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Birthday
• 1991-10-23
Gender
• Female
Location
• Gardnerville AND Reno, Nevada (yeah, both)
Member Since
• 2005-11-01
Occupation
• I'm currently a slave to like 3 different people. ^^ Me, a masochist? Never,
Real Name
• They tell me it's Bonnie, but I beg to differ. Everyone calls me by my last name anyway.

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Achievements
• I got Alicia to admit Gackt was tasty. Yaaay.
Anime Fan Since
• I think Cardcaptors was the first series I saw, but the one that got me hooked was Digimon.
Favorite Anime
• Gravitation, Loveless, Chobits, Cardcaptor Sakura, Last Exile, .hack//sign and dusk, X, Azumanga Daioh, Angelic Layer, Weiss Kreuz, Legal Drug, DNAngel, Excel Saga, Fake, Pita-Ten... lately I like some stuff on the Saturday lineup thanks to Tonya.
Goals
• Crap, my deadline's tomorrow... *glares at Tonya*
Hobbies
• Sleeping, writing, sleeping, pretending to write while in truth playing minesweeper, staring at the ceiling with my iPod battery hazardously low, travelling, avoiding motivation.
Talents
• Corrupting the hell out of friends.




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Thursday, May 11, 2006

I don't really feel much like posting anything substantial today... I don't feel like doing much of anything, honestly. I'd like to cry, but I can hardly even breathe... I feel totally sick to my stomach... I'm shaky... and I know it all has nothing to do with being sick. I... I don't know. I don't really want to talk about it. I don't even want to think about it. I'm right back where I was a year and a half ago... I don't want to be. Just the other day, I made a promise to myself that I would move on. That I wouldn't let the memory of him hold me back, because that wasn't what he would have wanted. He wanted me to be happy.... And now it's all happening over again. I don't want this. It hurts too much. Last time this happened... it was unbearable. When it was over I just wanted to die... I don't want to go through this again... the pain of love is something I don't want to experience anymore. People are always saying how love is a beautiful thing... it's not. It's practically a form of bondage. You can't stop thinking about the person... you give your life to that person... and then once it's over you just feel like dying... I can't take it, not again. I don't want to....
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