myOtaku.com
• Join Today!

My Pages
• Home
• Portfolio
• Guestbook
• Quiz Results

Contact Me

OtakuBoards
• PaganAngel
Yahoo! Messenger
• kiss.shining

Vitals

Birthday
• 1991-10-23
Gender
• Female
Location
• Gardnerville AND Reno, Nevada (yeah, both)
Member Since
• 2005-11-01
Occupation
• I'm currently a slave to like 3 different people. ^^ Me, a masochist? Never,
Real Name
• They tell me it's Bonnie, but I beg to differ. Everyone calls me by my last name anyway.

Personal

Achievements
• I got Alicia to admit Gackt was tasty. Yaaay.
Anime Fan Since
• I think Cardcaptors was the first series I saw, but the one that got me hooked was Digimon.
Favorite Anime
• Gravitation, Loveless, Chobits, Cardcaptor Sakura, Last Exile, .hack//sign and dusk, X, Azumanga Daioh, Angelic Layer, Weiss Kreuz, Legal Drug, DNAngel, Excel Saga, Fake, Pita-Ten... lately I like some stuff on the Saturday lineup thanks to Tonya.
Goals
• Crap, my deadline's tomorrow... *glares at Tonya*
Hobbies
• Sleeping, writing, sleeping, pretending to write while in truth playing minesweeper, staring at the ceiling with my iPod battery hazardously low, travelling, avoiding motivation.
Talents
• Corrupting the hell out of friends.




Jump to User:

myOtaku.com: PaganAngel


Saturday, March 24, 2007

Hello, everyone...

*sigh* What a mess, what a mess. Will someone throw me a fucking broom? Lately it seems too hard to clean up with bare hands.

I'm so SICK of all this shit, and yes, I realize I'm throwing a tantrum about it all. But I'm so fucking sick of this happening all the time. And it's easy for you to say that I need to go easy on myself and not regret anything, but I've tried that and I'm not learning anything. I'm making the exact same mistakes over and over again.

My sin is this: I want it all. I want to have my cake, eat it too, and lick the frosting off the goddamn plate. I don't stop to think about how many people I hurt along the way. But how many people am I going to hurt and lie to before I realize that I can't have everything?

And the way my mind works-- I think as though there's two different futures out there. But there's going to come a point- soon- when I have to pick between the two no matter how much I avoid it. But how can I do that when the two are nearly identical? Do I trust my fate to the flip of a coin? Hell, at this point, I'd trust a nickel far more than I'd trust my own intuition.

Christ. Does it show that I didn't sleep last night?
Comments (4)

« Home