Saturday, October 8, 2005

   Introspective Retrospective

Thanks for letting me vent. Yesterdays post was just a bit of self-analysis I needed to vent about. No worries ok, I just need to put it out there. I know there is always going to be terrible things that go along with all the wonderful. For instance: Good vs. Bad things in life -Friends on the Internet. The great thing is you can have a huge pool of friends from all over the world. People you would probably never get the privilege of ever meeting otherwise. They are just a few key strokes away. The bad, they in reality are hundreds of miles away. If you were all closer I could give you each a huge bear hug. We could eat olive loaf til we puke. We could all get together and watch hours of anime and play video games until we pass out! I know it's a trade off. I would rather know you only through the internet than not at all. Someday we will meet in person, I'll bring the olive loaf. -Quitting my career because of RA. Obviously the bad is no longer being able to work in the career I studied for, worked hard for and loved so much. I wouldn't give up that life experience for anything. I loved helping the animals and making their lives better. It was very fulfilling and rewarding. I miss it very much. Now the silver lining. If it were not for this change I wouldn't have tried my hand at writing. I would have missed out on all the great friends I have made while doing interviews. I really do have a great time meeting people in the anime industry and I would have missed out on this experience if I were still working in vet med. Speaking of which ADV just today asked me to become one of their screeners. This definitely would have been something I missed out on if I were still working my 15 hour days at the vet clinic! -RA itself. Rheumatoid Arthritis. Bad, bad, bad. It totally sucks. I think you guys already know why it is bad...painful disfiguring evil disease that makes me take nasty drugs that cost an arm and leg. meh RA, meh! What is so good about it? It has really changed the way I look at life. I use to take lots of things for granted. Things like holding dishes. Just the other day I had a dish slip out of my fingers and crash down on top of some other ones...they all broke and a couple of bowls are chipped. Just call me Destructo Bear! Being able to turn a door knob, pour some milk from a gallon jug, comb my hair...things that normally you don't even think twice about are a major accomplishment for me. I don't take the little things for granted. Being able to write this update is wonderful. Somedays I can't move my fingers because they are sore and swollen...today is a good day. -Having a dog with really bad gas. Stinky, nasty, something crawled up there and died gas. What could possibly be good about this you ask? Taking that Gas-o-Matic dog to the vet clinic were your best friend is employed for an exam. Then having him pass the largest cloud of gas ever in the front lobby just as a client walks in and everyone else runs away (including you and Sir Farts-o-Lot out the back door). Thus leaving forementioned best friend alone in a stinky cloud of gas to explain to the client that it wasn't her. The good part, well besides embarrassing your best friend, would be that she is still your best friend. You guys get the idea, with everything in life there is something good that comes along with the bad. We just need to take it all in stride. Some bads are worse than others...but don't forget all the good that comes with no strings attached. Where am I going with this? I don't know I think I am just rambling right now. Wait! I know where I am going with this! Coffee fixes all things wrong in this world. Jen (the victim of the dog gassing) and I went out for coffee, we had these Iced Toffee Mochas and they were devine. Yeah, coffee is the remedy to all of evils in this world. Drink more coffee, be happy. If you don't drink the coffee, no worries, I will drink your quota. Coffee + Panda = Joy. Comments on Comments hEvN: I hear ya. I am sure you feel the same way i do, when I make someone else happy it makes me very happy. It is very emotionally fulfilling to me to put a smile on someone's face. ::huggles:: TheMouse: Have I told you lately that I love you. Well I do. You are really a great friend and most everything we chatted about on the phone. I guess I just need to get it together. ~_^ blackwings: We are all in the same "no direction" boat...we shall call it a pleasure cruise and enjoy the ride! All the way through high school and even part of college I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, what career path to take. I finally decide and my health tells me otherwise. Hey, when life throws you pies make pie-monade. Just keep on a truckin'. As for volunteering the only animal shelter in my area is a "Doggie Death Row". When I was working at the vet clinic it was the responsibility of my boss to take care of euthanasia when the person in charge of the shelter was gone. Several times he had to put 20+ animals in a sitting to sleep. Emotionally I don't even like going out to the shelter since it is just too hard to see all of them there. Knowing if they don't get adopted they are not long for this world. It's far to heart breaking. If a no-kill shelter opened up, I would be first on the volunteer list. ^_^ error: True, true. Spending too much time worrying about what to do is time that could have been spent doing something else...something productive. I just needed to have that self-exploration time yesterday and today I feel fine. Just going to be me. dposse: Before I forget, the other day I was not making fun of your name, I was trying to be witty and funny with everyone's names. I am sorry if I offended you. Gomen ne! Whether life is good or bad we should just keep on a-goin'. I know the good times are easier to take and we just need to see the bad ones as, dare I say it, character builders! celestialcharm: I love you too! ::huggles:: Being optimistic is very important to a positive out look on life. At times it is very VERY difficult but there is always a silver lining. Sometimes it is hard to see, but in time you can find the hidden good in every situation. I know I can.

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Friday, October 7, 2005

   Introspective Post Ahead - You've been warned!

Why am I here? What is my purpose? I am not sure if it is the change in the seasons, the constant illness or what but all day today I have been feeling really lonely. Lonely and kind of sad too. I spent the day listening to music and trying to get motivated to do some article writing...but failing miserably. I found my mind wandering. Questions of what my purpose in life, what I have to offer this world, started to plague my thoughts. I know we all do this. We wonder why and what our existence means in the whole scheme of things. I think of the future and what it holds for me. I worry about being alone. What happens if something happens to John? He really does mean the world to me and without him I don't think I could make it in this world. My health insurance is through his company and if he were gone...I would be dead...literally. The cost of my medications really is outrageous. Put it this way. The money I spend on medications, lab test and doctor appointments a month would equal the monthly car payment for a nice $32K car. My mom who has been dealing with RA for 30+ years was just told by her (and my doc) that she needs to have surgery on a couple of her fingers. Her thumb has turned completely sideways at a right angle to the joint. It looks like the letter "L" laying on it's side. This is what I have in my future: steroid injections into the joints and multiple surgeries. I called a few friends but they couldn't chat long because they were at work or had other obligations. Chatting with Jen I could hear everyone joking and laughing in the background and I really missed it. Jen works at the vet clinic I use to work at before getting sick. I use to be a part of that. This makes me really miss working with the animals. I miss joking around with my co-workers. I miss being a part of that life I use to live. Why am I here? What is my purpose? I know this was a pretty heavy post. We all have issues in our lives. Mine are probably silly compared to others but I just wanted to share my jumbled up thoughts and feeling with all of you, my friends. I feel better when I write. When I get my thoughts down on paper...or in this case on the net... I feel much better. I hope there is at least one person out there who connects with me. It makes me feel like maybe I am not so alone in the world. That someone out there understands my feelings of isolation. This awful feeling of being sad and alone in the world with the feeling your life has no purpose. Why am I here? What is my purpose? I guess in the end I know what the answer is, I am here to live. Live my life and be happy to the best of my abilities. That is really all I know for sure.

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Wednesday, October 5, 2005

   This Space For Rent

Still feeling pretty meh. I feel so out of touch it is terrible. I have been trying to catch up on all my phone calls and emails but I have been failing terribly. I'm sorry you guys, I will get back to guest book stuff and PMs soon. I really don't have much to report since I haven't been doing much. The most exciting thing in my life would be that I finished playing FF9 and have moved on to X...and a bit of X-2. I am still on the Final Fantasy kick. I wonder when I will get over this kick and move on to something else... Anywho, your comments and my rambling answers/responses to them: God(dess) of War marz: How in the world could I be mad at you? I haven't been by to visit any sites lately so if anyone should have bad thoughts aimed at her it should be me. I am really bad about making the rounds to sites. Being sick bites and it really just sucks all my energy and motivation from me. I'm surprised I even got out of bed! lol agroup...bgang...ctroop...dposse: Thanks for the well wishes. From what it sounds like is there are a bunch of people around this world who are battling colds too. I guess misery loves company. Now pass the box of tissues. Aaryanna Frise: Oh my FMA collection! Of course I have been collecting the DVDs and did get the collector's tin box with the first disk. I have a soundtrack, manga and guide books in Japanese, post cards, Myth bag with Al keychain on it, posters, 5 foot cardboard standee...oh and I am not sure if it counts but I have pictures of me with voice actors Vic (Edward Elric) and Travis (Roy Mustang). I think that is it. If only I had more money... The Clown House Mouse: I really need to give you a call. I have to tell you about my chat with Dan. He did just record his part in GITS:SAC 2nd Gig. I am doing my best to take care of myself but for some strange reason I still seem to be sick. Meh. I am sure it is Bun Bun's fault. :P I'll call you soon. Easter BunnieGirl: On the mend...on the mend. I really hate being sick. Still can't think of a nickname indifference: Ah yes, my writing. I use to write a veterinary newsletter. Very small "readership", only about 6000 or so. After I stopped working in vet med I starting doing writing for theO. I have my articles of course, some news stuff that has been on the front page of the site in the news section, 30 some anime hub descriptions and the few reviews too. My story was published in "Arthritis Today" after I sent them a queary about my story, I didn't get any writing credit but oh well, at least it is my story. I have done some anime script transcription for Harmony Gold and I am included in the pool of freelancers for the "Columbia Basin Business Journal" which is a local publication put out by the newspaper here in my hometown. I think that is about it for now. Since this is my second career I really don't have a bunch of stuff under my belt yet, but I am working on it. ^_^ This game is rated M for Mimmi: Hmm, my favorite part of my body to be massaged would be ANY part of me that my RA is flaring up. Right now it is my left elbow, both wrists and my fingers. When I am just in the mood for a massage, which would be always, I would have to say I love having my back and shoulders done. Just thinking about a good massage makes me wish I could have one. I wonder if John will give me a nice backrub...^_^ KimmehWolfwood: Slowly but surely I am getting better...more slowly than I like. meh. whitecat: Well I hope you get well soon. Whatever this thing going around is, it sure is nasty.

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Friday, September 30, 2005

   Panda vs. The Dark Side (aka Cold)

Dark Side still winning. So, needless to say I am still feeling . Due to the medication fog that has taken over my mind I can't even comment on comments about the comments that you guys commented on. I think that is right. If not, meh. You know what I mean. Feel free to ask questions, comment and I will get back to you guys. ::haaaaachoooooo!:: I would give you guys all hugs but I have a cold and I would hate it if you guys got sick too. I love you all and will be back soon.

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Sunday, September 25, 2005

   Haaaaaachooooooooo!

I have a cold. My nose is all stuffy and I feel like my brain is sore. Hopefully I will make sense in this post. I shall comment on comments about the last set of comments. No pictures this time, to lazy to get good ones. Oh what the heck, just one that sums up how I feel right now. Cold vs. Panda...Cold wins. Anyway, comments on comments about my comments. Some sexy Guy : I am a bit wordy at times. I can say pretty much nothing in 1000 words or more. I could probably write an entire college essay on a subject I know nothing about just because I am really good at BS-ing my way through. Rock on all ye wordy bastards! Yamchaaaaaaaaaaa : Thanks for the kind words. I figure that my situation is what it is and isn't going to change if I pout about it. Mind you I do my fair share of pouting, like right now with this stupid head cold, but my RA is something I have to deal with. I can either move on with my life or let it control me. I am going to do what I want. No one should let the challenges in life stop them from being happy. I-can't-think-of-a-nickname-right-now-indifference : TheO is such a great site because of the membership we have. Such a large portion is dedicated to the members to contribute their talents to the community. You can see it in the post quality on theOB, fan art, greetings, reviews, articles, quizes and of course the section you are very active in, the wallpapers. The staff totally rocks, but all the work would be for not if there were no members to enjoy it. Bichon Aaryanna : I understand that not drinking coffee thing. Except for that bad experience I didn't touch any coffee stuff until I was 15. It's weird how when you are little different foods and drinks will be "icky" but as you get older they all of a sudden taste great. Not always, but alot of the time. I use to hate salads but now love them. I use to hate the smell of beer and...I still do. LOL Heriko (the year my hubby graduated high school) 89 : Yeah, like SG mentioned, I am very wordy. I really do enjoy writing even when my fingers hurt. If I didn't have this terrible head cold I think I could come up with better responses than what I have be writing right now. I know...blah, blah, blah...I write too much. 60 Billion $$ Mamma Vash : I feel very honored that you think I could write a book like Bombeck or Barry. Humbled and honored. Wouldn't that be a trip if I did write a book. You can all say...Hey! I knew her from theO before she became famous! LOL That'll be the day! error : I too love Frappachinos. I could totally live off of them. Just thinking about one is making me wish I had one. Actually...I think I have one in my fridge! Thanks for reminding me! RIN-I-remember-being-21: Which does remind me of a story. Short one, don't worry. I was able to buy alcohol before I was 21. I didn't get carded or anything. I actually didn't think anything of it. I was shopping with John for groceries and I wasn't 21 yet. We bought food including some beer and I paid for it. It wasn't for me but I did purchase it. Oops. I am a law breaker! Mwahahaha!! Secretly a furry BankofKev: You know that dinner we had was AMAZING!! I think it was so much fun. Good friends, good conversation and the flaming Baked Alaska was a kick in the pants. I guess I will just have to continue being a Bank of Kev Groupie! Love you lots Kev, you know that a well fed Panda is a very happy Panda. Baked Alaska...it was totally sinful, much like my thoughts of you. ~_^ SIYDASONG, siy outloud: Ok, that was a lame song reference but my brain is corned beef right now....or maybe Potted Meat Food Product. Which by the way...does anyone know what the heck Potted Meat Food Product is? Meat paste? What the heck is it? Is it the lazy less popular cousin of Spam? I wonder...anywho...Oreos and Pandas. They are black and white and loved by many. I am diggin' on that. I too hope they stick around a very, VERY long time. celestial lucky charms: Coming home from work smelling like work is just par for the course I suppose. I hate it when John comes home from cooking at the restaurant and smells like really yummy food. It makes me hungry. He's working right now which means at midnight when he walks in the door I am going to want to eat dinner...dinner....yummy. AngelsNeverCry19: Thanks for the kind words. I really do appreciate it. I plan on continuing to doing great work here on theO. ^_^ MiasmaMoon: I am sorry, I must have missed it when I was answering questions. Yes, I have gone to cons outside of Washington state. I go every year to Anime Expo in California and I try to go to Kumoricon. This last Kumoricon I missed since I was sick. Bummer. I am not sure what the next con is going to be. I have been asked to go to several different cons but with my health and travel expenses it limits me. For sure AX next year is on the list and hopefully A-Kon if things work out. ^_^ SunfallE: My site really does make me think of chocolate too. I really want to eat some chocolate or drink a big mug of cocoa when I look at those shades of brown. I am quite pleased with the soothing nature of the color scheme. Unfortunately it also makes me really crave chocolate....oh bother. I guess I just need to feed the craving and eat some chocolate! shadowofdeath13: Animes I would recommend. You really like Last Exile which means that you totally rock. I love Last Exile. Now the question you need to answer for me before I can answer you is: What type of anime are you in the mood for? Comedy? Mecha? Romance? Horror? Action? There are of course the must see series like Akira, Evangeleon, Cowboy Bebop and Trigun that all otaku have to have some knowledge about. Let me know what you like in an anime and I can give you some suggestions better suited to fit your tastes. Well, before my head explodes I am going to sign off. I now feel like I have a fever too. My eyes feel really hot. I hate that. Sorry for the last few comments were sans nicknames. I apologize but I need some sleep. I hope everyone is doing well and you are all having a great weekend. I love you all and will see you around the site. Laters!

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Friday, September 16, 2005

   Insane ramblings of an over-caffeinated Bear.

Ok, time for me to get started on replying to all the comments and answering the questions. Only a few of them this time but I think I was much more talkative...type-ative...whatever. Without further ado... I don't drink beer, coffee yes, beer no. SunfallE: When I was little I really loved the smell of coffee, unfortunately my very first experience with coffee was a bad one. I noticed my mom's coffee mug sitting out on the coffee table, which had been sitting there all morning and I thought I would have a taste. ::barf:: Iced coffee is one thing, hot coffee that has gone cold several hours earlier is just nasty! Needless to say I didn't drink coffee for many, many years later. August of '91 I was given an iced mocha and loved it. Been a coffee junkie since. I wouldn't want to hurt someone's feelings. enin: Have you ever pulled a good prank? If so, what was your favourite one and how were the results? And have you ever had one pulled on you? Honest truth. Nope. I have never pulled a prank on anyone or had one pulled on me. I am not sure how I managed that, but never been the victim or instigator of a prank. I have played jokes on friends but nothing major. Nothing like stealing all the fetal pigs from the science building and hiding them in some poor souls locker. I was never motivated enough to do that kind of stuff. Just little jokes, no pranks. Pranks take motivation and planing. I am just too darn lazy. I can't believe you asked me that!!! indifference: What made you decide to apply to work for this online site? Ok, most of my life during that crazy time is a bit of a blur, so I will piece it together as best I can. Like many of the members of the site I was really impressed with the quality of the site. It was amazing to see a fan site, not a corporate one, that had so much time and effort invested into it. The message board section that was ultra moderated so it isn't a spam fest, blog section that you can customize to fit your personality and the main site which you could submit your work to share with others. The massive nature of the site and, at the time, very little staff totally amazed me. I couldn't believe this was all put together by just a few people! It's this dedication and work ethic that drew me in. It very much fits my style. I knew I wanted to be a part of the team. At the time I was healthy and working in vet med. I was able to fulfill my writing desires by being the editor and lead writer for a veterinary newsletter. I love writing, I love animals and I love helping pet owners...it was a perfect set up. When I was diagnosed with RA (Rheumatoid Arthritis) things in my life took a major turn. I could no longer do the physical work required of me at the vet clinic. This was a pretty tough time for me. I had worked in my career for 7 years and had to give it up. During this time I'm pretty sure I was doing some mod work on the OB. I was asked by Charles to mod the Otaku Lounge. It was a nice way to keep my mind off of my health. As my life was run through the blender I knew I had to get things back on track. With the ups and downs of flare ups with RA I can no longer work a regular 9-5 job. It sucks. Some days, like today I, I feel great...but when you look back at the past 3 weeks I could barely move. Therein lies the problem. I needed something to do that would be a) professionally fulfilling. b) a creative outlet. c) flexible with my work schedule. d) something I loved to do. This was a pretty tall order. That is when I decided to send a proposition out to Adam about doing work on theOtaku. I had emailed him before on little odds and ends of issues with my site and what not (I had some wacky issues with my intro...couldn't update it at home on a Mac, but could from a PC at work...weird.). Anywho, I suggested he let me do some writing for the site. I have many friends who I knew would let me interview them and I touched base with them and asked if I could interview them. Of course they were all cool about that. I then told Adam that I would do these interviews for the site. I love the entire anime/gaming fandom, have many contacts (which is weird to think about), I could do my writing when I felt good and it would make me feel like I am contributing to society. This could also be added into a portfolio of my writing when looking for freelance work. It was a win/win situation for both theOtaku since they get exclusive industry interviews and I get another piece to add to my portfolio. This was before we had the "articles" section of the site. That makes me feel like I've been around for awhile. Of course not nearly as long as the boys (aka Adam, James and Justin) who totally rock my Panda socks. I just love them, they really do such an amazing job with the site. They needed a girl to come in a stir things up! LOL Pretty much I started out doing my interviews then as the site began to grow I was given more responsibilities around the site. I would do much more but my wacky health keeps me from taking on too much more. I feel bad when I can't take care of the things I am already responsible for! When I feel good I pretty much spend the day on theO network taking care of things. I really love this site and want to see it become the premier anime site on the net. The site really is a labor of love. The amount of time invested is amazing. All the admins and mods put in hundreds of hours. Literally. There is all that the members see but that is only the tip of the iceberg. If you guys only knew of all the plans in store for this network....let's just say there are some amazing things in the future of theOtaku.com network. ^_^ Phew! That was a very long-winded answer. Hope I actually ANSWERED a question in there somewhere and just didn't spend it rambling. Now what was I talking about? Everyone's working 'til they drop! Yamchaa: Ive PMed a few of higher-ups in theotaku about creating a "Anime Collection Section". ive recieved no replies and nothing to show that anyone has contemplated or asked the other members here what they thought about it. Who should i go to to give ideas and stuff? Ah, an anime collection section. That would be interesting. The person you need to email (Email is the best option via the "contact us" link) would be Adam. Right now there are several other projects being worked on for the network that are closing in on completion. So any new additions will be put waaaaaay back on the back burners until current projects are completed. I wouldn't get discouraged if you haven't heard anything back yet. They are busy, busy, busy. I will keep your suggestion in mind when the time comes for suggestions on what to add to the network. ^_^ A moment of silence for all the cell phones that have passed on. Shanny: Yes, cell phones are a major pain in the bum. One of my friends, Andy, makes fun of me since it seems like every time I see him I have a new phone! The funny thing is this summer we didn't get to meet up but I DID have a new phone. Now that "new" phone is the one giving me grief. I did finally get the messages from my mom. 2 days later. Bah! Despite the annoyance of cell phones they do come in handy in an emergency. With my life, that would be all the time! >_<;; Doctor, I have some sharp back pain... abckid: If caffiene would serve as a benefitical element to better health, how may it improve one's health, if possible? It's funny you should bring this question up. People with RA are suppose to limit their caffeine intake since it can cause flare ups. But with me, I feel great!! I haven't had coffee in a while and just had some the other day and now I feel great! I have energy, my joints don't hurt as much and I am in very high spirits. For me caffiene in coffee works better than any of my medications. Caffiene in any other form...chocolate or sodas does not have the same effect. Weird huh. So to actually answer the question I think it would improve ones health by giving the much needed energy boost needed to get through the day. I know for me I feel very happy and healthier after a nice cup o' joe. Nurses help people (and Pandas) feel better. Summoner Rekka: My friend is actually an RN who teaches the CNA class. I actually am friends with lots of nurses. I think my dad thought for years I was going to become a nurse like all my friends did. His sister is a nurse too....but I went into vet med instead. I like working with animals more than people. LOL I mean, if you have a really super cute patient come in it's not like you can hug them! But with animals, it's ok. My neighbor across the street teaches the RN classes at a college nearby. I am not sure why, but I seem to have lots of nurses in my life. Nurses really are what makes the medical community what it is. There is a saying that goes something like this: Behind every successful doctor is an overworked, underpaid, underappreciated nurse. Best of luck in your CNA class, we need as many good nurses as we can get in this world! ::huggles:: This is what happens if you smell like bamboo. celestialcharm: Speaking of coming home from work smelling like something...coffee would smell so good. Yummy! Of course that is easy for me to say since I don't have to smell it day after day at work. In high school I use to work in a movie theater and would come home every night smelling like popcorn. My friends would tell me that I smelled yummy since movie theater popcorn is waaaaay better than the stuff you make at home. Ick. I hated it. I would get in my car the next morning to go to school and it would smell like popcorn! I couldn't escape it. Of course I did work in vet med and would come home with some really bad smells....ewwww!! Well, I think I got all of those questions answered. I appreciate all the positive comments on my new theme. Hope you find the mocha-ness of it all very soothing and calming. I know I do. Thanks again for being here for me and remember that this little panda bear loves you all. ::huggles::

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Thursday, September 15, 2005

   You Mocha Me Happy!

Really not much to report. I am feeling better so I decided to do some revamping on my blog. Hope you like the over caffeinated theme of my place. I decided to go with the coffee panda theme so I had to make a new intro. No other guy, not even Sanzo, could be in my new intro except for Vincent from Last Exile. I would have a cup of coffee with him anytime. Caffeine addicts unite! All this cepatone color makes me want to drink a mocha...coffee and chocolate...heavenly. Truly a gift from the gods. Anywho, I have been working on an interview that I will hopefully have done shortly. I am also going to be around theO much more since I am feeling better. Now the only bad news I have to report is my cell phone is having some issues. Yeah, I go through them faster than an otaku picking up swag at an anime con. All day yesterday my phone didn't work. This morning I messed around with it and got it to work again. My mom called and said she left me 2 messages and my phone has yet to tell me I have any messages. Bah! So if any of you have called me and I haven't called back or answered, it's not that I am ignoring you, my phone is. Meh. I guess that is about it right now. I think I will open up my comment box for questions. Ask me anything and I will do my best to come up with some witty response. I love you all and hope life is being uber groovy for all of you. Laters! ::huggles::

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Sunday, September 11, 2005

   Panda and Hokage?!

Steve Kramer and me! As many of you know they have started to show Naruto on Cartoon Network so I decided to post a picture of me with Steve Kramer who does the voice of Hokage. Steve is a funny guy. When we were posing for the picture he was telling me I better smile or he was going to draw on me with the Sharpie in his hand! You can still see it in the picture. Thus, the cheese-tastic smile. lol I really don't have much of an update. This one was just to let you guys know that I am doing ok and I'm still truckin' along. Take it easy and I'll see you around the site. Laters! ::huggles::

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Wednesday, September 7, 2005

   I told you so!!

I told you that you rock!! On the 5th the television show "Filter" on G4/TechTV gave theO, specifically myO sites, as the #1 user-submitted link! Woo Hoo! The next airing of the show will be on the 9th at 1:30pm ET/ 10:30am PT. I told you guys that you totally rock, and now even television shows are telling you too!!

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Tuesday, September 6, 2005

   I feel like I got hit...

by a truck...er...runner? I know it's been a while since I updated. I apologize for that. Things have been a bit wacky as of late. Let me recap... John and I went to Seattle to the awards ceremony for Robotech. Had an amazing dinner with the Harmony Gold crew. Drove home after dinner since John had to work at 7am. Didn't get home until after 4am! I had (still having) a major RA flare up. Bad enough I couldn't go to Kumoricon and even skipped my last chemo treatment. RA totally sucks. I haven't left the house since the Seattle trip because of this RA. Meh! My dad even dropped off dinner and lunch for me on a couple of days when John was at work since he was afraid I wouldn't/couldn't get up to cook and eat anything. I love my daddy. I haven't been spending too much time online since the arthritis is really messing with me. Feeling really cut off from the world at this point. Haven't been chatting on the phone since I have lost my voice too. Darn Sjogren's Syndrome messes up my throat! Oh! Got nasty PM from an angry theO member who specifically blamed me for their account being frozen for plagerism. They even stated they have slit their wrists because of it! I had to check into this one since I have nothing to do with their account status. Their work had been reported several times by different members for being stolen WITH proof URLs of the stolen pieces. Being suicidal over a submission for a website is really sad and they really need to seek professional help. There are people who are suffering from the losing loved ones, pets and possessions from Hurricane Katrina yet have the strength to carry on and this person is willing to give up their life over stolen wallpapers?! Does anyone else think there is something wrong with this? I tried to PM this person back but their PM box is so full that it wasn't accepting anymore PMs. I really hope this person gets professional help for their suicidal thoughts since giving up their life over submissions to a website is really sad. Even more sad is the fact they decided to blame me for this and try to send me on a guilt trip. Mind you I am not making light of their mental issues, I really do want them to seek the help of a therapist. Heck, I went throught a rough patch with depression after my RA screwed up my life (no career, no kids, constant pain and fatigue..etc..) so I understand what it is like to be depressed. I hope they get some help soon. Well, my fingers are starting to really cramp up. I am going to get going. I really do love you all and hope you all had a great weekend. Hopefully I will feel better soon and can get back to visiting sites. After I rest for a bit I promise I will get back to all the emails, PMs and guestbook entries. I'm not ignoring you I swear!! You guys really do rock. Thanks for the love and support. ::huggles::

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