Thursday, July 28, 2005

Well, I'm here at my daddy's work again, staring at the Miss San Antonio Poster.

I read one of Natalie's updates about a dude named Chris. I didn't hink much of it until I read the conversation in the previous update. Yeah it was my exboyfriend Chris. I couldn't figure out how he got her IM thingie. I might have given it to him, but I don't remember. I'm just scared for Gnat now. I never wanted him to be associated with any of my friends. He's just....no good. I hope he doesn't do anything to her. I hope he just stays away from my friends back there. Get his own life and stay with his stoner friends and girlfriend.

On the upside of things, Northstar was awesome. We even got stopped by a cop and was lectured on "being normal". I'm serious, he said "Why don't you guys just act normal while you're here." I knew that would piss off Josh, and it did. He was about to run back and mutilate that dude. He thinks the security guard dude was just being stereotypical. He was though. Josh was wearing an all black trench coat, I was wearing my Bondage pants, Tony was in all black and Dakota was just hyper as hell. It was crazy, we were just looking over the ledge on teh top floor as if we were going to jump over. I saw him over my shoulder and decided not to acknowledge him until he cleared his throat to get our attention. The thing is that we all knew he was there, we just didn't look at him. Haha, we finall turned around though, after about 2 minutes.
To calm Josh down, we ventured over to the candy store, and I bought us all a bag of sour candy stuffs. yummy. We all munched out and headed back to Hot Topic to find the other people. We found them a little while later walking around the bottom floor. That's when I met Tony's ex, another chick, a guy with green spikes named Juanito Burrito, and an asian guy with short pink hair and kick ass sunglasses. Juanito, he's pretty cool. A little timid, but nice. I got his number so we can hopefully hang out. He is a fan of DDR though.
Being the cheap people that we are, we ordered from the dollar menu at the food court. I wasn't too hungry so I just got a Parfait thingie. Yumers...^_^ Then Tony and Dakota replayed the Parfait scene from Shrek.
I talked to Tony on the phone last night and was singing that Candy Shop hippity hop song. "GIVE YOU A TASTE OF WHAT I GOT!! WHOA!" It's still stuck in my head. We got cut off around 1 am. He called back: "Oh geez was that a bad idea?" Yeah mom woke up and told me to get off the phone. Haha. Oh well, I'll just call him tonight, we are going to see eachother tomorrow anyway at the Quarry. I think Josh is coming too. I wish Thomason could come, but he has this big essay to do before the school year starts. I have a summer assignment that I should be doing. Summer Reading. The book that I chose is a good one though. I've read it before and I can finish it in a day. So no problem.
I'm sleepy so I'm going to head over to the break area and take a nap. Matte Ne!
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Ok I'm back everyone. I'm sorry. Chorizo and potato is muy goodness *rubs tummy* ^_^ Would be better if it had some bacon though...

Anyway, Sea World was awesome. I got ready and was there by noon or so, and met Mikako at the front gate under the big stained glass Shamu. We met Walter at the lockers where I left all my stuff. We played and frollicked in the wave pool for a bit with Mikako's parents. They're nice and everything. I actually felt good about myself wearing a swimsuit that day though. Since i've been playing DDR for almost a whole year, almost everyday, my leg muscles have really toned up. I felt good also because my thighs don't even shake when I walk, Haha. I have atwo piece swimsuit, but the top comes all the way down to the bottom, so i have none of my belly showing (whew!).
After sharing a small boat of Tenders from the nearest food place, we got dressed and walked around a bit.We decided to try the Steel Eel. I love rollercoasters. I'll tell you that right now. I love the adrenaline rush, the speed, the air, the view, everything! We got to the top of the first drop and we were in front. You could see everything, it was so crazy and my heart was beating so fast but I loved it!
Sitting in the back on that coaster though, whewee!!! Man, when you get to the top, it's like you lift off your seat before you reach the top. 'tis crazy, but fun nonetheless.
Walter and I rode the Great White, and I got to see the guy that he likes. He's pretty cute i would way. Too bad I wasn't able to talk to him to make sure he's a good guy. He seemed pretty crazy, he kept saying the most random things on the intercom. heehee. I figured out where the camera was and was able to pose, kinda. Just did the standard rock on symbol with my hand and stuck out my tongue. That Roller Coaster is freaking awesome too. Before we went on it one last time, we had our lunch. I ordered 1/2 rack of ribs and fries (man was i hungry!). I also ate some cheesecake with some cherry filling on it. Yummy stuff, I love cheesecake. So we ate, and since I was so hungry, i finished off Walter's Turkey leg. I looked at it and there was still plenty of meat on it. So we went on the Great White Coaster one last time and when we got off, I shot my fists in the air and screamed "LET'S GO THROW UP!!" but we didn't.
Mikako's ear was hurting after one of the rides. It made me feel bad that she was hurting so much. I wish I could have done something to help her. Even though I like her so much, and i'm ok with being bi, I'm just still sort of afraid of showing too much affection and stuff. It's not like I don't want anybody to know, I don't care if everybody knows, I just can't give out that much affection for some reason. Especcially when they're in a hentai mood. Alone maybe, or just holding hands, or a casual boobie slap (hehe), but not boobie grabbing or anything. I just don't know what's wrong with me.
I had fun anyway, we went to Diversions afterwards, around 5 or so because it started raining. I played so much DDR, I think I annoy people when I don't go play other games. Oh well, the only other game I like to play there is Soul Calibur (Caliber?) and That strip Poker thing. Walter and I played Playboy/ Strip poker for both sexes ^.^ Hehe. Alright...
Then we headed over to the gas station across the street and grabbed a drink and a snack. I took a couple pictures of them, I think i'll try to put them up later.

I think that's it. Tomorrow I'm going to Northstar with Tony, Josh, Thomason and the rest of their gang. Who wants to guess how long Tony and I stayed up talking on Monday night? Go Ahead. Guess the amount of hours, and the time that I hung with him. The person closest to the time gets a special reward whenever I see them, whether it be one of the cons or at school. Guess....NOW
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You are a very deep sleeper. You take sleeping as
seriously as you take living. To you, sleep is
not just something thats just necessary, its
something that is an actual part of life and
should be appreciated and enjoyed just as much
as being awake. You are very deep and
philosophical at times, and always willing to
listen to someone elses point of view. After
all, how can there be progress without change,
and how can there be change without acceptance?


How do you Sleep? (Anime Pics)
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*nods* Whenever I do sleep, it is pretty deep. Nobody has ever seen me sleep at home.

On Sunday I went to Sea World with Mikako and Walter. It was so much fun and we went on the Steel Eel twice. The Steel Eel is the rollercoaster that you can see from teh highway one minute away from my house. I liked sitting in the back where all the heavy duty shakes and roughness was. We were shaken up and everything. I really want to post more about it. In a second. I'm going to get a breakfast taco from my dad's friend. I'm at his work right now. Be right back.
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Sunday, July 24, 2005

I'm talking to one of the coolest girls of all time. She's so cool, too bad she's too much into this other girl...
Well this is going to be short because Dad needs the computer. All I'm going to say for now is that can't wait for tomorrow. I get to see my buddies (the animals from sea world) and also my friends Mikako, and Walter.
Peace out home skillets
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Saturday, July 23, 2005

   Hehe This is funny...
phlinxus: heh maki is blabbin at me! ^_\\
phlinxus: who is maki?
phlinxus: lol
icha_icha_paradise_lover: Maki's a close friend of mine. Really nice person. ^.^
icha_icha_paradise_lover: You've talked to her before. D:
phlinxus: i have?
phlinxus: sweet!
icha_icha_paradise_lover: Yes, you have. xD
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Friday, July 22, 2005

Take the What Naruto Character are You? quiz brought to you by Danseibi.net.

I think I took this quiz already...
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What Kind of Naruto Styled Ninja would you be? by liquid_chi
Your Name
Preferred Attack Style	Taijutsu (Hand to Hand)Ninjutsu (Spells,Skills,etc)Genjutsu (Hallucinations)
Your Sensi	Zabuza
Your Affiliation	Hidden Village of the Sand
Your Signature Jutsu	Nikudan Sensha (Meat Tank)
Your Greatest Rival	Temari
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I'm at my daddy's work place. It's so much fun here. I just recently figured out that I can access the internet and update, check my email and look at my other journals. Yey.
It's so wierd that the office I'm in has a picture of Miss San Antonio looking straight at me...Creepy. Anyway, i have to go to work a little bit earlier than usual. my hours are 10-4 today.
I can't wait until Sunday, I am invited to go to Sea World with my good friends Mikako and Walter. I haven't seen them since school ended. I miss them so much. My whole family is going to come, since the Militray discount thing only works when the whole family is there. Hopefully I'll get some time alone with my friends. I don't mind hanging out with my family, i just want to spend time with my friends that I haven't seen in a long time. If anybody wants to join us, we'll be at Sea world on Sunday sometime in the morning, probably from opening time til closing.
Haha I'm looking at the two pictures of Miss San Antonio. There is a black and white one, and a colored one. It looks like she has more teeth in the black and white one.
I can't wait also, until school starts. I want to see all my friends again. My summer has mostly been taken up by work, I haven't had much of a summer. Well after next week, I'm only going to be working on the weekends, so if anyone wants to go anywhere, just give me a call. I'll be happy to go anywhere, because I'll be bored sitting at the house all day, spinning my rifle.
I guess that's it for now. I love you all. I think I'm going to do shout outs for the hell of it:

Seth-chan: You're so awesome and I love you sis! Keep up the good work with Ian and I hope your operation went well. Get better so we can do stuff!
Phlinx: Keep updating you...uh.. cool guy, you. *twitch* heh. yeah! I hope we can see each other at the next Con. I can't wait to meet you.
Ian: Yey! You better take good care of Seth-chan, or I'm going to open up a can of whoopie cushions, I mean whoop ass...
Mikako: Hi Lovely! I miss you and can't wait to see you! My parents are coming so let's be careful! Bring a condom! Just kidding
Master: I miss you, let's get together soon yes? Let's cause havoc during school!
Oh dang, who else is there?

I think that's it, forgive me if I have forgotten you, you may spank me the next time I see you if I forgot you.

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Well I just got back from picking up Victor. We met up halfway to his house by walking there. He's just....ugh. He hid in the bushes. We saw him before he hid though, so we knew he was there. Sami tried calling his cell phone but he turned it off. We just stood there waiting for him to get tired of hiding. That was stupid of him though. He doesn't even know the wooded area that he was hiding in. On the way back it was ok. I walked straight, Sami walked backwards, and Victor walked sideways like a crab. I wish they would have walked correctly. It was the first time we had walked anyway beyond our housing area, and they shouldn't have played around so much. I had one ear phone of my MP3 on low volume so I could hear anything else, the other one was off.
On the way out of our complex, I knew that there were construction workers around. On the way back they would still be there. There are two roads, one to go in, and one to go out of the complex, and small island of grass in the middle. I had Sam walk in the street, away from the workers, Victor, being the ignorant one, continued to walk backwards into the complex without a thought about the workers. I had Sam the farthest away, me in the middle, and Victor closest to the workers. He trailed a little bit behind though. I wish he'd pay attention more, and I had turned off my MP3. I knew it wasn't quite safe around that area. The newsletter for the complex had mentioned some difficulty with the construction workers, and I didn't trust them. I kept my eyes on them. We were highly vulnerable, and we didn't have many weapons (the most I could've used was the cord to my headphones, that's why I brought them since I didn't have my chain).
I had asked if it was truly neccessary that we walked out of the complex to meet Victor at such an early hour, but she insisted. I still think they should have been more careful.
When we were in the safety of my house, it began to rain, and I suddenly felt happy and high. We decided to stay out and play a little bit. I kept my MP3 in my pocket. So we were all out there for about 20 minutes, frollicking and what not. I got all wet, took off the bottoms to my Bondage pants and sat in the water. Casey and Cody were looking out from the inside, wanting to join us, so I tied up Cody to the post and let them both out. We all played for a little bit more as I danced to the music in the rain.
It was so much fun. I think my mom is home, I'll see all of you later
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You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you want to know hwo you will commit suicide, take a look at your second highest percentage on the bar graphs. Suicide 93% Disappear 80% Suffocated 67% Stabbed 60% Posion 60% Cut Throat 53% Disease 53% Bomb 47% Eaten 33% Accident 33% Drowning 27% Natural Causes 20% Gunshot 20% How Will You Die?? created with QuizFarm.com

Heh....Suicide.

I was watching Roseanne for a long time last night. Very soon, I heard the theme song to Rugrats come on, and I realized that it was five O'clock in the morning. In Roseanne, David, Darlene, Mark and Becky were playing that Scrabble game, Mark was losing with a score of 132. He then placed an x on the board to form the word "oxygen" and boosted his score up 99 points, putting him in the lead. The rest of the kids were mad and stuff, so they told him that "Oxygen" was an abbreviation. Feeling put down, he took away the letters, and formed the word "it".
I've had the song "Coming Clean" By Hilary Duff stuck in my head for 2 days now. Listening to my hard rock music isn't getting it out. Thinking of the Green Day concert isn't helping either. Geez I can't wait for that concert.
So the thing with mom. I don't see why she's using our religion as a defense against my Bisexuality. She said that maybe "God" is testing us, throwing in a little wrench to see just how we can handle it. She thinks that sometimes, we have an almost perfect family- 3 wonderful kids, a great home, we're just barely affording some stuff, but it's a good life so far. In a way, it's perfect, because everyone struggles here and there. She just says that "God" is trying to see how our "perfect" lives are going to handle this situation, because he picked on me. Mom said that she doesn't believe in some of what our religion says, like abortion. She believes in it. If you want to know why she does- tell me. I'm not going to say it here and now. But i'll write about it later if you want me to.
Anyway. The fact that she thinks "god" is throwing in this "wrench" tells me that she still thinks it's a bad thing. I'm still going to do the Coming Out day and wear a Kinsey shirt with the number 6 on it.
This Michael kid...Besides the fact that he has a BO problem (get your deoderant back)- there is something wrong in this relationship right now and I can feel it. I seem to be put in charge of babysitting some when we go out with his family. I am the one who is keeping his "stable", the non-smoking and keeping him sane thing. His mom seems to be using me and that's the only reason why she likes me. It's because I go to church and stuff, and I would take him out to laserquest and stuff with my Youth Group. Mind you, I haven't gone to church in a while, but still, I feel used. Also, i wish he could be more respectful of my wishes. I asked him to please be nicer to Victor. I know you are guys and you like to kid around, but don't do it to the point that you are actually bringing eachother down and muttering under your breath. You guys are supposed to be friends and it puts both Sami and I in a bad mood and we want to keep you all distanced. I start to feel like I have to go against my sister in order to keep you sane around him. I'm not going to do that. In the car, on the way to your house or back to mine, Michael would whisper random things that I know would bring my mom down. Stuff about her driving or whatever. She can hear you, and she doesn't like it. She's two feet away from us. And when we actually get into the car. I don't appreciate your tapping my ass. I've told Michael millions of times each time we get in, every single trip we make anywhere. I feel like you're ushering me into the car, to hurry up, or that I dont' have the respect for myself or my family to let you do that in front of them. That's stupid. The least you can do is thank my mom for giving you ride. She drives you and I everywhere, takes a late lunch to come pick us up. You've never really thanked my mom, I'm always the one to say thank you before we leave to drop you off on your porch. I felt as if you were bringing me down while playing DDR at Ingram. No I wasn't feeling "cocky" or whatever, I just knew how to play the damn song. I don't appreciate that comment because i thought that boyfriends weren't supposed to bring their girlfriend's down.
I've already dated a guy who smoked and had issues with drugs and stuff. the thing is that he did it all behind my back. His mom smoked and gave his drugs and on our last date, gave him about 3 or four Chasers. That's how I remembered him. All those chasers made him all hyper. He gave me a ring before he left and I found out later on in the year (when i moved here) that he was all bad.
I feel that if we break up, you would go and do something bad or go back to smoking and stuff. I feel guilty. I feel like I'm keeping you together because we're together. And if we break up, you just go back. Would you go back if we were friends? We would still be around eachother and I would still care for you no less than I do now. I'm going to say that I do like you a lot. I telling the truth and can't say Love because I'm only sixteen. I've still got a long ways to go before I can say that.

I'm feeling a bit gritty. I've got two weeks left of my job and I'm not sure whats going to happen once I lose half of my income. I've applied to HEB, and DEB. I'm tired of food service.
I'm going to walk with Sami to pick up Victor. Tonight, an old friend is coming to visit and we half to clean up the house a little. I remember him when we all lived in Portugal. I hope he is still as much fun as he was back then. I haven't seen him in 11 years. He has a child and a divorce. Wish us luck.

Wish me luck
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