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• 2005-11-01
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• I'm currently a slave to like 3 different people. ^^ Me, a masochist? Never,
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• They tell me it's Bonnie, but I beg to differ. Everyone calls me by my last name anyway.

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• I got Alicia to admit Gackt was tasty. Yaaay.
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• I think Cardcaptors was the first series I saw, but the one that got me hooked was Digimon.
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Monday, February 26, 2007

That's right, three days in a row. I am winner.

And so now I'm also a god? Jesus, what are you three DOING when I'm not around? I have my own cult all of a sudden... ;-;

(...do I get a fanlisting? XP)

Uhhh... last night was brutal. I took a Zyrtec because I had an allergic reaction to my cat's new toy, and, well... you know how they have the warnings on the commercials that say using certain drugs can cause an increase in suicidal thoughts...?

Um, yeah, I found this out the hard way.

It was BAD. Stayed up for hours just thinking the most morbid thoughts I could, and GOD, I wished I was dying.

And it's not like this is necessarily the first time as of late. Been having this sort of thought almost every day lately. I'm getting sick of the world. It's all messed up and we're the ones that messed it up. I don't know why we're here. There's no reason. It all leads to nothing, and all we're doing is ruining everything. I don't want to be a part of a society that can do nothing but destroy, especially when nothing's leading to anything. There's nothing out there. We don't serve some greater purpose; we're just a biological fact.

Just this general sense of meaninglessness is getting to me lately. God, I'm cynical. Anyone else ever feel this way?
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