do not use while operating heavy machinery or while underwater. Product not tested on animals.
