Wednesday, July 19, 2006

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Well, now. I currently have 911 visits. That certainly can't be a good sign. Especially with all that World War 3 crap going on. Anyone else under the impression that the world just might be coming to an end? Eh, I'd welcome an apocalypse right about now... it'd save me from having to think about all this stuff. Not to ever have to think about the future... that'd be nice. Yeah, I'm sorry for yesterday... it's just really hard for me. Everyone expects so much out of me, but I know I'll never measure up to their expecations. I'm fine with it; I don't want the life they want for me. But I don't want to disappoint them. Knowing that you've failed before it even happens... it's hard. Real hard. I want to tell my mom... I want to thank her for being there and wanting the best for me... but I also want to tell her that I'd rather follow my own path. Shit... I'm totally crying now.. It's funny. For the past two years, it's been the past that's tormented me. These days, it's the future. Ironic, since "live for the moment" has always been my mantra. Hm... what else... oh, right. So my birthday's in a couple months. My mom's hinted that she's already been shopping for me... but I've made up my mind. I really wouldn't like to get any gifts or anything this year. I mean, I'm not a kid anymore. I don't need my family to spend money to prove they love me. I just don't know how to tell her. We rented Wedding Crashers... my mom and I have an obsession with Owen Wilson now. Don't know when we're gonna get around to watching it. I have class tonight. Oh, my assignment for tonight is (begin sarcasm) SO HARD. I have to proofread my paper, and we all know I can't spell worth crap. It's gonna take hours... I hope that I spelled "antidisestablishmentarianism" right...XD Here's my top 10 life lessons I compiled last night in a stare-at-the-ceiling session of insomnia: 10. Diet coke is heaven-sent. 9. Every song on the radio seems to be about either love or sex. Funny, as the two are pretty much exact opposites. 8. Don't ever try to snort pepper. 7. 98% of the population responds to copy-and-paste chains. If you're one of the 2% that doesn't, copy and paste this into your post. (XD) 6. Contrary to popular belief, Nevada is not a desert. 5. My cat likes Doritos. 4. Who lives in a pineapple under the sea? ...Nick Danger. (The coolest Reno DJ ever... he killed himself. It sucked.) 3. KARMA DOESN'T HAVE AN H IN IT. 2. Microwaveable chimichangas taste absolutely nothing like real chimichangas. And number 1... 1. Nevada is NOT pronounced with the first "a" like in "ball". It's "a" like in "cat". If you walk into Reno and say the word "Nevaaaaahda" you WILL get beat up. Do you feel smarter? TIME FOR SONG LYRICS! I'm frightened at night and the wind has a roar It seeps through the hall and from under the door Like the shit that was said I can't take it that well I give and I give and I give and I give and I'm still Lost and hurt and bone thin from the love that's been starved I know it got close but I'm sure it's too far From the point of suspense, we know it should be The end of that part of our favorite movie When the guy grabs the girl and gives her his hand Says take me away from this torturous land Cause the grave is set up, the hole that I dug I gave and I gave and I gave and I gave you my trust Like the time that we kissed and you gave me a lie To add to the scene you pretended to cry But I'm here and I'm cool, the way that it is Just give me a chance and I'll try to forgive And I don't know And I can't guess If it's gonna be OK But now my last wish Is that you do this with me Kiss me here and hold my hand Let me feel like I'm the only one I know you can Won't you do it for me now I've really had it with the rain of the tears The predictable storm that has come every year And it sneaks in from shore with a bat in its hand I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I can't You're a thief and a witch but I love you to death You steal my heart and curse under your breath But the one thing that I can most willing prove That when you are gone I'll be fine without you And I don't know And I can't guess If it's gonna be OK But now my last wish Is that you do this with me Kiss me here and hold my hand Let me feel like I'm the only one I know you can Won't you do it for me now? Now just hold on, hold on to me

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