myOtaku.com: PaganAngel

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1991-10-23
Gender
• Female
Location
• Gardnerville AND Reno, Nevada (yeah, both)
Member Since
• 2005-11-01
Occupation
• I'm currently a slave to like 3 different people. ^^ Me, a masochist? Never,
Real Name
• They tell me it's Bonnie, but I beg to differ. Everyone calls me by my last name anyway.

Personal

Achievements
• I got Alicia to admit Gackt was tasty. Yaaay.
Anime Fan Since
• I think Cardcaptors was the first series I saw, but the one that got me hooked was Digimon.
Favorite Anime
• Gravitation, Loveless, Chobits, Cardcaptor Sakura, Last Exile, .hack//sign and dusk, X, Azumanga Daioh, Angelic Layer, Weiss Kreuz, Legal Drug, DNAngel, Excel Saga, Fake, Pita-Ten... lately I like some stuff on the Saturday lineup thanks to Tonya.
Goals
• Crap, my deadline's tomorrow... *glares at Tonya*
Hobbies
• Sleeping, writing, sleeping, pretending to write while in truth playing minesweeper, staring at the ceiling with my iPod battery hazardously low, travelling, avoiding motivation.
Talents
• Corrupting the hell out of friends.

myOtaku.com: PaganAngel

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Work today... bittersweet. On the sweet end, I beat 4 kidlets at chess in under 15 minutes-- got 2 of 'em in a 5-move checkmate, using the same strategy both times even though the second guy watched me do it to the first. Kids never learn.... on the bitter end, two girls made a point of pointing me and screaming to random passersby, "SHE'S GOT BIG BOOBIES!" I am not joking. It was awful. Little kids are taking note of my breasts. Fantastic.

So now I've got fangirls, ah? Great.

Ugh... pretty much all of Nevada's been set ablaze. Tis wildfire season. I can't stand it... I hate smoke. I can't stand any kind of smoke... I hate cigarette smoke like the devil. It kills me. Remember, kids, second-hand smoke kills!

Hm... now that my day's update is complete, let's get to stuff that doesn't really matter. Yes, folks, it's time for PaganAngel's world-famous angsty rant of the [insert time period here].

It's like... it's no surprise to anyone I'm smart, right? Everyone I know considers me a prodigy. But prodigial at what, exactly? The more I think about it, the more I realize I'm a jack-of-all-trades: good at everything, but great at nothing. And it's not like any of my talents are going to mean anything in the real world. I'm doomed to mediocrity... and that drives me insane. I've always felt that I was meant for something big, but... I just can't see that happening. I'm not good at anything. Sure, I can be the star student that all the parents love and that all the students love to hate, but what difference does it make in the real world? None.

This quote from Gravitation pretty much sums up my thoughts:

"Reality is just a nice way of saying 'tragedy'. The truth is, people are mean and vain!... There is no love! It's just a dream!... Life sucks and then you die! No matter how much you think you're in love and that you'll be together forever and you feel like you'd die for that person... the truth is everyone ends up alone! There's no such thing as a happy ending! Give all your love. Every ounce! Give every breath! You can love him so much that you think of nothing else... but it will all be for nothing! Absolutely nothing! It all falls apart and you end up dying alone for no one at all!"

...actually, that quote had little to do with what I just said... but I don't feel much like caring.

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