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• 2005-11-01
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• I'm currently a slave to like 3 different people. ^^ Me, a masochist? Never,
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• They tell me it's Bonnie, but I beg to differ. Everyone calls me by my last name anyway.

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• I got Alicia to admit Gackt was tasty. Yaaay.
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• I think Cardcaptors was the first series I saw, but the one that got me hooked was Digimon.
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Sunday, December 18, 2005

The Writer in Me
Writing chapter 3 last night, I thought about a lot of things. Why is it I'm such a talented writer, I asked myself? And instantly I knew the answer. It's because I'm sick of the way reality is. Everything's completely out of my control and has been for over a year. When I write, I feel like I have some control. I can alter destiny. I can make impossible things happen. Things I wish I could do in real life. All my life I've had this feeling that I'm supposed to do something BIG in my life, funny as it may sound. Something important. Something that will change the world, or at least mine. But for the past year, that's definitely not been happening. It's like I live through life on the bleachers, watching everyone else go through their daily crap- "Katie broke up with Alex-" "Did you watch Laguna Beach last night?-" "I heard Terrell got Ashley a 150 dollar necklace for Christmas-" and it seems like I'm never a part of it... I'm always stuck on the sidelines, waiting for my turn. Well, guess what. I've been waiting for over a year. I'm sick of always having to wait, especially when there's been no sign of change for over a year. What's the point? Why am I still here? These days I'm never even feeling; I'm just living and waiting.

And writing, too. Speaking of which, chapter 3 is now out. I bring it to you in a mixture of pride and embarrassment. You know what? don't read it, okay? Okay.
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