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Friday, September 7, 2007

I Need to be Re-Wired
Current Mood: Depressed
Current Song: children by Dir en grey

I'm so depressed. It was a creeping feeling, but the past two days it's just devoured me and I want to go to sleep like a whole week straight. I guess being around my father who's depressed all the time and my mother who was depressed for a little while doesn't help.

It's stupid what's wrong with me. It's selfish and I wish I didn't feel that way, but I just do. I should be thankful for the oppurtunity but I'm not. I hate going to school and hate almost all of my clases. All we do in Art is take notes and never do any artwork, which is the only reason why I took the class. Also, homework is assigned on Friday, which is the day we're supposed to look forward to so we can relax but I have more homework than any other day on it. German is pretty good. My only complaint is that the book just jumps right in and makes you feel stupid. Geometry can kiss my ass. I hate it and I suck at math. It makes me feel like a complete and total idiot and I'm afraid I'm not going to pass it and then I won't be able to get into a four year college and do what I want to do when I grow up, then end up like my dad who hates his job and is miserable. English is filled with a bunch of assholes who give me a headache. The work is easy but I hate almost everyone in there. Whenever I get home I'm so drained from the stupidity of school that I just want to take a nap but I have to do my homework if I want to pass. Once I'm done with homework I have to exercise if I don't want to be fat for the rest of my life. Then I eat dinner, then I take a shower, then I go to sleep. Repeat. Over and over and over again. I feel like I don't have any personal time anymore.

I can't stop thinking about college and what comes after that. I'm afraid that I won't be able to become a Japanese translator like I want and end up being a coperate slave, brainless and miserable. I want to shut off my brain but it keeps on running. I think this is going to be 7th grade all over again. Fucking GREAT.

I want to be thankful. I don't want to be sad, I have so many blessings and I should be happy that I'm receiving an education. A lot of kids would give anything for my position but all I can do is think about how miserable I am.... and it's only two weeks into school. Hopefully I can get better. I don't want to be a selfish asshole. I hate myself when I'm like this. I just want to cry.

Sorry for the depressing post. I should get shot in the head for being so self-centered.
+Momo+
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