Friday, October 5, 2007

   Homecoming Rules XD
Current Mood: Excited/nervous
Current Song: umbrella by Dir en grey
Currently Watching: Spongebob Squarepants

Heeeeey, everyone. :3 Last night was baaaaaaaad. At first I was so happy and I was so hyper because Elijah and I messaging each other for about 45 minutes straight, and well.... I'm a girl, so I got all giddy about it. XD; However, my mom and dad got home really angry at each other and they started fighting. Since I'm trying to fight off depression and I'm already super sensitive, I went into my room and cried for about 10-15 minutes, got out, and waited for my brother to get out of the shower while I layed on his bed. My mom came in with her purse and keys, like she was going to leave. I busted out sobbing and ran into the bathroom and took my shower. When I was in there, I continued to cry and punished myself. I didn't cut or anything, but I pulled my hair, scratched myself, and punched my chest until a bruise was there. I don't know why I do this stuff, but it feels like I'll go insane if I don't. I just want to scream at the top of my lungs at times like that. Mom came into the bathroom while I was taking a shower and talked to me for a little while. Once I was done, Mom and Dad both talked to me and I couldn't help me cry the entire time. I hate whenever I shed tears in front of people, it makes me feel so weak and like I can't control my emotions. Luckily, I fell asleep fast because on instinct I always go to sleep when I'm upset so I don't have to deal with it.

Today was pretty good. :3 In Art we took notes on fantasy art while watching some of "Jason and the Argonauts." Whenever the hydra came out, all I could think about was DIRU's "Hydra" (BTW... I can't wait until I hear the remix :O). XD Once we were done with that, we started on a sheet dealing with artists that specialize in fantasy, op, or pop art. Salvador Dali was on there and I almost screamed. XD I love his work so much. I got a book of Dali from the shelf and looked through it and I didn't really get most of the assigment done because I was just so in awe of his paintings. His oils paintings are just.... breathtaking. They also had some of his sketches and watercolors, but none of his photographs. D: Still beautiful, though. ♥ In German I mostly just talked to Elijah and Nicole for the first half. XD Our substitute doesn't really pay attention, so that helped. But Elijah and I decided that we're going to see Transformers tonight at the dollar theater. :3 We've both already seen it, but we love it so much that we don't mind. XD; I'm really excited and nervous at the same time. @_@ Geometry was... well, it was Geometry. -_- It seemed super long today because we were having a pep rally instead of 4th period and I was getting antsy waiting for it. OMFG, during lunch Korki and her boyfriend bit me... and she bit me so hard that it left a bruise after a few seconds. o_o I could feel the teeth marks hours after she did it and it still hurts (it's now 5:30 and she bit me around 12:20 o_o). Ouchies. ;~; Around 1 my English class went to the gym to get ready for the pep rally and I sat beside Gaia and Devon. Eventually Korki came to sit beside me too. It was really fun, I got to talk to them and everything. Elijah dropped by for a few seconds but decided that it was too crowded and went to go sit with his friends. I was kinda glad... I mean, I really like him, but I don't want to be one of those couples who feels like they have to spend every single minute of every single day together. Anyway, we cheered for almost everyone and whenever Nicole and Becca came out carrying the German club banner, Gaia and I were the ones cheering the loudest. XD It was pretty funny. There were this whole group of kids would start dancing and eventually we did too, and were the only white kids dancing to it. XD It was so fun just being stupid and screaming my lungs out. Unfortunately, my bad hearing kicked in. My right ear is really bad, and sometimes I'm partially deaf in it... occasionally my equilibrium gets thrown off by it too. And that's what happened at the pep rally from all the yelling and screaming. ;o; I'm better now, but damn, it sucked. Once school let out and I went outside to start walking home, I saw that a fight was going on in the area where kids get picked up and dropped off. There were two boys on the ground with an officer on top of them screaming "DON'T MOVE!" He handcuffed one of them and had to get an officer to handcuff the other. At my school, if you're over 16 and you get into a fight on campus, you're arrested. But I didn't feel one bit sorry for them, the stupid bastards.

Eeeeeeeh, I'm so nervous and I have two hours until my date. @//@ Wish me luck, you guys~!
+Momo+
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