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Monday, May 15, 2006
We Are So Unstable
Current Mood: Sad/Angry
Current Song: Unstable by Adema
God, I feel like such a bitch. My boyfriend is so sweet although I don't like him back. I feel so weighed down with guilt that I just want to hide under my bed... he waits for me for the majority of my classes whenever we get out and he talks to me and stuff. He's so nice and here I am pretending to be someone I'm not. So I'm just gonna bare it all to him-my religion, my music, my mind, everything. He'll probably shun me away for it since he's so Christian and sticks to what he believes, but that's okay. If he can't accept me, what else is new? And I don't like him all that much, so it won't hurt. I just don't want to dissapoint him and give him a slap in the face just for liking me... I mean, he's had a crush on me since the 4TH GRADE. I don't want to spoil it for him. It seems like I've put a gun to my head and my finger's on the trigger, just waiting to pull. I told the only real friend I can trust that's not over MyO and she was shocked... she said I could get someone better. I don't know... I just don't know. I'm so dysfunctional and manage to fuck up everything I do. Why can't I just do stuff the right way? I want to please everyone, but in the end, I can't even please myself.
Everyone keeps on mentioning Zakuro to me... I just want to scream at everyone that she backstabbed me so stop talking about her, but I always have to end up explaining it to them. She used me to take out her frustration... she used me for her errands... she criticized me... she backstabbed me... she stood back while I hurt myself... she never really saw my pain... in the end I wonder if it was ever real. Either way, I don't care. If she's going to hurt me, she can just go on her merry little way and do it to someone else. I'm know I'm being mean and being a bitch, but this is who I am. I'm human... I'm not perfect... I'm hurt... and I'm angry. I can't help it... here's a song that I wrote that somewhat sums up how I feel.
Mokuteki
Standing on the sidelines
All I can do is watch
As my desires are ripped from my chest
Even the ones I loved the most
Have betrayed me
In the end, I can't even trust myself
Bleeding in the background
Crying in the rain
Sometimes I'm so fake I fool myself
I want to scream but you've silenced me
The silver slowly rusts
It seems that I'm transparent
Even the dead won't hear my cries
Unseen, chained to the wall
I've learned to stop feeling because
My heart's always a traiter
Bleeding in the background
Crying in the rain
Sometimes I'm so fake I fool myself
I want to scream but you've silenced me
The silver slowly rusts
Stick pins and needles in my eyes
Your broken little voodoo doll
Let the pedophiles rape me
Seeings spots, lying in the sun
Slowly, I rot away
Saigo de, mokuteki wa motte imasen.
There you go... I'm just gonna go play DDR or somethings. Love you guys and see you later.
+Momo+
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