Thursday, June 1, 2006

   Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me
Current Mood: Agitated
Current Song: Childprey by Dir en Grey

Hello, everyone! Today has been a whole lot better than it yesterday was and things haven't really got to me today. This morning I took a pair of scissors and kept on stabbing and scratching up this clay incense holder Zakuro made me that said "I will love you forever." It made me feel better, to tell the truth. I may scratch it up until it's nothing but dust and little bits of clay. I also put all the notes and pictures of her in a shoe box so I won't have to look at it. I want to burn them, but I don't want to do it when my parents are away from home and I don't think they'd let me. I believe all I really need is some time away from her to let go. I've gotten better, but it still hurts. I don't really feel like talking about it anymore.

Today at school was pretty fun. ^^ In math class my (favorite) teacher was playing '80s music on Sirius radio and she seemed pretty happy whenever I was softly banging my head to "Sweet Child of Mine" by Guns n Roses, I was probably the only girl in my class who knew the song. XD Then "Wild Boys" by Duran Duran started playing and I smiled because my parents listen to '80s music all the time and have a "The Best of Duran Duran" CD then I came up to her and said "Duran Duran, huh?" She got really excited and was suprised that I knew who it was, it was funny.

One of my best friends (I won't give out her name for confidentiality in case someone at my school got this address, I don't want to embarass her) just started her period, so we were making all types of period jokes (I'm on mine too) and crap like that. It was so funny because she was playing soccer with me and Carley when Aaron came over and stole the ball away. She chased after him and got it back and screamed "Ha!!! I got the ball away from you even though I'm on..." then she just looked at me and we burst out laughing. She's so fun and I'm happy that I have her as a friend. ^^ Also, in social studies we went to the computer lab and went to this website where it recommended all these jobs based on your interests. I got alot that I wanted like community service (I plan on being a psychiatrist), art, spirituality, things like that. My friend showed me her list and she had "clown" (so did I) and "tatoo artist" and stuff like that on it... that's sooo not her, so we started joking around stuff. I said "OMG, that would be sooo hot if you were clown, hun." I also got recommended as a rabbi. XD I would rock the house off the synagouge (sp?), yo!!! But the things I wanted to do the most on my list was psychiatry, music video director, and music producer. I started screaming "OMFG, I COULD MEET DIR EN GREY AND THEN DATE KYO AND THEN MAYBE MARRY HIM AND HAVE LITTLE SPAWN-CHILDREN!" XD My friend said I was a freak, but she always calls me "her freak." ^-^ Then I call her my "normal person." I wuvs her! :3 I started a trend in my school-we made a model of an airplane hanger out of paper and wore it on my head. ^-^ It was fun but I got pissed whenever people started copying me! I yelled at my friend Dylan for it so he wore a book cover on his head instead. XD


He could conceive a child with me any day. XDDD

I have an orchestra concert tonight, so I got to get all pumped and stuff by watching Dir en Grey PVs!!! >3 I love you guys and sayonara!!!
+Momo+
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