Tuesday, November 21, 2006

   Marrow...
Current Mood: Alright
Current Song: Escapism by An Cafe

Yay... DIRU's coming out with a new album in February!!! I've waited for hearing about the release of a new album from them since about "Ryoujoku No Ame", so I'm uber happy. Then Kyo, Kaoru, Shinya, and Toshiya can get lots of money in time for their birthdays (poor Die-san... ;_;). :D Here's some info:

THE MARROW OF A BONE is the sixth full-length album by Japanese rock group Dir en grey, set to be released on February 7, 2007. No announcements have been made regarding where it will be released, yet Europe and North America in addition to Japan are likely, given the band's recent and ongoing tour efforts in these territories. Incidentally, Dir en grey will be touring the United States around the time of the album's release.

No official track list has been made available so far, it remains to be seen whether the three singles released since Withering to Death. (namely "Clever Sleazoid", "Ryoujoku no Ame" and "Agitated Screams of Maggots") will be included or not.

Thank you, Wikipedia! :D I really hope that it's released in America, that way I won't have to beg on my hands and knees to get it online from my parents. -_-



Last night I was sooooo freaking depressed, I just didn't want to even look in the mirror. I felt like I was just so unbearably disgusting-looking that I wanted to cry. I have a really low self-esteem and I'm my worst enemy when it comes to it. I just want to be beautiful. Hell, I just want to FEEL beautiful. It can be a lie, I don't care. But I just want to look in the mirror and smile. It hurts. Also, my father was really depressed and angry. He has been ever since he lost his job, which was more than 3 months ago, I think. I just want to make him happy... I want him to get a job he will finally like, or at least find accetable. But I always want the think I can't have the most, don't I? I also kept on thinking of Melody and wondering if things could have, would have been different for us. Luckily, I didn't cry, though. I don't think I can cry anymore sometimes. Maybe it's just that I'm in so much pain that I can't bear to bring myself more. And what's even more sad is that I didn't dream of meeting DIRU before I went to sleep, like I always do. I just felt to tired and my mind kept on screaming at me that I would never meet them. Oh, joy.

Today was better. I kept on telling myself that today was the last day I had to go to school this week, so I dragged myself out of bed. @_@ At school everyone kept on telling me that I was wearing green instead of black. X_X I'm sure I know that. I guess it was nice to see a change for them, though. In orchestra, once again, I didn't have to play so I studied Japanese for the Yonkyuu study guide I have (I'm not taking Yonkyuu, but I thought it would be smart to follow a guide on what I should learn rather than randomly learning words like I do) and *tried* to sleep. I almost feel asleep whenever class let out, so I was pissy. We had to go to homeroom to get our school pictures... mine were TERRIBLE. I look like a guy, like I'm drunk, and I didn't even smile but I thought I did. I wanted to tear them up, especially after my break down the previous night, but I just stuffed them in my binder angrily. In Algebra our teacher was back from her vacation in the Bahamas, so we didn't have to work the entire time. When she was talking, I just scribbled on my paper and completely ignored what she said. Yay for not caring!!! In Health we watched "Radio", and I studied Japanese, studied for a Civics test, wrote a note to Chasity, and watched a little bit of the movie. After I studied for the Civics test, I decided to watch the movie since Radio was so sweet. I ended up crying in one part (I won't say for those who haven't seen it) and if I didn't try to stay quiet, I would have SOBBED. Tears were just streaming down my face, and I wanted to hold him. I hate seeing people in pain, especially when they can't express it in ways others can. I have such a soft spot for people with mental dissablities and children, I'll do anything for them even if it means the death of me. In Civics we had a review for a test, and everyone was actually suprised that I actually got a basket (we were playing this kinda basketball thing @_@). After that, we took the actual test and I had about 15 minutes to practice more Japanese. After that, Thai and I finished our survey until it was the end of class. Standing outside with my friends today was especially fun. Bobby had made a paper-mache skull and he and Sydney kept on tossing it back screaming "Look! He gave me head!" XD Eventually we decided to toss it all around, put I never got proper head... Daniel didn't do it right. XDDD; Daniel, Bobby, Sydney, Nicole, and I decided to play football with it to decide who would "get head." Sydney one the first time, but the second time Nicole and I tackled him and we got yelled at by teachers while everyone was like "holy shit, the goth kids are playing football." @_@ After that we made a whole lot of pervert jokes after that like "luckily I ended up on my knees and not my back" and "I went down so hard my knees are bleeding." Well, my knee actually did get a scratch because I tackled Sydney and landed on a tree root... @_@ But it's okay.

Mmm... I guess I should watch some DIRU now while my parents aren't home. X_X Mata ne~!
+Momo+
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