Wednesday, August 23, 2006

   Yurari to... yurari to... yurari to... yurari to....
Current Mood: Pissed off
Current Song: 304 Goushitsu, Hakushi to Sakura by Dir en Grey

Mou... yesterday was pretty nice. ^^ I was on the computer looking at pictures of DIRU (and I find a REALLY nice picture of Die-I might have to put it up for Oneechan and Larth2thlink ^^;). My brother decided he wanted to go to his friend's house, and so Mom picked him up and I had the house all to myself. I stayed on the computer for a little more but then a storm brewed up, so I had to get off. Taking advantage of my brother's absense, I practiced singing on my karaoke machine without holding back. It was really nice to sing "Cage" at the top of my lungs, pressing my hand to my heart without anyone staring at me in confusion. I tried to practice screaming, becase I've never done it before but didn't work up the nerve. Damn me. -_- I sang plenty of other songs from "Gauze", but I noticed that I put the most into "Cage." ^^ (It could be that it was my first DIRU/J-rock song and PV and first song I learned how to sing in Japanese, but... @_@) I've come to really like "304 Goushitsu, Hakushi to Sakura." I seldomly used to listen to it, but once I actually sat down and took the time to appreciate it, my heart fluttered. Kyo's beautiful, flowing voice engulfed me in a sense of comfort, drawing me in deeper and deeper until I was drowning in the world he had created. And Die... wow. That boy really has a knack for song writing. XD It's so heavenly-souding; it's a gently melody, like the sound of fingers gliding across the strings of a harp. But before you know it, just as you're sinking into a calm sense of mind, the song explodes and reminds you that this is a song of sorrow, not happiness. I really, really like "304", it seems that the more I listen to things, the more I love them. ^^; Kyo wrote some other "304 Goushitsu", but they're in his poem book. They're really beautiful, and I wish he would make them into songs (wait... doesn't the poem book have a CD included???). Anyhow, it was really nice having the house all to myself. ^^ After that I played the bass and it sucked ASS. I have to learn the fourth fret, meaning I have to use my pinky. Pressing down on the E string is HELL. I eventually had to quit because it hurt so much. ;_; While I watched "Futurama" I exercised my weakest fingers (ring finger and pinky) but bending them over and over again until I got cramps. X_X Ouchness. Then I watched "Family Guy", practiced more singing, and went to bed.

304 GOUSHITSU, HAKUSHI TO SAKURA by Dir en Grey (translation by Tattered Cloth)
from the window the ever unchanging cherry blossoms
flutter flutter flutter flutter and dance in the breeze

today, too, my conciousness fades away
who are you? I cannot remember anything
my tears overflowed and fell
onto your hand clutching mine reassuringly

your unending stream of tears told me something
for some reason the scent of you brings memories...
surely I will lose my life all alone, in this room
these flowers that no-one can find...

the flowers fall quickly, swaying in the breeze this white hospital room blows with the breeze

the pain building up day by day
you held my thinning, ugly body close to you

at my time of death, there's one special person I remembered
tomorrow I'll become ashes, return to dust
from the window I can see the cherry blossoms beneath those cherry blossoms I want to sleep
wrapped in warmth in your hand....
they carry me quietly from room 304
so that I will never forget you

from here on, I sway in the breeze, together with the cherry blossoms, remembering you

fluttering fluttering
fluttering fluttering



Ugh... today is my last full day of freedom. ;_; Tommorow I have to go to school for a half day because I'm going to be a... a... freshman. *sobs* I dun wanna go to highschool! I dun wanna grow up!!! T~T This sucks major ass. Not only will I have to go to school, but it'll also cut down on my J-rock, Japanese, staying up late, and all that other fun stuff. ;_; School sucks. So I'm gonna enjoy this day while it lasts.
+Momo+
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