Thursday, August 30, 2007

   If I was a superhero, My power would be that of Procrastination!
Ha...Might as well already be a superhero because I TOTALLY have that power down pat! Bah, there are only two or so days left of August, and I am JUST now starting on my picture for vampireknight's contest >< I mean, I had sketched it out and everything, but I'm just now doing the line art on the computer and such(Which takes FOREVER by the way) My hand feels like it's gonna fall off. I should have started on it when I got home from school, then I'd probably be done with it...But...I decided to watch D.Gray-Man Instead! LAWZ! <3 I LOVE ALLEN!!! I LOVE CROWLEY TOO! He's so depressingly cute xD
Enough fangirling!
Bah...I have a bunch of homework I still need to do...Prolly gonna be staying up late again...
I mean super late. Like..2 or 3.
12 or 1 ain't so bad.
*sigh*
I've hardly had any time to draw, too. ;_; All my teachers are Nazis and I don't want them to come over and destroy my pretty pictures >< I wouldn't put it past many of them.

Anywho, I'm off to go watch TV XD LAWLZ
...and do my homework I guess *siiiigh* I hate school.
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Sunday, August 26, 2007

   The High School Blues..
Well, tomorrow I'm starting the 11th grade. I'm going to a brand new school with over 1000 kids that are going to be brand new to me. That isn't the part that worries me of course. I'm worried that I won't have any classes with my friends--most of my good friends have moved away or I have to leave behind in the 10th grade.

I felt ready yesterday--no, I felt EAGER to start, to just get through with this. But now I'm having doubts. I'm worried things aren't going to go well for me. I HAVE to make good grades these next two years. I have to. I'm an average student, but how am I going to get into a university that I want at this rate? It's going to be hard, I'll tell you that much.

I won't have as much time to draw, problably, or hang out with all my friends. It's going to suck. I don't think I'm ready for this summer to be over.
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Wednesday, August 22, 2007

   Doh, Not again..
Well...I have ANOTHER freaking sty >>
I hate my body, why does it always have to turn against me.

For those of you who do not know what a sty is: http://health.howstuffworks.com/home-remedies-for-styes.htm

My doctor once discribed it as "A pimple under your eyelids' Or something gross like that. Ugh, this is the third one I've gotten. Apparently I don't take good enough care of my eyes....=__= It's my own fault...sometimes I'm too lazy to take off my makeup. Ugh.
Oh well, It's not really swollen, it doesn's hurt, and it isn't red. So if I put some warm water on it, hopefully it'll go away quickly...
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Saturday, August 18, 2007

Feeling a bit Better Now..
I can't say that I feel completely peachy, but luckily have had some things that could cheer me up....
I forced myself to be optimistic and believe that everything will be alright. That my friends will be ok. One of them already seems better...but then again, what she was going through recently wasn't as personal and hard hitting than my other good friend.
I talked to someone about it though...and I think I can understand a little bit better, now.

Blah...anywho, I stayed up too late last night. Hardly know what I'm typing or if it makes any sense. I just hope that she calls me, I can't help but to worry about her. She's one of my closest friends(Which I already have few of)so I don't want to lose her. Meh....maybe I'm just being overly dramatic. I don't know where I'm thinking I'll suddenly lose her..

I told her that she can always rely on me, and that I'll always be here for her no matter how far apart we become or live or whatever. It doesn't matter. I keep my promises.

Update
We're talking right now...Of course, I don't expect her to be 100% better...but I'm glad she's becoming more like herself again.

I worry for her way too much.
That's cuz I love you, sweetie.
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Well Apparently I'm Totally Useless
Yeah, it's offical.
I can't make my best friends feel happy at all--so what good am I?
I've been told by two people to my face already that talking to me about their problems doesn't help.
Basically, my words are a waste of time, waste of breath. Well, damnit, I'm sorry I couldn't help more. I can be by your side ALL I want ALL you want. And apparently that just idn't good enough. I wish I could do more, I wish that I could make you happy and fix everything in your life--but I can't All I can do is say "I believe in you; things will be ok." I wish I could do more, but I'm only human.
I just feel like crap...What pisses me off more are the people who make my friends upset. Damnit, I could kill them. I'd do
Without them, I would be nothing. I wouldn't know a thing about myself, I wouldn't BE myself.

I just wish that things would get better for them. And that I could freaking do something to make a difference in their lives a bit.
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Thursday, August 16, 2007

   It's 1:41 AM...and I'm dyeing my hair...
What an AWESOME thing to do so late at night, huh?

I just want a bit of a change before school starts =/ Going back to solid black now...My mom dislikes the blue streaks, anyhow.
Thinks they look trashy, I guess.
Glad to know I'm such a disappointment, mommy.
Ugh.
Oh well...I think I'll like it...It'll make it easier to wear matching clothes haha.
The dye I'm using is giving me a headache though...Maybe a sign that I should go wash it out now?

Anime Fest is soon too! I can't wait! I won't be cosplaying THIS year...but next year I'm going as Mello from Death Note.
That's right, strumpets. Bask in it.

I think I might be going as Mikami, actually...Ha! Wouldn't that be a riot!? Either that or I'll go as a member from the FBI or SPK cuz my friend is cosplaying as Near XD I'm gonna chase her and start screaming the Transformers theme song!

"Transformers, robots in disguise~
Transformers, more that meets the eye!"

Aaaand, that's all I know...

Anywho, headache getting worse, better wash this stuff out. =_=
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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

   MY LIFE IS RUIINED!!! =O
Ok...not really. I'm just being overly dramatic.
But still...it's 1AM and I'm bored...frankly, the only thing I feel like doing right now is playing Audition >:( However...

THE FECKING INTERNET IS BEING DUMMBBB!!!
Not to mention it's hot in this room...Who's the decedent of Copernicus that turned off all the fans? ><

Anywho...I guess I could go draw some more...*sigh* But do I really feel like it?
Not at the moment. Then again, I've been promising my friend Chayce that I'd draw her a picture of one of my characters for about a week now...and I still haven't done it...Pleeh...it's almost done >>
Gonna post it when done, of course..
La~~ Gonna see if Audition will work now.
I know I'm a loser...don't rub it in.
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Saturday, August 11, 2007

   Laziness...
It's been awhile since I've added any pictures up here xP Even longer since people have commented on my crap D< *hint hint*
Well, because I've been 'sick' lately, I haven't felt like drawing much...so I haven't posted up anything. Though, tonight I'll have nothing to do. So tomorrow expect to see a lot of pictures up xP I've had an urge to draw people from FF9 and FF7--I've been playing them lots. I LOVE VINCENT! :3

He's so sad D: So...dare I say...emo?

Bah, and the song I'm listening to makes me want to draw more MattxMello! I need to start drawing my OWN characters though! >> and work on my manga..BAH! I'm lazy! Anyway, My throat has healed from it's irritation issue(I had some odd sort of sore due to not swallowing a pill with water--it got stuck in there and stuff xP)SO I feel a lot more chipper and junk :3 Gonna draw like crazy tonight and tomorrow~~ BAH! I want to draw Aeramis so badly...I miss him ;_; I haven't used him in a roleplay in awhile...well...in one that I've WANTED to anyway. >> I'll probably be drawing him like crazy xP ANYWHO....um..I think that's about all I wanted to say xD

OH! I'm in the process of saving tadpoles!
Cuz I'm awsome like that...
I'm Saving them from being drained down my friend's new pool and being killed xP

I know...I'm a good samaritan like that :3
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Tuesday, August 7, 2007

   Meh...
Well in a few minutes I'll be heading off to the doctor.
I'm worried because I really don't know what's wrong with me. I hope that nothing's wrong and I'm just having my usual hypochondria attack. My chest just feels tight, when I swallow it feels like it won't go down my throat. Almost like when you swallow too much food, or swallowed something you didn't chew good enough.
But it feels like that with everything, water, food, hell even my own saliva.
I'm hoping that it's nothing serious...

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UPDATE
Well..the doctor THINKS they know what's wrong >> And I have no idea what it is...oh well. They said something like it might just be some irritation or whatever blah blah blah. I have to take this pill 30 minutes before I eat--and if I'm not feeling any better by friday, I've got to get a chest x-ray. Woohoo...fun...
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Thursday, August 2, 2007

   Things are Going Just the Way I Like Them :3
W00t! Well it's true, guys...things should be fine and dandy for awhile now. These first few days I've been feeling anxious and full of anxiety; and when that happens, it's usually something to be concerned about...Seeing as how I'll get OVERLY anxious and OVERLY worried about things D: However, in these past one and a half days, things are looking up!!

My friend and I finally get to see each other...we won't be able to see--or talk for that matter--that much when school starts up again...Which SUCKS because she's my BEST friend >< We're getting together for two days in a row, and we're going to do sooo much crap xD Ha! We're going to roleplay~ And make Matt and Mello plushies! Haha! Then we'll have to get a lot of work in on our Doujinshi and Fanfiction we've been planning xP I just hope we can get to everything.

Ah, and let's not forget that last night I found the Matt and Mello Doujin I've been searching around for since FOREVER!!!!! xDDDD AUUGH! I CAN'T WAIT TO READ IT IT'S GOING TO BE SO CUTE OHMAIGAWDEH!!! It's called Angel's Song...it's about what happened after chapter 99(I believe). Ahh, I can't wait! :3

Lets see...what else? OH! And for a looong time I was worried that my friend was getting tired of our OCs...It terrified me. All we seemed to be roleplaying or whatever was Matt and Mello (We're totally obsessed xD) Which was fine with me...but I missed OUR characters. At first I didn't think she did at all...and I was so scared--losing them would be like a mother losing her children, you know? We've roleplayed with the same OCs for about...3 or more years. Losing them would be losing the biggest chunk of my life imaginable.
BUT I'M DUMB!
I can't believe I thought for a minute that she didn't miss or care about them xD Today we got to roleplay with them for hours before she had to go! YIPPIE!
Ah..sorry..I know this is a meaningless babble thingy...but I felt like I had to get this all out somewhere ^^
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