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Birthday
• 1991-10-23
Gender
• Female
Location
• Gardnerville AND Reno, Nevada (yeah, both)
Member Since
• 2005-11-01
Occupation
• I'm currently a slave to like 3 different people. ^^ Me, a masochist? Never,
Real Name
• They tell me it's Bonnie, but I beg to differ. Everyone calls me by my last name anyway.

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Achievements
• I got Alicia to admit Gackt was tasty. Yaaay.
Anime Fan Since
• I think Cardcaptors was the first series I saw, but the one that got me hooked was Digimon.
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• Gravitation, Loveless, Chobits, Cardcaptor Sakura, Last Exile, .hack//sign and dusk, X, Azumanga Daioh, Angelic Layer, Weiss Kreuz, Legal Drug, DNAngel, Excel Saga, Fake, Pita-Ten... lately I like some stuff on the Saturday lineup thanks to Tonya.
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• Crap, my deadline's tomorrow... *glares at Tonya*
Hobbies
• Sleeping, writing, sleeping, pretending to write while in truth playing minesweeper, staring at the ceiling with my iPod battery hazardously low, travelling, avoiding motivation.
Talents
• Corrupting the hell out of friends.




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Thursday, November 17, 2005

Today's ponderings
Didn't sleep last night (again)- I was too hungry, I didn't eat dinner (again), food has completely lost its appeal to me (again). Ate three marshmallows out of the Lucky Charms box for breakfast- all four-leaf-clovers. Luck. Ha. As if. Got to school, waited for the buses to come, waited for one of my so-called friends to come... but what am I really waiting for?

I'm waiting to be saved. To be rescued. I've been waiting for over a year for that one thing that will change everything. It's rather ironic that I'm still maintaining my belief in cliches after I've proven wrong every one in existance. And why do I wait? Even if there was something out there, even if I found what I was looking for, it wouldn't last. It's not possible for me to be happy. I'm never satisfied because I know I don't deserve happiness. It hurts having to wait like this, after I know what's waiting out there- after I've known what it means to be in love. And even so, I wait. And it drives me crazy. Something has to change.

Until then, I will wait.
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