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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

My Dog
My dog got hit by a truck and killed a few days ago, and I'm not handling it well. I haven't really slept at night for two days. I stay awake while my friend sleeps and I finally go to sleep when she wakes up. I'm afraid she can tell that I'm extremly sad. I have every right to be though. My dog was the only family I had that cared about me besides my grandparents and my grandpa died when I was very young. My grandma just got transfered from the hospital, to a nursing home she was in the previous year. I have my friends but I feel that we are drifting apart. Especially my best friend, who shall not be named. I asked one of my friends, who I had just pissed off, to kill me. But he refused to do it because I wanted to, so "It wouldn't be any fun." I can't sleep at night because I get horrible images of my dog bleeding on the sidewalk dead. I finally fall asleep when my eyes hurt too much to keep them open. Yesterday I cried from 5 am till 6. I only stopped because my friends mother had woken up and I didn't want her to know I was crying. I also had to dig the dogs grave. It hurts so much to know your digging a grave for one of your best friends. And to top it all off, I won a poetry contest and I am going to reno to accept my award, be on a television show and maybe win $75,000. I won the award before any of the bad stuff happened and now I feel completly guilty, even though I know I shouldn't because I deserve this award. I have though hard about suicide in the last two days but I remember the last time I almost did it that my best friend called me cry, and begging me not to do it. I just don't think I can take another night of crying and seeing images of my dog lying dead on the sidewalk. Please somebody help me...
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