Saturday, June 23, 2007

   Yesterday and Today
Current Mood: Sleepy
Current Song: INCREASE BLUE by Dir en grey

Yo-ness. I got back from my trip yesterday, and I tried to post at 2 in the morning, but MyO wouldn't let me. So today's post will have today and yesterday's post.

Yesterday's Post:
Heeey, everyone. I'm back from my trip visiting my cousin. During the ride up there, I listened to TMoaB, Nine Inch Nail's The Downward Spiral, and a little bit of VULGAR. I fell asleep for a little while, but I'm not suprised. I'm the most tired, laziest son of a bitch I know. @_@ Whenever we got there, it was around 3-4. Mom, Logan, and I greeted everyone and were shocked whenever we saw Millie (Robin's baby). The last time we saw her was in December, and now she's SO big and is actually able to support herself. She's eight months old now, so she doesn't look like a slug anymore. XD Millie was sooooooooo sweet and she eventually decided that we were alright and she played with us. She's a really well-behaved baby and is so cute and sweet. Aunt Pam and my mom decided to babysit Millie so Robin, Mark (Robin's boyfriend), Logan, and I could go do something. First we went to the mall to fix Mark's glasses (Millie broke them @_@). While we were there we saw a shop that was especially for eyebrows.... it was really weird. o_O Robin wanted to go to Charlotte Russe so we went and I saw so many cute things that I wanted. XD Too bad I don't have any money... -_- After Charlotte Russe we went to go to the foodcourt to eat something... poor Mark, he felt all ackward from buying something for Logan from Chik-Fil-A (Robin, Mark, Pam, Millie, and I are all vegetarians o_o). It was pretty funny for a guy who looks like a bad ass freaked out, though. XD After the mall we went to an arcade called Adventure Landing and totally raped the games. XD We each got 30 tokens each, and we ended up playing for about two hours. o_o I spent most of my tokens on shooting games, but my favorite was The House of the Dead 4. Robin and I played that together, and played a few others too. I really love hanging out with her, she's one of the reasons I am who I am today. (My first tattoo I'm going to get is going to be a robin on my neck in honor of her, the inspiration she's given me, and her incredible strength.... she's gone through so much in her life. Hopefully I'll be able to get it from her, too, since she works at a tattoo parlor.) After we spent all of our tokens, we gathered up our tickets and got some souveneirs. I got a poker chip keychain, Logan got some Chinese finger cuffs, Robin got a little lizard, and Mark got a tiny little robot dog and a ninja. XD Whenever we came back we just hung out the rest of the night until we went to Pam's apartment to sleep (since I'm so allergic to Robin and Mark's cats... *sniffs* ;o;).

This morning we woke up at 8 (which is super early for me) to go babysit Millie while Robin and Pam went to court (I want to keep the reasons consealed in case the person they were trying to keep away gets their hands on this.... very unlikely, but I don't wanna take that chance). Millie was really good until she heard Robin's voice on speaker phone and realized that only Mom, Logan, and I were there. She started crying and I rocked her and let her rub her face on the arm of the couch (she loves soft things, and the couch is soft) and Logan played peek-a-boo with her. She's really easy to calm down, so she ended up being happy little Millie again in a about 2 minutes. She continued resting her face on the arm of the couch and I held her while rubbing her back for a while. She was really tired, so it didn't take much for her to go to sleep. Whenever she fell asleep, I layed her down on the floor with her blankets and covered her up with the fleece blanket Mom made her. Mom washed the dishes and I was tired and almost drifted off to sleep. XD I played with Sid (their cat) for a little while, and didn't have an allergic reaction. Haha, bitches, thank God for sudaphed. >D Millie started to stir after an hour so I tried to put a stuffed animal beside her in case she was uncomfortable or anything... then she opened her eyes and smiled and made a happy baby noise at me. XD I just said "hey, sweetheart~!" and picked her up and she was as happy as she was before. ^_^ Mom, Logan, and I played with her a little more and eventually Robin and Pam got back from court, but Pam had to go back to work. I was really tired so I accidentally went to sleep. @_@ Whenever I woke up, Robin was waving goodbye to everyone (she had to go to work too), so that was the last I saw of her. Millie was asleep in her crib and I didn't really do anything other than watch my brother play video games. -_- At around 1 I heard Millie crying on her baby monitor and I came in to get her and I eventually got her to calm down and I brought her out with everyone else. I played her with her for a little while before I got tired of watching Logan just play video games and he let me play some of this really cheesy arcade game called Bloody Roar 3. XD It's so stupid. Soon enough Mark came home and talked to us while he spent some time with Millie and played a game with Logan. Mark is (and is going to be) a really great father, and Robin a really great mother. ^_^ I know that Millie's going to be so happy as a child (as long as she doesn't piss Robin off or do anything stupid... then she might get her ass beat... and I probably will too. I'm gonna be as protective as a big sister over that child XD). Before we knew it, it was time to go. So I said bye to Mark and Millie and we hit the road. On the way home I listned to Kisou and fell asleep. XD Told ya I sleep a lot. Nicole says I would be the PERFECT musician on tour. I'd sleep for almost the entire day, wake up, eat something, play a show, eat something, take a shower, and fall alseep. Sounds good to me. ^_^ Whenever I got home, I watched TV and spaced out for a while before Dad came home. We went to go get pizza and rent movies from Blockbuster. Whenever we got home, we ate, and then I tried to transfer a henna pattern on my arm, but the stupid fucking thing wouldn't work. -_- I ended up putting on a temporary tattoo and tracing over that. I just hope it turns out all right and doesn't look as crappy as it does now. It looks like someone just dropped ashes on my hand and they landed in a pretty, curvy way. XD After a while I got on the computer and visited a few sites before I went to Melody's MySpace.

I don't know why I keep on doing this to myself. Melody hurt me so badly and my stomach tightens up and I feel sick everytime I think about her. I loved her and trusted her, and she tore it all away from me and left me crushed and alone. At a time she was the only thing that kept me sane. Maybe that's why I try not to have a best friend. Because I'm afraid that it'll just happen all over again. I looked at some of her pictures and I felt the blinding envy I felt towards her whenever we were friends. She's beautiful and makes me feel like a fucking troll whenever I look at her. Not only that, but she has these amazing grades, is extremely gifted in the arts, can speak Japanese fluently (she's half Japanese), and has all these impressive qualities that I'll never have. I don't understand why I keep on bringing her back into my life. Maybe it's because I don't want to lose all the wonderful memories I had with her. Maybe it's because I don't want to forget the sense of belonging and purposee I felt whenever I was with her. It was like I actually mattered to someone and that she couldn't go on with out me. It made me feel so important. Maybe I just love being the victim.

Fuck.
I'm crying.

I don't know. Maybe I should just go to sleep and ignore all of this shit going through my brain. Hopefully I won't dream about her.
+Momo+

Today's Post:
I woke up at 12:45 today, and my brother had to be at guitar practice at 1:30. -_- I eventually convinced my mother to take Logan to his practice while I got ready. I took a shower and got dressed in a cute outfit (I'm wearing a semi-tight shirt today, trying to get used to it), put on my makeup, and did my hair. We got there just in time for my 2:00 bass lesson and we went a little bit over time and played until 2:45. @_@ There's this REALLY awesome looking bass in the repair shop part of the instrument store we have our lessons at that has fucking zebra print on it.

ZEBRA PRINT.

Sorry, I'm an animal print fanatic. XD We rolled around town and decided to eat at Applebees and I go the yummy cheesesticks. :3 I love those things. v^_^v Since we ordered a book that I need to read over the summer for school, we went to Barnes and Noble. Mom and I looked around at the discount table and I found a book on fortune telling with normal playing cards, and I got really excited since I had already been interested in that. I mean, I have tarot cards that I love, but I think doing it with playing cards would be really interesting. I looked around in the foreign language section, and of course, I have more than 3/4 of the Japanese books there. XD I have a mini-library of Japanese books. o_o While we were checking out, I looked at a table of Harry Potter merchandise and I saw that they're selling a time turner necklace. I almost squeed, I've wanted one ever since the movie. Hopefully I can get one. ^_^ *dances* After checking out, we went to get my brother from a skateboard shop and went home. At home I looked at my book and dug up some of my old Wicca books. I may get a little bit more into it, I love the feeling of balance I feel whenever I do Wiccan rights.


Le time turner, BITCHES!

Hm, I probably need to practice my bass, read some of my books, and watch a few episodes of that Invader Zim DVD I got last night. See you guys later~!
+Momo+
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