Wednesday, July 20, 2005

What Village Are You From?


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Nice...
I'm so happy that I'll only have to work during the week for two more weeks. When the month of August arrives, I'll beging Band Camp (I'll get to see Seth-kun again!) I'll only have to work weekends. My summer was wasted a bit at work. I never was able to go out much. Now that I'll have a whole two weeks off, I can do whatever I want. Just call me guys! I'll be sitting at home.

You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Found another neat quiz.
I'm so tired of working in Food Service...When i was younger, i told myself that I wouldn't work in a place that serves food, and look what I'm doing.
Everybody is a hypocrite in their own special way about something.
I talked to mom about my bisexuality again. She called us hypocrites because of the fact that we're Catholic. We don't even go to church anymore. But in reality, is your preference really something that you choose? I thought it was a Chemical matter of your body that you couldn't really help. I have no problem being Bi. I love it actually.
I just wish i could have opened up to my dad a little bit more while mom was away on her trip. I hope I can tell him on that Coming Out Day for GSA. I need a way to tell him though. I don't want to just walk out of my room wearing a Kinsey Jersey with the number Six on it.

Well, i've just been kicked off. I'll update more tomorr
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Monday, July 18, 2005

You are the warrior, a sevant of the force. Ennmy
of people and slayer of dragons. your strong
feirce and not afraid of anything. You have
excelant balance and swoard craft. Enimies die
at your hands...


What are you? (10 different outcomes)
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It rained today
It rained so much today
I'm so happy.

The rain was so beautiful at work today. On my way to lunch, I splashed in puddles, stood under the edge of the roofs where the rain falls from, open my mouth to the sky, and stretched the top of my shirt so the rain can fall into it. It felt so awesome to finally feel the rain again. I took my time going to and from break. My boss wouldn't let me go outside and play while it was slow. When the heavy rain left, the park had been cut by almost half the guests. I felt like writing, but all I could think of were hypocrites for some reason. I wasn't able to write anything useful, because there were still people that needed refills on their Souvenir bottles...But god did I miss the rain.
Seeing that it rained, Bonnie (my supervisor), let us close early, so I was out of the restaurant by 9 30. We usually don't finish until an hour later. I walked towards the front of the park and found my dear friends Tony and Josh, with whom I walked around with for about fifteen minutes. God, Josh is hilarious. He said he farted, and made people run away from him. I laughed so much. Josh had broken his arm riding on his scooter bike thingy.
Umm....I actually got to talk to Mikako-chan today. I miss her. I hope we can get together soon too. I'm so excited for next year to arrive. I can't wait to go to the Alliance meetings. I've got so many ideas for GSA. I need to start making fliers for the club though. Being that not many peple like this Gay Straight Alliance, I will do as Kandis asks and make the posters only half pages, and make many, in case they get ripped down or written on. Wish us all Luck. Also, wish me luck for the whole next year, where I might be ripped in two from the different views of a certain issues that some friends hold.

I'm not going to end this on any bad notes so here goes:

Happy Thing #1: Walk around at school with your underwear over your pants, and say "cheerio" to everybody your come in contact with in a british accent
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Thursday, July 14, 2005

Loneliness of my room surrounds me at 1 46 am.
Of course, there would be no ones here. I have finally succeeded to load up my computer again. Somebody had disconnected the cable box where the plugs were located. I finally turned it on after scolding myself for being so idiotic. Now I can finally make journal entries whenever I feel I must. One time is now.

Dearly beloved are you listening
I can’t remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or am I disturbed. The space that’s in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy can you please fill the void
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed
Nobody’s perfect and I stand accused
For lack of better word and that’s my best excuse

‘Tis the lyrics of which have fallen upon my ears at the moment.
After our arrival at the Ingram Park Mall, I felt generous enough to withdraw seventy dollars from my account, to pay for some stuff for my sister, her boyfriend, my boyfriend and I. We made our way to Suncoast, and bought a box of Pocky, along with volume one of FLCL. I heard that Seth-san plans to cos-play as a character from this series. I’ve only seen bits and pieces of the anime. It intrigued me when I saw a big metal object extend from a young boy’s forehead…I still have yet to read the manga. I have been preoccupied with the three JTHM magazines I purchased from Hot Topic. After paying for those and a button with Willy Wonka (the Johnny Depp one, his version of the candy spirited man is much better than the classic), I placed the magazines in my purse. I knew that if mom saw them, she would make me take them back, or place me in a mental hospital of some sort. Enlightened by the pages, these pages that needed “parental advisory”, I began to think. Even though the gory pages made me laugh some, these murderous tasks were logical. Maybe not in the realistic life that we live in currently, but I could see where JNNY would get reasons from. Nevertheless, I did enjoy them. I look forward to buying the next series entitled Squee, once I find it that is. Johnny the Homicidal Maniac is amazing. Now to find an adequate hiding place…I recalled that while at Hot Topic, my eyes fell upon a rainbow wristband. I debated whether or not I should buy that too. The store clerk asked what the problem was with buying it, and of course it was my mom. She says it’s ok with my bisexuality (the guy was stunned because I came right out with it), but she doesn’t really want me to go very public with it. I’m very much ok with it, and obviously, embrace and accept it. To be honest, I don’t care about what others think, and do love that fact and myself. I would be proud to wear it at school. Hell, I’m going to be carrying a little rainbow ribbon from Kandis later in the year from GSA. I’m the new secretary for hell’s sake. I also plan on telling my father about this little issue on “coming out day” Somebody please help me with that. I’m also hoping that Sami will help me out and enjoy that day too. I asked her about it and presented an idea from Walter (the new president). The idea was for her to wear a shirt that says “I love my bi sister”, meanwhile, I’ll be adorned a shirt that says “Kinsey”, and then a six, similar to a jersey.
The group also made our way down to the newly decorated Spencer’s shop. There, I took a while on deciding whether or not I should risk buying a sword necklace. The threat of mother finding that was to get a time wasting lecture on my choice in clothes and accessories. I didn’t need that. I chose the next best ones, a thorn adorned heart, and a decorative cross. It could pass for a visit to the church or for any occasion that calls for informal attire. *Wink*
For a bit of “exercise”, we spent some time at Cyberzone, where I succeeded to waste about 7 dollars on DDR. I did, however, improved my speed as I passed a certain song. I’m still unsure about the title, it’s in Japanese and I’m still haven’t attained an adequate understanding (I’m still trying though!). I know the small subtitle says RevenG. It’s the second song under the “S” category. Needless to say, I kicked Master’s ass at that game. I asked the person who played before me if he wanted to join me for a game, but they refused. I felt very stupid, at first, I couldn’t tell whether it was a boy or a girl, but I figured it out when I looked at his chest while asking for a match.
Recently, I have less and less use for the TV. I haven’t been watching much of it lately. It is only when I stay up late, that I watch a show entitled Roseanne. I’m not sure if anyone here knows of it, but it gets fairly addicting. It’s just an average broken family, solving troubles and becoming fixed again, one predicament after another. To be honest, it is a worthy show for the fact that it does teach some decent lessons. Neat.
What else has happened in the past week that I have not updated…
I saw Seth at Six Flags with her friend Alex and her little brother. I began to wonder who it was that she was talking about in her otaku when she mentioned Alex. I was also informed that Sami, my sister, saw Seth, Yugi and a young man at the mall a couple days ago. According to her, they were heading in the opposite direction, Seth on the phone, the boy beside her, and Yugi was trailing behind them, with her arms crossed. I really didn’t want to hear much more. I sure hope this problem and my friendship with those girls aren’t put into jeopardy. I don’t want to lose either of them. I love them both to death; I would do anything for them. But…I guess you must do whatever you please in order to stay happy, ne?
At home, Mother, Sami, and Victor (Sami’s boyfriend) began a game of Cranium. It is one of the only games in the house that really make you think some. Unfortunately, we lost (I was teamed up with mom), but not by much. We only needed one more move in order to win, we ran to a bit of a problem with the Gnilleps…
It was a great day in any view. I do have to go to work tomorrow at three. I should go to sleep in about an hour or so. I want to finish/begin reading FLCL. At Suncoast, it was on sale. 5.99 or so. I thought it was worthy, and I had money, so I bought it. Seth, good job forbidding Master to not cos-play with you. *Laughs* I’m kidding Maje. You know I love you. I’m doing some research on your character, because I have really no idea what it’s about. I guess that’s it for now. I love you all. My knees have an imprint of the carpet and they are numb, yes, both of them, for I have no chair for the computer in my room. Oh and by the way, I got new red curtains for my windows! I wanted to get a sheer black Bed Canopy fro Spencer’s, but I was afraid that my incense would catch it on fire.
Anyway, as I said, I love you guys, whoever you are. You all know I don’t ever do shout outs, I’m afraid I’ll forget someone and hurt their feelings. *Giggle*wave*
2:32 am

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Thursday, July 7, 2005

A certain shade of green

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Name
Age
What you look like
Rank	Hunter
Name	Terrain
eye color	Dark Blue
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It's true. If you see me at school, during lunch time...I get milk, a pizza, two pieces of fruit, and a hot side dish, maybe some tater tots or something. The only thing I usually get to eat is the pizza, I give the crust away, half of the milk, and one or two tots. The rest goes to the pack at my table, they all split it in some way or another. I guess that's how I kept my weight stable during the school year.
Seth- I read your journal. Please don't leave me/us. You're my sister and I would miss you! If she's making you miserable then don't waste your time. I just hope I won't get in the middle of this whole thing. I still want to be friends with both of you. Just don't leave me because of one person. She's moved onto a new person, and I'm sure you're doing great with Ian. You'll be fine, Just call me if you need me. I love you like a Sister. *muah!*kiss cheek and gives big hug*

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Good afternoon all.
I apologize for not updating again. Yes, sweetheart, I'm still alive. Please don't die. Ok?
I finally finished my letter to my uncle this afternoon while hanging out in the breakroom where my dad works. At my job, the closers all came in early, so Natalie, my boss for the day, sent Ryu-san and I home early. We both didn't have rides until 4, and it was still about 12 30 or so. We wound up walking around the park for about 45 minutes, before starting our way to the behind the scenes area to go home. I didn't realize how many inside jokes we had until now. It's crazy. The Holy Tender... Sexy no jutsu...Rawr....
It's great.
Now i have his number so we can hangout. He can drive, so if I'm not able to get a ride, I can pay him for gas and he'll take me to hangout. Hizzuh for new friends....kinda.
Speaking of new friends, I get to go hangout with Josh on Sunday. We're going to see the Fantastic Four. It sucks that Master and I have such difficulty with rides. I really miss seeing him.
I've drawn a couple new pictures. I went to Ingram to buy school clothes. So far, I have one pink shirt, 3 skirts, a red and a green shirt, and a couple of pants. I used my giftcard from work to buy a pair of bondage pants. They have checkered lace going through the pockets.
While at Ingram, I visited the store called Suncoas, and bought the first two volumes of Naruto. I finished them within the next few hours. This morning, I drew a collage of Master Kakashi, Naruto, Sasuke, and Sakura. Master Kakashi is indeed winking. It looks pretty cool, except Sakura's face and hands aren't in porportion. I'll fix that later. I wish I had a scanner so that I could show you all. I'm really proud of this one. All the Naruto reading reminded me of one picture that Seth-san had. Is was of Master Iruka and Master Kakashi, Iruka is hugging Kakashi from behind, but Kakashi has no mask. I remember copying it in one of my old drawing journals. It's somewhere in my closet, where mom can't find it. *giggle*
Goodness I miss Seth and all my friends from school. I did see Duo and his lovely girlfriend at work on Tuesday though. I was so excited and jumped up and down. He asked for a refill, but wanted an icee, I couldn't give it to him. I told him that it was agianst the rules, considering the deal with drinks he had gotten earlier. Ee sells souvenir bottles for 7.99 and they get refills forr .99 cents. If they pay 2.99 extra, plus the 7.99 (it comes out to 11.86 in total) they can get free refills all day long anywhere in the park. That free refill deal doesn't work with icee's though. They still have to pay 1.99 to get an icee in their souvenir bottle. So i told them that and they respected the rules and got a sprite instead. Thank you Duo, for making my day non-difficult. There are some customers that think that I'm the one who made up all the rules, and get mad at me for it when I explain them. That what makes the day crappy. But seeing Duo brightened up the afternoon. I was happy to see you!
When Ryu-san and I started heading towards ESO to clock out, we crossed paths with this girl that I see all the time that works there. She looks a little bit tomboyish, but is so incredibly pretty. She lets her hair down during work, but I still can't find out where she works. She doesn't ever have her hair up, or have a hair band around her wrist, so she doesn't work in Food Service. I think she might be one of the workers that operates the rides. I know that she works in either in Rockville, or the Boardwalk area. She takes off her nametag while walking over to her job, so I still don't know her name. Anyway, we passed by her as she sneezed. I said bless you to be polite and she returned the favor by saying Thanks. That was the first time I've ever really heard her voice. But it was cool. Crazy cool....Man I'm dumb....and crazy. Ok I'm going.
I guess that's it for now. Tatsume-dono sent me an urgent message, and I need to get back to him.
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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Woot?
So mom just called, apologized about my situation of which I explained in the last post. She said that she really looked foward to meeting those cousins in the second party, and that the reason why we left was because she saw that I was uncomfortable. She thought I didn't want to be around her and the rest of my immediate family. I explained to her that I did. She understood, I cried for no reason. Actually, I cried, thinking about the fact that I don't get to see the family very much...but that wasn't the reason. I always cry whenever we talk like this. She started explaining some things, being a little repetative, and I kinda zoned out a bit, wiping my tears, saying "uh huh" whenever I felt I needed to. But I did understand her situation, and we compromised. This is how it always ends. Compromise. Why can't we be like a normal family and having one side win instead of compromising???? Just Kidding.
Ok well everything is good now I guess. She said I have to think about what I want to do this weekend. Of course I want to go to the base with them. I just have to get an early shift on July 4th. Everybody has to work on that day. Even dad says so. It's going to suck ass.
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Somebody get me out of here....
Last night I went out with Michael and his family. It was crazy. The little girls...whoo. I felt funny actually holding a little kid's hand. I didn't even do that with MY sister. I remember holding my big brother's hand though. Whenever my family would go places in Germany, Simon held my hand so that I wouldn't get lost. I miss my brother now. Of course I'm a bit too old to be holding his hand anymore, but I miss his company. It was cool since the girls were actually wanting to walk with me and hold my hand. The car ride was all great too. It feels awesome to be able to do a bunch of crap like that without having someone complain about a headache. We're never able to turn up the music that loud. Mom never opens the window on thw highway because it's too much noise, but I like it. It's so cool that you're family is so carefree and easy, they just do whatever they want and don't care, it makes me feel like I'm comfortable to be around. That's a good thing. I always have fun with you and your family. Don't worry about it hon'. I love you and never want to see you cry. I had so much fun, it made my week. I was having such a bad week, and you guys invited me out. You awesome. I LOVE YOU

As for today, well actually, let's start at the time that I got back from Master's and my outing. After some comforting words, I entered the house only to be somewhat scolded for waiting outside when they picked me up. They said it makes me look desperate to have someone pick me up. While that might be true as I thought about it then, I only did it so that there would be no chance of the kids coming into the house. I knew that if Sarah, Caitlyn, or Becky would come to the door, they might want to come inside and say hi to mom. I knew she was busy, so I didn't think that they would be able to come in, plus, the house was a bit messy, and everyone except me, was wearing their home clothes.
The whole night, i could see some tension in mom's eyes, the kind that told me that she'd just had some sort of disagreement with someone, or she had a few tears come flowing through. After we all talked about my night, the parents headed upstairs, with some excuse. Dad said he going to shower before bed, Mom, was to iron some clothes. I grabbed some of my Lactose Free milk (I am indeed, Lactose Intolerant), and headed to my room to change. I plopped down onto the sofa in the upstairs living room, across the way from my mom in her recliner, and watched Jay Leno.

*ok hold on....the cat i'm sitting is walking around the keyboard, making it hard to type. I highlighted the whole thing to copy and paste it, in case it got deleted, and what-ho, she stepped on the number 3, the whole damn this is replaced with 12 number 3's....i didn't get to copy and stuff. So hold on a sec while I regain my temper and remember all that i had typed*

Anyway, we finished watching Jay Leno here's what mom said:
"Since you don't like hanging out with us, you don't have to come with us on the fourth of July. You can stay home if you want and the rest of us will go to a movie"
"Mom, what are you talking about?"
That was uncalled for. There has never been a time where I was embarrassed to be with them. Seriously, I have never NOT wanted to be with you guys. We don't see eachother much in the first place. I go to work and so do the parents. Poor Sami has to stay home for 5 or 6 hours. Mom and Dad get home around 5 or so, make dinner, and we eat at the table all together. In CO, we all ate in seperate rooms. On weekends, Dad goes to security work until about midnight or one, and I don't get to see him because I go to work from 12 to close, or 3 to close. That means I get up, talk to Sami for an hour or thirty minutes, then get ready for work. When I get home, mom is tired so she goes to sleep, Dad is still at work, I get to talk with Sami for 30 minutes maybe, then everyone goes to sleep.
I remember going to my little cousin LeAnn's Birthday party. I had fun there because I found my cool cousin Robbie, who introduced me to another one named Jonathon, I found out that them, and a few other younger cousins, play Magic when I looked in Robbie's room, searching for something to do. They brought me into the game. After that, i went onto the Moonwalk, and jumped around with a bunch of my little and baby cousin's, kinda babysitting them while the parents were dancing. I grew tired and asked Sami to watch them a bit while I played some more card games. After LeAnn's party, we headed to a triple grad graduation party. Three of my cousin's graduated and they threw a party for all three of them at the same time. I didn't know anybody there, so I wound up sitting/standing next to Sami, mom and dad while watching the Volleyball game. Do you think that if I was nervous about being in a place I didn't know, around unfamiliar faces, that I would venture away and wonder off, to get away from my family, the people who I'm closest to? The hosts had a volleyball net set up in their big back yard. The other reason why I felt nervous is because there was a boy there that looked almost exactly like Chris Alvarez, my old boyfriend. He looked like a skinnier, taller one though, down to the hair. Spinney, you would know. I don't know why, but the sight of the guy made me shudder, so of course, I felt totally uncomfortable. I'm sure the actual dude was very nice, and I was probably related to him.
I recalled this whole incident and realized what mom meant. She would not let it go after i tried to explain to her. She just said Goodnight, gave me one little kiss for the night and walked off into her room, leaving me in the dark (literally). Sighing and shaking my head, I stuck my hands in the pockets of my black bondage pants and shut the door silently to my room. I didn't bother to turn the lights on. I just sat on my bed, staring out the window, thinking of what just happened.
Is she just taking some frustration out at me? What did I do? I didn't do anything. Everything was perfectly fine when I left the house with Michael. Sami didn't know about any tensions mom could've had that night. She claims to have been asleep or in her room the whole time, which was true.
So I climbed onto my bed, scrolled through my contact list on my cell phone and called the friend that I knew would still be awake (due to the time difference). I thought about calling Seth-san, but I wasn't sure if she was awake, and didn't want to get her in trouble if it was too late (It was around 11:30 when I got to my room). I put my phone on silent so mom wouldn't hear the beeps and called Aaron Novy, while sitting in my closet. I swear, I spend more time in my closet than I do in my room, and I don't mean looking for stuff to wear. He said just talk to her and ask her why she was so upset. Exactly why. Set some ground rules ("Let me finish a few sentences first, no yelling...etc.).
When she called this morning, Sami and I answered the phone at the same time, and she sounded fine again, but I think that's because she was in the "presence" of Sami.
I guess I will just talk to her. It's going to be brutal though. Most likely, I don't mean physically, I mean Mentally and Verbally. Whenever we have an argument or discussion about me or something, the words often hurt more than any whip can crack.

Er...Remember, if anyone's going to comment, please just PM it to me, because my computer is messing up and won't let me read the comments directly off my page.
Done
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Monday, June 27, 2005

I said "Stay chill" as my last sentence in this update...O.O
I only got to work 5 hours today, which meant, no break to eat.
I still can't make any changes for Master and Tatsume's journal. I'll try to copy down the codes for the colors off of my journal, although all I would have is Purple, Yellow, and Black. I could get some pictures from AnimeIM.com for their icons. They are counting on me in a way to make their sites cool, but my site looks like crap. The biggest thing I did with mine was use complimentary colors: Yellow and purple, and the side menu, I think, is black. White, that might be all 0's for the code...I'll figure it out.

I read Seth-chan's journal, and only wish I could have kick-ass cuddle parties like she does. First off, I work too much, second, I have a boyfriend so I can't cuddle with crushes like she is able to, third, transportation. I don't want my friends walking all the way to my house, and mom won't let anyone come over unless she is home, and that's not until about 5, so we wouldn't have much time to hangout and eat ramen and chocolate covered pretzels....hehehe. Then, a week later, mom will give me a guilt trip saying that she does so much for us and that she drives everyone around and that when she gets home from work to have friends over, she doesn't get to take a shit and stuff.
Ugh...it gets frustrating, and I already have too much stuff to think about, I help out plenty around the house.

Blah blah blah

This is the only place where I am completely selfish.

Dad and I finally set up the workout bench in out garage. Now I can go pump some iron...*twitches*
Mom said she doesn't want me to get too bulky with the muscles. Haha. Bulky.
I think it will be great. I'm about to go "pump some iron" as soon as I finish with this update.

*sighs*...I'm done. Stay chill everybody.
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Sunday, June 26, 2005

Ahhh

Ok work sucked today...but at least I'm getting paid.

I recieved another letter from my Uncle who is in jail. I love getting letters from him. We are so alike in opinions, likes and dislikes and just love to laugh. He drew me a picture of this lady. Her hand against the wall and she looks as if she is screaming, or scared of something. When i received it in the letter, It looked like it had been through a copy machine. Like he had drawn it, but then some person copied it. As I looked closer, I saw the lines and indents from the pen he used. He used a toothbrush to smooth out and blend his colors. It looks awesome. All he used was a black pen and a gray colored pencil. I placed it in one of my old frames and will possible hang it up later.
I do not understand why I can't draw decent hands.
I started on my mom's guardian drawing though.
What else happened today?
My till at work was 40 cents over...which is really good. If I'm ten dollars short or over, I will get written up.
I'm not sure why my computer won't let me, but I can't open up certain windows., I can't read or make any comments on this site. So if anybody has one, just PM it to me. I can still read those, and I can't fix up my boyfriend's site because it won't let me open up the color choice window. Anyway, I'm going to Fiesta Texas on Thursday to meet a couple of new friends I made. They only started talking to me because I told them that my friend Reina thought they were cute, then they found out that she's engaged ( I didn't know that either). One of them, Josh was already talking to me before that though. Haha, they said I looked cute, but I told them that I already have a boyfriend, and that we can still be friends.
DON'T WORRY MASTER, I KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. TRUST ME.
They backed off and just wanted to be friends too.

Also, I think I've started making my fingers bleed again. I did it at work to my right index finger, and on the way home to mymiddle finger on the right, and my ring finger on my left. For some reason, the blood did not taste as good as usual, maybe it's because I haven't tasted it in a while...It was still bliss to feel it again. Although I had to pretend to look for some stuff in my bag so I can duck behind the seat....
Jeez I'm an idiot....
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Friday, June 24, 2005

Heyloo

From now on...If Sami doesn't do something that I ask her to do (within good reasoning), I get to punish her. And Vice versa.

I went to Diversions today. Play Dance Dance Revolution a lot, and now my back is all sweaty. Ugh, it feels horrid. After a while, Podunk showed up, and I got so excited to see him. I haven't been able to talk to him much. I missed him, but he didn't seem very happy for some reason. He was never all enthusiastic about certain things. I wonder what happened with his friend Andrew.
Well, about 2 minutes before Mother was to pick Michael and I up, he pulled out the ring he had shown me earlier. A steel, perfectly round ring, with small little designs that looked like waves was placed on my thumb. It was a little loose, but it was a promise ring that I won't let go of until it needs to go.
In the car, I took it off and placed it on my necklace, over my guardian pendant, so they would be linked. Let's see, Michael and I have been going out since mid March, that's almost 4 months.
Forgive me for mentioning it, but I recall my last relationship lasted eight months. I really hope and believe that this one will last a lot longer.
Geez, I love him so much. He can be a nerd at times...well...ok all the time, but he's just awesome. He makes me feel special.
After the fight today, at home, I was just so happy to see him. I held him for so long, but it didn't make up for the time that I haven't been able to see him. I needed someone to hold today....it was so harsh.

I usually don't feel this way for many people. It's hard to get into my heart this way. So far, this year, after the move from CO, Only two people have made their way to that place. Both at the same time. A boy and a girl. I discovered myself, I couldn't be happier. Most people say they are bi because they want to get more action. I only discovered it when I met this one special person, and I got so confused. I didn't choose to be it, I just accepted it. I'm also glad that I have friends who also accept me and help me.
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