Tuesday, May 9, 2006

   Kirei na Hana nai...
Current Mood: Mixed Feelings
Current Song: Kasumi by DIRU

Okay, I know this post is gonna be really whiny, so beware of all the stupid emo-ness. But if you really think about it, it's one of the 3 reasons MyO was created...

Reasons MyO was Created
+To make friends
+To whine about how crappy your life is
+To gain popularity you can't get in the real world

Anyhow, my day was going fine (except just boring, as always) until 6th period, almost before the school day was over. But my friend and I made a bet. I told Jesse that if she got one boy to tell me that I was pretty, I would believe that I'm not ugly and I would give her 50 cents. Well, unfortunately, one of the things I didn't want to happen the most, well, happened. The guy I like was kinda flirting with Carley (which pissed me off and made me jealous) but I kept quiet.. then Jesse and Carley talked to my crush while I wasn't around and the next thing I knew, he came up to me and said "You're pretty." Then he came up AGAIN and said "You're very attractive." I just laughed at him and then asked Jesse what she did to get him to say that and then she replied "Carley has to hug him twice." It sucks having pretty friends... maybe I should just hang out with "ugly" people and we can all be emo and crap together... almost all the guys I like have flirted with my pretty friends but not with me, but that makes me feel like crap. Whatever... I'm not gonna pity myself or sit around moping about it, it's not like I'm in Iraq or anything. I'd rather be ugly than dead anyday.

I started writing a song about hope last night and I think at least the chorus and beginning are good. I started writing the middle part and it just seemed like I was babbling, so I'm just gonna re-do the middle and finish writing the end, no biggie. It's basically talking about although everything has changed in my life and alot of my hopes have been lost, I'll always have one little hope I can hold onto no matter what... and that life is always worth living, no matter how terrible it may seem. The idea came from a quote I made up in the middle of Language class-"Floating in the abyss, I still have that one little star to hold onto." You like? I like... whoa. I just complimented my work. O_O I think I may be coming down with something...

Last night I was watching DIRU clips and it was so cute, I loved it. ^^ There was a interview with BBC with Kyo and Die, it was so funny. Apparently Kyo hates Marilyn Manson, Die hates goth and gothic lolita style (especially the ribbons in their hair o_O), and Kyo would love for you to come see them if you don't mind getting eggs thrown at you or being covered in Kyo's fake blood. ^^ I would bathe in Kyo's fake blood if I could. ^//^ Kyo-san is my homie... *does happy dance* And Oneechan is going to help me and Areina-chan steal Dir en Grey! Yay!!! And the Oneechan can marry Die-kun, Areina-chan can marry Shinya-kun, and I can marry Kyo-san!!! *squeals and claps* I told everyone that he'd be my future husband~! Then Toshiya-san and Kao-chan can be our *ahem* slaves. LOL Yayness for stealing Dir en Grey! ^^


My future husband!!!


Oneechan's future husband!!!


Areina-chan's future husband!!!


Our future *ahem* slave/hawt librarian!!!


Our future *ahem* slave/whore!!!

Well, I'm talking to Zakuro and I gots to go... she talking about stuff and scaring me. O_O
+Momo+
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