Monday, June 11, 2007

   Your Blood is so Cold
Current Mood: Tired
Current Song: Trashed and Scattered by Avenged Sevenfold

First of all, before I bitch about how miserable I am (-_-), thank you so much for all your wonderful comments about my songs. I just hope that my songs keep on getting better and better so I can fulfill my expectations.

Ehhh... yesterday wasn't all that great. My mom kept on being a bitch to my dad and that pissed me off so much. She always acts like such a snake towards him whenever all he does is try to show her love. Sometimes I think it would be better for her to divorce him than just be a bitch to him and then talk badly about him in front of me and my brother. Then later on I was on the computer watching Gaki no Tsukai and she said, "Becky, get off the computer right now. Your father has a lot of work to do and he's gonna stay up all night if you're on it." I didn't mind getting off the computer at all, but the tone she said it in and the face she had on makes it terrible. She said it with clenched teeth and her teeth bared, like she was getting ready to rip my throat out. She always talks to me like that, like I do something terrible and she wants me to dissapear for the smallest things. Like I'm useless and doesn't give a fuck what happens to me. I can't tell you how many times she's given me that look. Whenever I picture it in my mind, I want to cry. So, I went in my bedroom to practice kanji, play my bass, and I eventually just layed my head down and stared at the wall. I eventually started crying and thought about how ever since I was a child she's always broken me down and been the poison in my wine. Even whenever I get good grades, she finds a mistake in it. For example, everytime I get a progress report, I dread it. I can have all As, but that doesn't matter to her. She'll always point out a bad grade in the lower section and ask what happened. It makes me feel so useless and like I can't do anything right. That's one of the reasons I push myself so hard to do well in school. Because of her. I know how stupid and cliche it is, but I always think "just three more years until college." It's sad that I want to grown up just to get away from my mother. She pisses me off so much and I've had enough of her bullshit. I want her to get a job already so I won't have to stay around her so much making mine and my brother's life miserable. I realize how cold I am, but I'm sorry. Memories of her holding me up against the fridge while I sob and her screaming "CRY, BECKY, CRY!!!" at the top of her lungs whenever I was just a child doesn't help all that much. I think one of the underlying reasons I want to go to Japan so badly is to rid myself of her.

Last night I had a dream that I went over to Katie's house and Sydney, Nicole, Stacie, and Daniel were all there. I went over there for the mere purpose to take a drug. Whenever I smoked it at first, it tasted like alcohol and my head floated then all of the sudden I imagined I was in a Pacman game. I took another hit and it was great, it felt like I was floating. A day later (in the dream), the group was in my yard and I walked out to go see them, but I walked out into the yard without a shirt on... and I wasn't ashamed that everyone could see me in my bra. For some reason my papa was out in the yard and yelled at me to go put a shirt on. I don't really know what the dream was supposed to mean, but I'm gonna take a wild guess and go with this interpretation. My friends are exits to the things in my life that I want to go away-like my mother. The drug signifies something that makes me feel wonderful. And I guess walking out in my bra signifies self-confidence but someone's always holding me back to feel great about myself (whether it be me, my mother, etc.) All in all, I have a place where I go where I feel I can rely on someone or something and indulge in something I love. I'm not ashamed of myself in this place, but later on something holds me back and I'm not able to fully enjoy it.

Today I woke up at 12:30 and took a shower since we were going to eat lunch with my dad. I listened to Marilyn Manson's "I Don't Like the Drugs (But the Drugs Like Me)" before getting dressed and I enjoyed my mother's uncomfortable expression once I came out of my room. Eventually Mom, Logan, and I went to my dad's office and went to go eat at Wendy's. For some reason I felt like I was high and my hands felt so heavy. I tried to act fine, but my head still feels like it's floating. After eating, we went to my dad's office and I borrowed some CDs to take home (Velvet Revolver's Contraband, Avenged Sevenfold's City of Evil [one of my favorite CDs of all time], and Nine Inch Nail's Year Zero). Soon enough my brother had to go to an orthodonist's appointment and my mom dropped me off at home and I watched some videos on YouTube for about half and hour until they came home. Now here I am on MyO.

I don't know why I feel so crappy. I have such a better life than most people, yet I always find something to complain about. God, I hate myself for that. Maybe I just need to sleep. Although I really should be exercising instead.
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Saturday, June 9, 2007

   INSPIRATION!!!
Current Mood: Tired
Current Song: ROTTING ROOT by Dir en grey

Yaaaaaaaaaaaay~! The rest of Thursday was great! :D I talked to Alayna on AIM for about 1 1/2-2 hours (which I haven't done in forever.... I miss my Areina-chan D:), layed around, and watched Apocolypto. Damn. That movie was INTENSE. Okay. This is the only evidence you need to know that the movie was awesome and that you need to watch it.

A GUY GOT HIS FACE BIT OFF BY A FUCKING JAGUAR.

Yeah. You just can't get anymore hardcore than that. I listened to Marilyn Manson's Mechanical Animals and felt really inspired, so, I dug up some of my old lyric scraps (I write little lines a lot of the time) and put a love song called "Decomposition" together and edited some of my less-than-great songs. The next day I scrapped together 3 other songs-"Red Planet," "Neo," and "Maggots and Honey." You have no idea how happy that makes me, because I haven't written a full song in about 3 months. D:

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Decomposition
Sipping on your poison
You embedded yourself into my bones
Sanding away the skin isn't enough
Beneath the rot and decay,
Your face can't be peeled away

All these skinless faces breaking me down
You're the only white rabbit that remains
Scorched and dead in this cold atmosphere
I know I can keep you safe in my leather-hard heart

Give me your opal smile
Give me your shining abyss eyes and
Give me your kiss that breathes life into the dead

You're a lost blosson swimming in a sea of bile
The petals of the fading dream unfurl
The sweet smell of rotting air
Take my hand and we'll bury ourselves under the dead ocean

All these skinless faces breaking me down
You're the only white rabbit that remains
Scorched and dead in this cold atmosphere
I know I can keep you safe in my leather-hard heart

Give me your opal smile
Give me your shining abyss eyes and
Give me your kiss that breathes life into the dead

Dream like you'll live forever
Die like you have

Maggots & Honey
Sweet quivering taste driving me into the ground
Can you resist the crying virgin?
Your wine-stained hands do not lie
Poking my fingers through the screen, just like I did with mother's shouji
Milky sweet entrails

Strawberry fantasies stain my sheets
Too many nights of being alone
I wanna suck child from mother
Ravish the tender youth
Will I ignite you? Will I set you free?
Super Sadist MOTHERFUCKER

Ripping the last gasp from my lungs
A constant hunger for your insides
It's always over too quickly for your taste, right?
A want for another trip burning inside you again
You want a second time, don't you?
Vulgarity in swallowing yourself

Crawling between my parted legs and give birth to a new venom
Becomes a part of me
Lay your eggs inside my throat
Before the wings begin to spread

Strawberry fantasies stain my sheets
Too many nights of being alone
I wanna suck child from mother
Ravish the tender youth
Will I ignite you? Will I set you free?
Super Sadist MOTHERFUCKER

Pump your cum into my veins
As a cheap late-night porno rolls behind my eyes
Buried alive in a sea of sex

Neo
Gluttonous pigs
Ravaging the gin-soaked powder white flowers
Painted lips and smiling eyes;
An absence of life
My broken voice pales in comparison
Throwing cash into the empty chest cavity

Sticky sweet rush
Bliss trickling down my spine
Nerves on end, about to burst

Fuck my red mouth
Full of BDSM

Let the flowers of malice bloom freely
Swallow the dream
Losing sight of my true self
My morals blend into this vomit-soaked society
Grasping for something left while this false reality fades
Flying on devil's wings

Sing me your sins and I'll scream you your lies
The crusifix isn't healing now
I'm ruled by Saturn
Human skin and dead hair wrapped around my bleeding heart

Sticky sweet rush
Bliss trickling down my spine
Nerves on end, about to burst

Fuck my red mouth
Full of BDSM

Red Planet
I closed the door to all my hopes and dreams
A streetlight moon on a charcoal sky
As the static sakura falls to the earth
I know that tommorow will be dead
The cancer has spread to my head and
My worth vanishes in the cold eyes

Eating away at my throat and
Tightly grapsing my tender heart
The world is solid
Blood red sky screaming
My skin dissapears in your venom kiss

So fragile
Snap my head off like a weed
My eyes have rusted over
Thorns weaving across my heart,
Your voice has raked me numb
When everything melts into ash
I'll swallow the teeth and hair
With a black tar smile

Eating away at my throat and
Tightly grapsing my tender heart
The world is solid
Blood red sky screaming
My skin dissapears in your venom kiss

With lips bitten rotten
The wish dies away
The fangs are pressed into my subconsiousness
Amber horizons smears into black
Clinging to my pulse like a disease
I hide under his skin and
Peel away my fingernails just as fast as I can rip myself open

Blood red sky screams

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Please tell me what you think, but don't be too terribly harsh. I haven't written in a while and my period is coming up. D:

Today has been okay. I woke up at 12:30 and took a shower before watching some PVs off of my WTD DVD. :3 We left at 1:20 since my brother and I had our guitar/bass lessons half an hour earlier than usual. Colton (my teacher) made sure my tabs for "Tourniquet" and "Merciless Cult" were right, and he's going to tab out "Jesus Christ Rock n' Roll" and "Machiavellism" for me. \^o^/ Yay~!!! After our lessons we went to go eat at Ryan's (a buffet place) and ate probably wayyyyyy too much sugar. @_@ After stuffing ourselves until our skin was about to bust off of us, my family went to Blockbuster and we got Pan's Labrinth. *SQUEE* ^o^!!! I can't wait to watch it, I've wanted to for such a long time. ^_^ Once I got home, I read some of Cell before I got on the computer. I need to practice my bass sometime. -__-

Hm. I've run out of things to say, lucky for you guys. Mata ne~!
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Thursday, June 7, 2007

   YATTAAAAAAAAA~!!! ^0^
Current Mood: Happy
Current Song: Namamekashiki Ansoku, Tamerai ni Hohoemi by Dir en grey

The rest of last night was pretty nice. While Dad was at the gym, I listened to Eat Me, Drink Me, and it's REALLY pretty. It's so much softer than Manson's regular work, though, you wouldn't know it was him if you just heard the music. Also, the lyrics and whole tone of the album is a whole lot more intimate and romantic than anything he's written before. Even the sex songs aren't as raunchy as they used to be. o_O You can tell that the whole album is his stuggle with breaking it off with Dita (I'm not as angry at him now because I've seen his side of the story, but it still pisses me off) and how much he's come to care about Evan. It's a great album. :3 After listening to it, I practiced my bass, ate dinner, took a shower, and studied for my English exam.

Whenever I got to school today, I sat down by myself and studied (my friends hadn't arrived yet) and then all of the sudden Korki came running across the room and hugged me. I almost started to get teary whenever I said "this is the last day we'll see each other before you go to California!!!" She hugged me (and almost broke my neck.... she's strong for a scrawny little adorable Asian girl @_@) and we kept on telling each other that we love each other. I hate California right now because it's taking Korki away, has DIRU for like a whole week during their tour, and is keeping Alayna away from people she cares about. California can burn in hell for all I care. T^T Five minutes before the bell rang, I got to my classroom and started studying a little bit more before the exam. Eventually our teacher let us in and the test began. It was only 80 minutes long and I finished it in like an hour and a half, I think. I wanted to study my kanji flash cards I brought or listen to my iPod, but I wasn't able to do that. ;~; For a while I just scribbled on my paper but eventually I got an idea for a Japanese (meaning, I wrote it in all Japanese) chibi comic and I started to draw it. Basically, the idea of the comic was that Kyo is sleeping on the couch and I peek in the door to check up on him. I squeal that he's adorable and I look around to see if anyone is watching and I get a mischevious look on my face. You see me getting on the couch next to Kyo and holding up peace signs. XD I was gonna make it longer, but we didn't have enough time left. I would have drawn me cuddling up next to Kyo and eventually falling asleep and soon enough he wakes up and screams "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING? GIT OUTA MUH BED, WOMAN!!!" XD And for some reason all of my chibi comics I draw of me and Kyo, I always attack him whenever he's sleeping. o_O Ahhhhh, my crackhead imagination. After school I looked around for Korki so I could see if I could get her e-mail, but I didn't see her. T~T I have her cell phone number, so maybe I can call her before she changes her plan or anything and get her e-mail. I walked home and got there at 10. I sat around and watched Scrubs for a little while and I almost pissed myself during one episode because it was so funny (it's the one whenever J.D. gets tackled by Johnny, the tackling alzteimers [sp?] patient and Dr. Cox sings whenever Dr. Kelso takes off his shirt for his physical XDDD). I love that fucking show, I watch it everyday. Mom ran off to get Logan and she came back and I started studying some Japanese. Now, here I be.

I'm so happy that I don't have to go to school until August again. I need a break from it. -O- Hopefully I can get more fluent for Japanese and prepare a plan so I'll be able to have German class next year and still be able to speak Japanese as well as I can now. I know it'll be hard, but there's no way I'm gonna forget all this Japanese I learned. I worked really hard for this and there's no way that I'm gonna let my stupid school's incapability of hiring any Asian-language teachers get in the way of my dream of going to Japan. SO THERE! >_<

Hmmm... I guess I should go. I need to wash my face. @_@
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Wednesday, June 6, 2007

   Wawawewa~!
Current Mood: Excited
Current Song: Hotarubi by Dir en grey
Currently Watching: Ned's Declassified School Surivival Guide

Today was the science exam. Whenever I got to school, I sat down and talked to my friends until five minutes before class, because I wanted to study one more time. My teacher was happy that he saw me early (XD), and he's always a total suck-up to me. Finally the bell rang and the rest of my maggots *coughs*, excuse me, classmates came into the room and our teacher handed out the test. The test was exactly like our study guide-the same question and answers, just in a different order. It was 140 questions and I ended up finishing it in 30 minutes tops. After I was finished with the test, I decided to paint my nails black. X3 Yes, I'm a dork. Eventually my teacher waved me up to the front desk and showed me my grade-a 99... I only missed two questions! I could've gotten a 100!!! D: My teacher almost clubbed me upside the head whenever I said that. -_- The rest of the time, I tried to fall asleep and ended up dreaming of Kyo. ^//^ Very nice, indeed. At 9:45, we were let out of school and I walked home. As I suspected, I found Mom asleep so I crept quietly into the house, got a drink, settled in, and watched my Gauze -62045- DVD... it was so hard to resist the urge to sing along with the songs, though, especially during "Cage" (that's the first Japanese song I ever learned to sing, my first DIRU song and PV, so it means a lot to me) and "304 Goushitsu, Hakushi to Sakura." -_- Eventually Mom woke up and watched "Unknown...Despair...A Lost" and "JEALOUS" with me. I think she was kinda disturbed by all the Japanese men in drag. I love watching old PVs of them, though, because I get to see how much the band has changed over the years... not just visually, but musically, too. I still can't get over how different Kyo looks, though. @_@ At around 11:30, I ate a quesodilla for lunch. I wanted an apple, but all of them are bruised and nasty looking. >_< I got on the computer and started screwing around and then started looking up more on foreign exchange programs in Japan. I still think that Intrax has the best program, and the one that the's least expensive is $5,800. -_- I've been collecting spare change (that's all the money I have) and have about $8.87 so far. X_X I need to start getting serious about this if I want to go before I'm 18. After getting on the computer, I practiced my bass until my fingers were raw and Nicole called me. Apparently the only way she can go to Warped Tour without her parents is if I come with her. -_- I really don't want to go (I'd rather swallow 1,000 sewing needles), but I want Nicole to be able to go to Warped Tour. So, I'm going. -_- The good thing is, I asked Nicole if any places around here were hiring, and she said that Subway, McDonalds, and some bagel bakery was. I love Subway with all of my little black heart, so I'm gonna see if I can apply there and save up for my Japan trip. :3 And, I might get free sammiches! HELL YEAHHHH!!! \m/>w<\m/ Mom went to her pottery class and I got on J-List.com to look at all their funny porn toys. XDDD I bust out laughing everytime I go there. Just after I was done with J-List, Dad came home with a present for me for "getting through another year of school." o_O I got mad at him for buying me something for such a dumb reason, but he showed me that he had bought Manson's new album, Eat Me, Drink Me, and I was a little better. I still wish he hadn't bought it for me, it makes me feel guilty. -3- My brother got Linkin Park's new CD, so I'm gonna have to snatch that up and listen to it sometime too. >3

Tommorow is my English and final exam. I can't wait for school to be over. @_@ I love you guys. Mata ne~!
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007

   MY RETINAS!!!!
Current Mood: Disturbed
Current Song: berry by Dir en grey

Today was a lazy day. Today I had my art exam, it was piss cold in there. o_o Mrs. Parnell even called it the "refrigerator." XD We got our exam at around 7:40 and I didn't finish until 10. -_- I was the last person to finish, mainly because I'm a perfectionist whenever it comes to my art, and we had to draw some stuff. By the end of the exam, I was so cold that I couldn't feel my feet. I asked Mrs. Parnell if I could wrap myself up in some cloth she had in her room but she laughed and said that there was a jacket in the back that I could use, and Goddamn, it was warm. ^w^ It was a boy's Abercrombie and Fitch... I wouldn't buy it at the store (they'd probably charge you a million dollars for it anyway), but if it were on sale somewhere, I'd snatch that mofo up. XD I stood around for about 30 minutes trying to warm myself up, and I thought about listening to DIRU, but I was more in a MACABRE mood and all I have on my iPod are Kisou and WTD. ;o; Eventually Assbag (one of the assistant princibles who is, well, an assbag) came and walked us out of the building and I walked home. It was weird, I was actually happy to be outside because it warm. o_O I'm never happy about it being hot or actually being outside. My toes thawed, though. :3 I got home at 10:40 and Mom was up and roaming about. I didn't want to watch HGTV, so I read a chapter of Frankenstein. Lily (my dog) has started to stink, so I decided to give her a bath. I scrubbed her back and head, but she wouldn't let me get at her tummy. -_- I then picked about 20+ fleas off of her and she tried to get out of the tub and splashed me the entire time. I hope I helped her stop itching a little bit, even though I have caught her chewing on her butt a couple of times. My tummy started growling pretty soon, and just in the nick of time, my mom asked if I wanted some pancakes. Hell yeah, I wanted some pancakes!!! >D I ate them happily even though I probably put too much syrup on them. -3-; I sat around for a little while and then my mom went to go let my grandma's dogs out and I got on the internet for a little while to check Alayna's site and PM Akira-chan. :3 I decided I should get off since Mom would be home soon and I wrapped myself up in a blanket since I was cold and layed down on the couch. And soon enough, I fell asleep. -_- I woke up and got back on the computer (XD) and looked up the tab to "Tourniquet" by Marilyn Manson and watched a few of his videos... I really wish I hadn't seen two of them, though. >_< In "The Long Hard Road Out of Hell", you see his ass, and in "Heart-Shaped Glasses", you see him fucking Rachel Evan Woods. o_o Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..... >_< I have absolutely no physical attraction, nor do I want one. I don't want to see him naked, I don't want to see him fucking anyone. If you're into that, that's fine. I'm cool with that. Just don't let me see that, because I feel sick now. XP I think I need to watch some Kyo fanvideos to wash out my mind....

Tommorow I have to take my science exam. -_- I need to study some more, and dinner's almost ready. Wish me luck~!
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Monday, June 4, 2007

   That Blue is Getting Me High
Current Mood: Achey
Current Song: Heart-Shaped Glasses by Marilyn Manson
Currently Watching: Ned's Declassified School Survival Guide

Yesterday was very nice! ^o^ I woke up at around 12 and got dressed so we could go up to the mountains. My dad was still at the gym, so I had some time to just loaf around. I blankly stared at the TV most of the time. @_@ Eventually we all piled up in the car and I listened to TMoaB and Marilyn Manson's The Golden Age of Grotesque. I fell asleep and my neck hurt like a motherfucker whenever we got at the restaraunt to eat. @_@ Whenever we go up to the mountains, we always eat at this local Greek restaraunt that serves FANTASTIC food. It makes you want to orgasm all over the place. o_O My parents and brother got gyros, as usual, and I got my vegetarian sub. ^_^ *wiggles* So yummy~!!! The owner came and talked to us, and he went to Greece over the summer. D: I'm jealous. The only problem about the restaraunt was that some frat boys were screaming at the top of their lungs at the table next to us. -_- After eating, we went downtown. We visited this candy shop that I used to get so excited over as a little kid. I didn't see anything I wanted, though. After the candy store, we went to this new horror shop there called Screamies and I laughed at the t-shirts (my favorites are a Planet of the Apes one that has an ape holding up a sign that says "Peace, Not War!" and a shirt that's a advertisement for a fake horror museam and it says "fun for the whole family-if you're the Manson family!!!" XD). There were some magnets that were pretty funny (including one that said "what would Jesus do?" and has Jesus kicking George Bush in the nuts, and one that says "ritalin-it's easier than parenting!" X3). I was eyeing this necklace that had a crusified skeleton... I wanted it really bad, but I don't want my parents to have to spend any more money than they need to. After that, we went to this family-owned bead store that's really cool. I love these beads that they have of a devil woman in a dominatrix outfit. X3 I told my mom I liked it and she told me that scared her. -_- Eventually I got tired of looking at beads and went to my favorite new age store. I didn't really see anything, but I liked some bumped stickers I read. They're really inspirational. :3 I read this little thing on Scorpios (my astrological sign) and it said that Scorpios rule the sexual organs. o_O No wonder I'm so horny all the time. (I love being a Scorpio, though, because if I meet Kyo, I'm going to be a dork and point to myself and say "sukopio desu." Whenever he gives me a blank stare, I'll say "sasori!" and watch his face get all jealous. XD Maybe he'll try to eat me if I'm lucky! ^o^) I didn't find anything in the new age store and my dad and I had to use the bathroom, so we went back to the candy store to use the bathroom and I found some strawberry gummies there that I wanted. ._. I swear, sometimes I'm convinced that I'll never act my age. On the ride back, I listened to The Golden Age of Grotesque again, and fell asleep again. -_- If I didn't fall asleep, I could've listened to MACABRE!!! *bangs head against computer* Later on that night whenever we were home, we eventually mustered up the courage to watch the MTV movie awards. We were shocked how good it was this year, and we laughed really loud at the constant 300 jokes. I thought I was gonna piss my pants whenever they had a fake public service announcement about Borat and Marilyn Manson immitated Borat. XDDD Fucking great.



Today was really nice too! At school I found Stacie and Storm and talked to them for a little while and Stacie then told me that she gave Nicole my pirate purse so that she could give it to me. I ran my ass downstairs and found Nicole and snatched up my purse as fast as I could. XD I talked to Nicole and Bobby for a little while before I ran back up to the orchestra room for the exam. I wasn't the least bit worried about the orchestra exam, because they're usually like Where's Waldo puzzles. @_@ The questions were:

1. Create a story line out of a song we played
2. What is the best instrument and why?
3. Compare the following composers (Beethoven, Bach, and Mozart) to rappers

-_- How stupid is that?! I got a little stuck on the last one because I never listen to rap, and hardly American music other than Marilyn Manson. After we were done, I talked to Mayra and Storm the rest of the time. The subjects of our conversation were tampons (XD), alcohol, stereotypes, and illegal immigrants. I really enjoyed it although I listened more than I talked... that's what I normally do, though. Eventually it was 10 and we were let out of school. I saw Spencer outside and got all shy. @//@ I called Mom and she said that I could hang out with Mayra and Storm, so I went to the convinience store to get some snacks. I got a bottle of water and we decided to just get a big bag of potato chips for us all to eat. We walked to the library, which was about 1-2 miles away, but it felt a lot longer since we were trying to dodge traffic and the sun was hoooooooooooooot. And I almost got run over! We were going to cross the street and these cars were stopped, so we walked out into the road and a car drove right past me and I slipped and fell on my back on the pavement. ;~; It hurt so bad. Storm and Mayra were freaking out but then laughed whenever I laughed and saw that I was okay. Eventually we got to the library and they got on the computer so they could work on Mayra's paper. I went to the reference section and found two Japanese books called Japanese: The Easy Way and Beyond Polite Japanese. The second one had some cheesy trying-too-hard slang and I mostly just laughed at how old it sounded. I did see "bichabicha", though, which means "sopping wet, dripping wet, etc." and laughed my ass off. You see, whenever I hear "bichabicha", I think of the line from "ZOMBOID", "kimi no kao to dobadoba bichabicha" (I gotta cover my nose everytime I hear that line, because I always visualise Kyo throwing back his head and moaning @//@). XDDD I read a lot of Japanese: The Easy Way and it was actually a really good book. I want to check it out from the library, but I have this weird thing where I don't like checking things out from libraries. o_O Don't ask, I don't know. Eventually Mayra and Storm were done so I called Mom to pick me up. Mom, Dad, and I went to go get something to eat and went to Jack In the Box. After that, Mom and I picked Logan up from school and went back home. I studied some terms for my art final, and then took a nap since I was hurting from falling down and just plain tired. My back still hurts. T~T

Kyaaaaaaa, tommorow Marilyn Manson's new album comes out!!! \^o^/ *dances* I can't wait. :3 Whenever I hearing the line "Little girl, little girl, you should close your eyes. That blue is getting me high" from "Heart-Shaped Glasses" because it always reminds me of Kyo. The line is about how intoxicated the narrator gets whenever he looks into the girl's eyes and that's how I feel everytime I just think about Kyo. He gives me this high and I don't care about anything else... the fact that he's a celebrity and I'm a fan and that I'll never be with him, that he speaks an entirely different language than I do, that he lives in a different country, etc. None of it matters. Moeru. ^_^

Agh, I need to get off... my back is killing me. ToT Sorry for the long post.
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Sunday, June 3, 2007

   As He Lost His Mind....
Current Mood: Semi-tired
Current Song: Iron Man by Black Sabbath
Current Time: 12:18 a.m.

Last night was nice and serene. My brother went to a dance at his school and my parents and I went to go eat at Taco Bell. I love going there because I always get to get their cheese quesodillas with tomatoes in it. ^w^ *wiggles* So tasty~! After eating, we went to a store next door that sold clothes... it was like a super-ghetto Rugged Warehouse. XD I looked around and saw this awesome headband that was checkered and had screaming skulls on it. Very nice. :3 I looked around in the girl's section and was rather unimpressed at all the skimpy outfits, so I went over to the boy's section since I wear more boyish clothes than girly. I saw an assload of awesome shirts, but I eventually got this burgandy one with Dracula (I mean old school Dracula-Bella Legosi) holding a girl and about to suck her blood. Above the picture, it says THE VAMPIRE BAT THAT LIVES ON HUMAN BLOOD! and DRACULA in a bat underneath it. Very tacky retro. >3 Also, it's two-three sizes too big and I can't resist a baggy t-shirt. ^_^ Whenever my family got home with my brother, I played some Resident Evil 4 (my brother tried to watch me play but he got too scared after a minute in XD) but eventually got pissed off because I kept on dying and trying playing Kingdom Hearts.... that didn't really help either. @_@ I ended up staying up until 2 in the morning watching The Whitest Kids U Know. That show is so fucking stupid but stupid has always been funny to me.

Today I woke up at 12:30, rather reluctantly. Since I had taken a shower the previous night, I got dressed and wore my Dracula shirt. Hell yeah!!! X3 Dad came home from the gym around 1 and we left the house at 1:50 to go to guitar/bass practice. While my brother was having his guitar lesson, I listened to several DIRU songs and my foot almost fell off from tapping my foot to the beat. At 2:30 I had my bass lesson and Colton (my teacher) taught me how to play "Iron Man" by Black Sabbath and "You Really Got Me" by Van Halen. He also gave me a song and a band to check out for bass tabs, so I'll have to do that since I was barely able to practice last week. @_@ Once my our lessons were over, my family went to Sonic to eat lunch. Whenever we were leaving Sonic, my dad noticed that Bo'Jangles (they're right next door) was selling pork chop biscuits. Then he went into this rant about how one time he ate pork chops and broke out into hives. Mom told him he was full of shit and he started screaming "PO'KCHOP!" XD Poor Mom, all of us except for her started screaming "PO'KCHOP!" at the top of our lungs. XD Soon after we went to Wal*Mart (yes, we're all-American white trash... well, kinda... not really @_@) to get our stuff and grabbed up some black hair dye since I'm tired of looking at my brown hair all the time. Granted, my hair is SUPER dark so a lot of people think it's black, but it looks really pretty with black because it gets this dark blue sheen too. ^_^ I also got to play Guitar Hero 2 while I was there, but this little kid playing GH2 on the X-Box 360 beside me shamed me. XD He was playing on expert while I was on medium. *facepalm* Oh, well, I can play an instrument FO' REAL, BITCHES!!! >D We left Wal*Mart at around 5:30 and headed home. I watched Scrubs for a long time and was kinda semi-consious since I was sleepy. Dad thinks I'm sleepy lately because of allergy season... I don't know why I'm so damn hungry lately, though. D: Whenever I was channel surfing, I saw that POTC was on and I squealed and changed it there. NaeNae-chan and POTC have converted me to pirate love. I loved pirates before, but now my mom catches me swinging around the house on a rope, wearing an eyepatch, drinking rum, and screaming where the hell my parrot is (no, I kid... I hate rum). XD I started getting cabin fever so I asked my dad if I could go to Blockbuster with him and he said that would be fine. I was upset because all of the movies I wanted to see, including Hannibal Rising (damn, that looks hot.... shut up, I like guys licking blood off their fingers. I can't help that I have extremely weird *coughs*andkinky*coughs* taste in men @//@ ...I blame Kyo.) My dad and I had time to waste to wait for the pizza to be ready so we drove around town with the radio turned up and screaming "PO'KCHOP!!!" at the top of our lungs every five seconds. XD Ahhh, good times. Eventually Dad and I got back home with the pizza and had dinner. 'Twas very good. :D Afterwards my family started watching Happily N'Ever After and I took the time to dye my hair and practice my bass. I'm pretty pleased with how my hair turned out... I getting better at dying it, considering I've only done it 3 times. My dad was really impressed with how easily I was playing "Iron Man", considering that I just got it this afternoon. That makes me happy. ^_^ Now, here I am with sore fingertips and heavy eyelids. I guess I should go to bed soon since it's 12:47 and we are going to the mountains tommorow. *gasps* That means about 3 hours to listen to DIRU in the car!!! \^o^/

Well... I guess I'll stop rambling. Love you guys...

PO'KCHOP!!! X3
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Friday, June 1, 2007

   I'd Rather Feel Pain...
Current Mood: Tired
Current Song: Pain by Three Days Grace

Today was pretty nice, especially comparing it to all the other days I had this week. @_@ Last night my orchestra teacher said that she really didn't see any point in having class today since we really weren't going to do anything, so I got to sleep in until 8 today! \^o^/ I woke up and ate a piece of banana bread (damn, that stuff is good X3) before getting ready for school. I took too long in doing my makeup, so I had to rush to school, though. @_@ I got to orchestra and everyone was just talking, so I assumed that I really hadn't been all that late. In Art I found out that we were doing our ink drawings in class, so I was pretty upset that I had worked on my drawing for nothing. At least it's finished, though. I asked Mrs. Parnell if I could listen to my iPod during class and she said yeah. I listened to most of Kisou and all of WTD while practicing Japanese, so I was happy. ^_^ During lunch Stacie was being pretty damn paranoid about the senior prank (technically it's the last day of school) and yanked me away whenever I tried to walk through the mall area. XD I'm happy that Stacie pulled me away, since a guy got hit with a water balloon. @_@ In Science we went over our study guide, but I was upset that I missed so many (partially it's because I didn't know the answer to some of them). -_- We got to see our overall grades for the 9 weeks, and I had the highest grade of the class at a 95. :D That made me happy. ^_^ For the rest of the class we got to talk and screw around. Whenever we were changing classes, someone pulled the fire alarm. I didn't really mind, I was just pissed off that it happened while I was using the bathroom. >_< Stupid fucking seniors. In English we went over stuff for the exam the entire time. -_- The good thing is that I got a 100% on review that had 42 questions. :D At the end of the class, Mrs. Mullins chose to say something kind about everyone in the class and whenever she got to me she just paused and smiled for a second before saying "Rebecca, if there were more people like you, the world would be a better place." I felt my face get a little warm and hid behind my hands like I usually do whenever I get embarassed. Everyone awwwwed while she said it too. @//@ After school I talked with my friends and Storm splashed some water on my crotch. >_< I yelled at her and Katie splashed water on Storm's crotch for revenge. XD Good ol' Katie. Whenever I got home, I flipped through the yearbook Mom bought me (even though I didn't want one). I ate some popcorn with my brother, too, but I'm still hungry. ;o;

Tommorow I have to go to my bass lesson, but I'm a little worried since I really haven't really practiced this week. -_- Damn school seperating me and Vivian. I better take a nap since I'm so damn tired. Mata ne~!
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Thursday, May 31, 2007

   I am an A'int
Current Mood: Exausted
Current Song: (s)AINT by Marilyn Manson
Currently Watching: 30 Rock

This week has been kicking my ass... @_@ I can't wait until 10:30 next Thursday whenever I get out of school. D: Today in Orchestra and part of Art, we didn't have any air conditioning and it was around 90 degrees. -_- It wasn't the best thing in the world for the girl dressed in all black and pants. *headdesks* I also found out that I have to take all four of my exams because I had over 2 absenses... all because I was sick. Whenever I got home, I immediately started doing some homework (around 3) and didn't get finished until 5, whenever I had to get dressed for the 2 1/2 hour Orchestra concert I had. I had to wear my mother's clothes, which means terribly uncomfortable khaki pants that was about 2 inches away from the base of my bra (*coughs*oldladypants*coughs*), a bright pink polor shirt, and Liz Claiborne sandles. -_- I wanted to shoot myself in the head. I felt so fat in the pants, too. *sighs* During the awards ceremony we played for 5 minutes at the beginning, clapped for 1 hour and 50 minutes straight, and then played 5 minutes at the end. Oh, joy. Whenever I got home I had to finish my ink drawing that I worked all night on last night, but I was able to check all of my DIRU sources before, so that made me happy. I got pissed off again, though, because I found an assload of Kaoru pictures but I can't use Photobucket anymore unless I'm on Mom's computer. *sighs* I am a sad, stressed out Momo. I'm sorry for the shitty posts, I've just barely had anytime to update. I promise a length, full post soon. Please steal me and kick the people at Photobucket's teeth in. I love you... steal me and get me my Kyo-kun. Pweeeeeeeeease? *puppy dog eyes*
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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

   Is it possible to kick School in the Face?
Current Mood: Agitated (SCREAMS OF MAGGOTS!!! XD)/Tired
Current Song: Rasetsukoku by Dir en grey

I don't have much time to update, but all I can really say is that I've been busy all day. I went to school, came home and did homework, went to dinner with my grandparents, did homework, took a shower, and did some more homework. -_- So, yeah. Tommorow I have an orchestra concert that's 2 1/2 hours long, so I probably won't be able to post. I'm sorry. I wish school was over already, dammit. >_<
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