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Vitals

Birthday
• 1991-10-26
Gender
• Female
Location
• In the US of A. :B
Member Since
• 2006-02-27
Occupation
• Obssesor, fangirl, idiot, menace to society, etc.
Real Name
• *shifty eyes* Momo...

Personal

Achievements
• I know a little Japanese. :D
Anime Fan Since
• Before I was an embryo. o_O
Favorite Anime
• DEATH NOTE (:D), Chobits, Trigun, Hana Kimi, Naruto, any shoujo, yaoi, or yuri.
Goals
• To meet Dir en grey, start a band, move to Japan, and become a Japanese translator.
Hobbies
• Listening to music, reading, studying Japanese, writing, watching movies, obsessing, smelling things, etc.
Talents
• I'm okay at learning different languages and am pretty open minded...

myOtaku.com: PeachesXCream

Saturday, August 19, 2006

My Heart is Screaming
Current Mood: Numb
Current Song: RED...(em) by Dir en Grey

I cannot believe what has happened to me. Zakuro PMed me today, apologizing. The entire time I cried while I read it. We haven't talked in about four months, and that was whenever someone tried to make us make up but I told her "I'm not apologizing to YOU." It seemed to take such a pain off of my chest, that it's unbelievable. A grudge still lingers within my heart, so I was not able to fully forgive her, but enough that we have come to certain terms. It's odd, I had a dream about her last night. Whenever I remembered it I thought I was gonna cry, but I'm used to remembering things about her and feeling like dying. It's a burden I have to deal with every single day. In the letter, she talked about "how great of a person" I am. She told me that things mean more to me than the average person. She told me she wishes that all my hopes come true. My heart started screaming. I just wish things could go back to normal, but I know that they never will. Maybe it's better this way. She's not going to the same school that I am and honestly, I'm afraid that she'll hurt me again. And things would never be the same. I just wish that I could go back in time and stop everything from happening. Stop that trainwreck from happening. But for once, I'm gonna hold on to my dignity and listen to my head, and not my heart. I'm not going to get hurt all over again. I can't forgive her completely. But I can thank her for that. And I can slightly rest because of this. So, Zakuro, if you're reading this, thank you. I really needed to hear that.

Also, my Oneechan has come back. "Oneechan" is not really my sister, but she's like one to me. Without Oneechan, Areina-chan, or DIRU, what's left of my sanity would be loooong gone. I'm so happy that she's back, if only for weekends, that I thought I was gonna cry whenever I saw her comment on one of my posts. I missed her so much.

Kyo says "me so happy Oneechan is back!!!"

Other than that, last night and today were rather uneventful. Last night I went to Aikido, ate pizza, and watched "The Benchwarmers" (an AWESOME movie, if you wanna laugh until you have a headache and love Jon Heder, WATCH THIS MOVIE). Today I went to Aikido again, ate at Jack In The Box, went to Dick's Sporting Goods, went to the local comic bookstore, went to Tuesday Morning, read "To Kill a Mockingbird", played bass until I got a blister on my pointer finger (I don't play with picks, I find them cumbersome and annoying) and my parents yelled at me for it, practiced singing "RED...(em)", ate ramen, and I plan on practicing Japanese. I have to go, I can't stop crying and I don't want my parents to find out. Later, you guys. Much love.
+Momo+
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