Monday, May 15, 2006

umarekawareru anata yo hitori hohoemanaide hitomi o irodoru...

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Today's really random quote: "That's... no... parabola. o_O" Oh my god oh my god... ohmygod... I've been totally bouncing off the walls waiting until I'd get to finally tell you guys this ever since I found out... in less than two weeks we fly to Washington, and, and... guess where our flight connects? Guess! Are you guessing? No? Well I'll wait until you have a guess. ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... OK, are you ready? It's in... it's in... IT'S IN CHICAGO! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! AAAAAAH! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! OH MY GOOOOOOOOD! This is totally fate... this kinda stuff doesn't happen by coincidence. For those of you not knowing, Chicago's Tohma's home city... (and I'm sure half of you are tired of hearing 'Tohma! Tohma!' all day long, and I apologize) I'm just gonna explode with anticipation. I mean, who cares about some lame spelling bee when I'm going to be within a twenty mile radius of her... maybe I'll ditch my mom at the airport and run away. Nah. She'd probably kill herself, and we certainly don't want that, do we? *rolls eyes* You guys are certainly all scratching your heads going, "so you're gonna be in the Chicago airport. So what?" Well, I don't really know... but just knowing how close I'm gonna be to her... it's really powerful stuff to me. I really thought a lot last night... which of course means I got no sleep, but that's neither here nor there. But anyway, I really realized that I don't need to be the best anymore. It really doesn't matter. I don't need to be number one to be happy. There are several paths to happiness, and I feel honored, proud, and lucky to say that I've found one of them. You could offer me any trophy, any title, any position, and I would never in a million years exchange it for what I have right now. Having someone who loves you... that's far more precious than anything in the world in my book. It's funny, really... I always lived my life as a martyr, as someone to be pitied. Things never worked in my favor. I never had any faith because I felt as if I'd been dealt a crappy hand. It was hard for me to just put one foot in front of another day after day. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that all these bad experiences, all this pain, led me to where I am now, and I feel like the luckiest person in the world. It was a difficult road, but it all worked out in the end. The whole "everything happens for a reason" cliche really proved itself true, though I was skeptical at first. It's so great... it's like I'm finally being rewarded for withstanding it all. Like I finally found the light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe my footsteps have been guided all along. I never thought I, of all people, would be staring face-to-face with a happy ending, but here I am. I still have a hard time believing it, as though there's a catch somewhere. But there's not. It's just pure, unconditional happiness. I'm just so... *sigh* Something to ponder on: How come the Kentucky Fried Chicken commercials have the song Sweet Home Alabama playing in the background? o_O

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