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Birthday
• 1991-10-23
Gender
• Female
Location
• Gardnerville AND Reno, Nevada (yeah, both)
Member Since
• 2005-11-01
Occupation
• I'm currently a slave to like 3 different people. ^^ Me, a masochist? Never,
Real Name
• They tell me it's Bonnie, but I beg to differ. Everyone calls me by my last name anyway.

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Achievements
• I got Alicia to admit Gackt was tasty. Yaaay.
Anime Fan Since
• I think Cardcaptors was the first series I saw, but the one that got me hooked was Digimon.
Favorite Anime
• Gravitation, Loveless, Chobits, Cardcaptor Sakura, Last Exile, .hack//sign and dusk, X, Azumanga Daioh, Angelic Layer, Weiss Kreuz, Legal Drug, DNAngel, Excel Saga, Fake, Pita-Ten... lately I like some stuff on the Saturday lineup thanks to Tonya.
Goals
• Crap, my deadline's tomorrow... *glares at Tonya*
Hobbies
• Sleeping, writing, sleeping, pretending to write while in truth playing minesweeper, staring at the ceiling with my iPod battery hazardously low, travelling, avoiding motivation.
Talents
• Corrupting the hell out of friends.




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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

PaganAngel's Breakdown #973
I ended up going to the doctor today. Both my ears are infected. Woo-hoo! Am I not the luckiest human alive? So now today I've had 8 ibuprofens, 2 big gigantic antibiodics, a coupla coated Tylenols, and like 4 Pepcid AC's... woo! I'm gonna die!

Ugh, yeah. The title. That's right. Got home and I was just sitting in the living room and before I knew what was happening I was just crying and I couldn't stop... it was so weird, I'm so used to never doing that around my parents. I'm so used to keeping everything a secret from them. But I just totally lost it today.

Maybe I'm finally starting to break... maybe I'm breaking from the pressure of keeping it all inside.

I can't live like this anymore. I just can't. I hate how it always feel. I hate how I break into hysterics everytime I look in the mirror. I'm sick of living my life in secret...

...and that's why I'm going to tell you. Everything. It's time I came clean. It's time you all learned what it is that happened to me all those months ago. It's time I told my story, because this is something I've been dying to do for about 16 months now. So I'll tell you. Just not today. My head's totally screwed right now and I can't really think straight or find the right words to say. But tomorrow, I will tell you everything... I promise.
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