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Birthday
• 1991-10-23
Gender
• Female
Location
• Gardnerville AND Reno, Nevada (yeah, both)
Member Since
• 2005-11-01
Occupation
• I'm currently a slave to like 3 different people. ^^ Me, a masochist? Never,
Real Name
• They tell me it's Bonnie, but I beg to differ. Everyone calls me by my last name anyway.

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• I got Alicia to admit Gackt was tasty. Yaaay.
Anime Fan Since
• I think Cardcaptors was the first series I saw, but the one that got me hooked was Digimon.
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• Gravitation, Loveless, Chobits, Cardcaptor Sakura, Last Exile, .hack//sign and dusk, X, Azumanga Daioh, Angelic Layer, Weiss Kreuz, Legal Drug, DNAngel, Excel Saga, Fake, Pita-Ten... lately I like some stuff on the Saturday lineup thanks to Tonya.
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• Crap, my deadline's tomorrow... *glares at Tonya*
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• Sleeping, writing, sleeping, pretending to write while in truth playing minesweeper, staring at the ceiling with my iPod battery hazardously low, travelling, avoiding motivation.
Talents
• Corrupting the hell out of friends.




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Saturday, February 25, 2006

Yeah... sorry for the second post today, But something just happened, and I need to rant about it... it's like, you know when one of those reminders of your past comes out of nowhere and slaps you across the face? Yeah. That's what happened to me. It's just... I thought I moved on. I thought there were other things in my life to worry about, that I'd totally recovered from the stuff that happened a year ago. Then this happens and I just broke down. Why is it I can't move on? Because it seems the rest of the world has. I'm the only one who's still dwelling on it. Maybe that's because those things tht happened were the only happiness I'd ever had in my life. And to have them suddenly ripped away... of course I'm still scarred. I was so happy... and now I have nothing. That's what hurts most of all. The fact that I could have been happy, would have been happy, even today, if only circumstances had been different. And now it's all gone. All I have is a void, when I know I could have had so much more... that's why I'm on the verge of breakdown each and every day. Because I've seen happiness... but I can never acheive it.
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