myOtaku.com: PaganAngel

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1991-10-23
Gender
• Female
Location
• Gardnerville AND Reno, Nevada (yeah, both)
Member Since
• 2005-11-01
Occupation
• I'm currently a slave to like 3 different people. ^^ Me, a masochist? Never,
Real Name
• They tell me it's Bonnie, but I beg to differ. Everyone calls me by my last name anyway.

Personal

Achievements
• I got Alicia to admit Gackt was tasty. Yaaay.
Anime Fan Since
• I think Cardcaptors was the first series I saw, but the one that got me hooked was Digimon.
Favorite Anime
• Gravitation, Loveless, Chobits, Cardcaptor Sakura, Last Exile, .hack//sign and dusk, X, Azumanga Daioh, Angelic Layer, Weiss Kreuz, Legal Drug, DNAngel, Excel Saga, Fake, Pita-Ten... lately I like some stuff on the Saturday lineup thanks to Tonya.
Goals
• Crap, my deadline's tomorrow... *glares at Tonya*
Hobbies
• Sleeping, writing, sleeping, pretending to write while in truth playing minesweeper, staring at the ceiling with my iPod battery hazardously low, travelling, avoiding motivation.
Talents
• Corrupting the hell out of friends.

myOtaku.com: PaganAngel

Monday, May 22, 2006

Can't get enough... don't let me down... one more night....

I was bored last night (as you probably already figured XD) so I was reading the DDR Online user agreement... and I found something rather ponder-worthy in there:

"10. Suspension. KONAMI may temporarily suspend the Online Game service in part or in whole without notice due to routine maintenance, emergency repairs, fire, earthquake, tidal wave, flood, volcanic eruption (the fuck? In L.A.?), war (yeah, no shit, Sherlock), strike, government action are failure to act (are you suggesting something?), the act of any civil or military authority (DDR nazi- NO DDR FOR YOU!), act of god (ok, this is fucking ridiculous), or by any other causes beyond KONAMI's control..."

Um... yeah. That was oddly specific. o_O XD User agreements are fun!

Enngh... that provided me with about 3 minutes of joy. Back to the usual angstfests, then... I just feel like crap... in other words, it's the same old story. Why am I so tired lately? I probably spend too much time thinking. I just need a nice coma right about now. Thinking about absoutely nothing... sounds like utter nirvana to me. And I'm crying every time there's no one around to see me... I thought I was stronger than this. My counselor suggests anti-depressants, but I don't really want them. I know they're not mood altering and all, but it just doesn't feel right. No amount of medication can change the past, and these thoughts I have are a cardinal part of who I am. I'd be a different person. In a way I guess I'm not only accepting but encouraging my suffering... like I said the other day, mucho masochism. If I'm not a walking contradiction, I'm nothing. I constantly moan about how terrible my life is but I shun the chance to change it. I'm really weird... I even confuse myself.

Today I read the first 50 or so pages of Interview with the Vampire. Umm... yeeeeeah. No comment. I give it a "aaaalright, then" on the adjective scale. But the book's worth a lot of points, so I'll stick with it.

Something to ponder on: If the opposite of pro is con, what's the opposite of progress?

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