Wednesday, July 25, 2007

My Dog
My dog got hit by a truck and killed a few days ago, and I'm not handling it well. I haven't really slept at night for two days. I stay awake while my friend sleeps and I finally go to sleep when she wakes up. I'm afraid she can tell that I'm extremly sad. I have every right to be though. My dog was the only family I had that cared about me besides my grandparents and my grandpa died when I was very young. My grandma just got transfered from the hospital, to a nursing home she was in the previous year. I have my friends but I feel that we are drifting apart. Especially my best friend, who shall not be named. I asked one of my friends, who I had just pissed off, to kill me. But he refused to do it because I wanted to, so "It wouldn't be any fun." I can't sleep at night because I get horrible images of my dog bleeding on the sidewalk dead. I finally fall asleep when my eyes hurt too much to keep them open. Yesterday I cried from 5 am till 6. I only stopped because my friends mother had woken up and I didn't want her to know I was crying. I also had to dig the dogs grave. It hurts so much to know your digging a grave for one of your best friends. And to top it all off, I won a poetry contest and I am going to reno to accept my award, be on a television show and maybe win $75,000. I won the award before any of the bad stuff happened and now I feel completly guilty, even though I know I shouldn't because I deserve this award. I have though hard about suicide in the last two days but I remember the last time I almost did it that my best friend called me cry, and begging me not to do it. I just don't think I can take another night of crying and seeing images of my dog lying dead on the sidewalk. Please somebody help me...
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My joke (deticated to kale)
Q:If you flip over an h and cut off it's thing, what do you get? A:u
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Love Or Pain written by me
I stand in the rain,
so you can't see me cry.
I look up,
and watch the day go by.
I fall to my knees,
and et my sorrows wash away.
Saying goodbye to the pain,
and looking forward to the next day.
Then I jump in the lake,
even though I can't swim.
I let myself sink,
and then I remember him.
I know he loves me,
and I love him too.
So I pull myself up,
and say,"I will wait for you."
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Colorful Love written by me
Our heads are jumping,
and our hearts are pumping,
blood through our vains,
and colors through our brains.
We only feel eachother,
we don't need another,
to make our love last,
it's just like the past.
Love is being expressed,
as we're both slowly undressed.
Nothing around us is real,
only the things we feel.
We kiss and caress,
I love it, I must confess.
We whisper in eachother's ears,
as if to drive away all fears.
So much pleasure,
that to us is a treasure.
And when we were finished,
our urges deminished,
we stayed together,
arm in arm forever.
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I Broke Her written by me
Left her alone,
used and broken.
Wishing now,
I'd never spoken.

Trying to forget,
the words that I shed.
Wanting to forget,
the tears she shed.

I want to,
disapear.
Run away from,
what I fear.
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Long-Distants Love written by me
So far away from you,
yet I know our love is true.

I cry every night you aren't around,
but I try not to make a sound.

I don't want anyone to know I'm sad,
you are the only one I wish I had.

Two years is too long to wait,
I mark the days off, date by date.

I want to have you in my arms,
and when I do I'll work my charms.

Talking on the phone isn't enough,
but for you, I try to be tough.

Oh what I wouldn't do,
just to be with you.
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Monday, July 23, 2007

Trapped written by me
Your mind is a vortex,
slowly pulling me in.
You had better try harder,
if you wish to win.

Your heart is darkness,
sweeping over me.
Blinded and lost,
I still try to flee.

Your body is an ocean,
drowning me slowly.
Choking on water,
you finally caught me.

Your voice is an alarm,
sounding when I escape.
Sending your guards,
and catching me on tape.

Your hands are reaching out to me,
and helping me to my feet.
And then for the first time,
we finally meet.
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Forbidden Sky
I fell into a painting,
and drifted slowy to sleep.
At first it was only darkness,
but then I got a peep.
What I saw was briliant,
in it's own magnetic way.
It was but a painting of the sky,
on a clear and sunny day.
It drew me in,
and warmed my soul.
But I only got a glance,
a peek I know I stole.
And now the beauty stays with me,
forever in my head.
And the thought of ever waking,
fills me full of dread.
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Just A Girl written by me
I just want to be,
the girl sitting next to you.
The one you talk to,
when your feeling blue.

The one who keeps you,
up on your feet.
The one who makes,
your deppression retreat.

I want to be the girl,
to help your soul mend.
I only want to be,
your best friend.
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Monday, June 25, 2007

My Quiz Results
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!

Level descriptions: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html
Take the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-test.mv

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test
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