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Friday, September 22, 2006


   My memories...
Current Mood: Depressed
Current Mood: egnirys cimredopyh +) an injection by Dir en Grey


I really hate when this shit happens to me. All I can think about is Melody. Back whenever we were friends, and it seemed like nothing could ever go wrong. I remember how much trust I put in her and how she betrayed it all. All I can ever think of now is wondering if she ever thinks of me. If she ever misses me. Regrets what she did. Yesterday I looked in the mirror and wanted to die. I wanted to scream, I pulled my hair, punched myself, slammed myself against the wall... I made Kyo look tame. Whenever I went to bed all I could think of was her. I eventually fell asleep after staring at the wall for more than half an hour.

Today wasn't too great either. In Orchestra, our teacher told us that we sounded like crap. Those were her exact words. I don't think I'm going to take Orchestra next year... I like the viola and all, but I'm not passionate about it. Plus, I want to learn how to play the bass more. Algebra was alright, nothing major happened in there. After I did my work, I started reading my Japanese book and Johnson asked "are you going to become a Japanese citizen?" I told him that I would try, and then they got all excited whenever they found out I could speak Japanese. They were asking me what their names were in Japanese, and I felt like calling them idiots. I mean, this girl named Emily freaked out whenever I said "Emeri." @_@ And I found out Chandler's friend likes to scream "GOUKAN!!!" out of nowhere. O_O Odd. In Health, though, I was really pissed off because people were being so insensitive. A man who has a hole in his throat from smoking so much visited, and people were making fun of him because his voice sounded odd. It makes me so angry whenever people ignore other people's feelings. It also upset me because they were talking about birth defects due to smoking, and my cousin smokes and is pregnant. I'm really consearned about her child, and I pray that she is okay. In Civics we just had to take a test, but the entire time I felt like shit. I layed my head on my desk and constantly thought about Melody. I almost started crying but I stopped myself. Whenever I walked home with Nicole I stayed silent most of the time. My past just won't die. I just wish I could forget all the pain.



Once again, I've wrote another woeful post. Sorry, you guys. I know, I suck.
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