Sunday, November 19, 2006

I haven't updated in a while....but there is definately news.

A dear friend of mine, David Luna (Duo), passed away on November 10, to be with the lord. I had found out through a few friends from school, and it took a moment for me to come back to reality.


The different thoughts that ran through my mind seemed to bombard me, all at once.


The last time I was him, I was playing one of the most challenging songs on DDR (I don't recall which one exactly), for me at least, and he had jumped on randomly right in the middle and shadowed until I failed. Then he gave me this great big hug and said "Hey Maki, What up? I haven't seen you in a while"
He was all dressed up, with a red satin shirt, black slacks and a black tie. His hair was gelled up, he looked so handsome. I smiled and responded, telling him about school, everybody, anything new. We played for a little bit, then he went off to play a few other games, and eventually, to roam the mall.


Duo always made me smile when I saw him. Even when he attended school a few years back. He was (still is) a hero to me. I remember when he told me that if anyone ever bothered me, he would help me out in any way that he could, and held true to that. I had always thought of him as my brother, because that's how he acted. He took care of all of us. And we'll miss him dearly.


Duo will always remain in our hearts as a hero, a brother, a friend. We love you Duo.
Rest In Peace

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Tuesday, November 7, 2006

My weekend....

K, most of this is copied from PM i sent to a friend. I'm still a little woozy from the whole thing, so I didn't feel like typing the whole thing out, so here ya go:
Friend: So what's up?

Me:
Not much. I had my wisdom teeth removed yesterday. I had to fast the day before (Sunday) Starting as seven PM. That means I couldn't eat anything. They gave me anesthesia and stuff, so I would have thrown up anything I would have eaten. I came home withouth anything to eat or drink at all for about 16 hours.

I've fasted for about 30 hours before, but I was able to drink water back then. This time, I came home tired, fell asleep, and then woke up feeling nautiuos. (SP?) I fainted in the restroom right after I woke up. My bro was just leaving the house for school, but he didn't hear me. My dad did, and found me. I just took it easy the rest of the day.

As you can probably see the time I sent this, around 6:15- 6:20 or so. I went to sleep around one or so, talking to a friend that needed help. I can't go back to sleep. Drink a bit or Orange Juice.
That's basically the highlight of my weekend and week.


Yup....I fainted yesterday. It was weird. I've never fainted before. All I remember was standing up to wash my hands, then being on the floor, staring up at the side of my shower. I wasn't out for very long, seeng as the toilet had just finished running its water. I got up with the help of my dad though, and got some soup.
The rest of the day was just rest rest rest rest rest. Haha.

When I got out of the operation. The doctors said I was the only teenage girl that came out giggling.
I thought it was so uber awesome to have a wheelchair and stuff. And I know that I looked so retarded with all that gauze in my mouth. I remember sitting in the chair, and climbing in the car. I don't remember putting the seat belt on, But I do remember looking at the mirror and laughing at myself because I DID look retarded. I had a little line of blood lining my lips, and I tried to lick it off, but again, I looked dumb....and my tongue was dry, so, yeah, I started to giggle. I don't remember the ride home really. I recall getting home, and then falling asleep on my bed. I got up, went to the restroom, and that's when I fainted.

Now, I feel a lot better. I had food in my stomach, some form or nutrients in my body now. Although I haven't had anything solid to eat since about 7 Sunday night. I've been ok.

While I was knocked out at the office, I thought about what they were doing in my mouth....>.<
I was thinking about what I saw in the video. They break the tooth in half, then pull it out, piece by piece. One of the nerves was going to be affected by the surgery too, but it will be fine later. I felt a bit of pressure once in a while, and heard little soft bangs here and there. But I felt nothing. It was great.

I don't know, but I think I know what it's like to be kinda high now. I really didn't like not knowing what was really going on, and I don't like the nausea that came afterwards....but I don't know...I've never been high before. Nor do I plan to.

Other than that....my weekend was great. Sunday afternoon, Dad took us to the Air Show on the Air Force base. It was awesome. I felt like a kid again, and I think, so did he. All of us, including my 24 year old brother, were walking on the curb, balancing and trying to knock eachother off and stuff. Haha, I loved it. I refused Joey and Billie that day, wanting to feel it all by myself, a little greedy of me I think, but they understood.
We had a lot of fun....I missed how my dad used to be like this all the time.
When we were walking, there were a bunch of kids on their dad's shoulders, clinging onto their foreheads and stuff. Dad reminded me of how I used to do that. I remembered.

If anyone who recalls attending my Sweet Sixteen Debut, That's the reason I chose that song for the "Father/Daughter Dance".
"You raise me up" By Josh Groban. Did I spell that right?

Anyway, my parents and I are on speaking terms now, seeing as how they have to take care of me a little bit more this week. It's all good. I'm a little happier this weekend, and hopefully for the rest of the week. I'm not in any grumpy moods because the pain and stuff. I've always been very tolerant of it. Not a big deal to me. I'll see most of you guys on Wednesday or Thursday.

I guess that's about it, in a nutshell. It's about 7:47. In the morning...Geez. I'm going back to sleep or something.

Peace out homies. I love you all! *Maki falls asleep in the computer chair*

Billie: Oh dear....>.>'
*Takes Maki to her room and pulls Teenage Mutants Ninja Turtle Blankie over her*

Happy Birthday Lemony Slash!!

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Wednesday, November 1, 2006

Bleh

Mindless Self Indulence gives me orgasms

The bass
The rock
The mic
The treble
I like my coffee black
Just like my metal
With the bass
The rock
The mic
The treble
I like my coffee black
Just like my metal
I can't wait for you to knock me up
In a minute - minute
In a fuckin' minute
I can't wait for you to knock me up
In a minute - minute
In a second

I can't wait for you to shut me up
And make me hip like badass
I can't wait for you to shut me up
Shut it up
I can't wait for you to shut me up
And make me hip like badass
I can't wait for you to shut me up
Shut it up

The bass
The rock
The mic
The treble
I like my coffee black
Just like my metal
With the bass
The rock
The mic
The treble
I like my coffee black
Just like my metal
I can't wait for you to knock me up
In a minute - minute
In a fuckin' minute
I can't wait for you to knock me up
In a minute - minute
In a second

I can't wait for you to shut me up
And make me hip like badass
I can't wait for you to shut me up
Shut it up
I can't wait for you to shut me up
And make me hip like badass
I can't wait for you to shut me up
Shut it up

I don't buy your body right now - right now
I'm almost over my body right now - now
I'm on my way to the party right now - right now
I don't buy your body right now - right now
I'm almost over my body right now - now
I'm on my way to the party right now - right now
Because the break, the break

I can't wait for you to shut me up
And make me hip like badass
I can't wait for you to shut me up
Shut it up
I can't wait for you to shut me up
And make me hip like badass
I can't wait for you to shut me up
Shut it up

So...Um.
I've been into MSI for quite some time now. And I've JUST NOW taken the liberty to actually look them up on the internet we all love so dearly, and find their official website. Hehe
I watched the "Shut Me Up" video from there. I had no idea that Jhonen Vasquez is that actual director of the video! I feel dumb.
This makes me love JV even more than I ever have. It was awesome nonetheless. Although that might be an understatement.

Well that was the highlight of my day I guess.
Other than that, Yugi and I did cartwheels in the grass during lunch. I feel and sat in the comfy grass for the rest of the time. Then we found a tuff of grass, and I insisted that it was an Oddish. No one believed me. Damn.

It was comfy though. Beta-chan came and sat with me too. Then, all the little freshman came to sit around the grass as well. I swear. I will be their death one of these days.....

Then I found out that Ancient Egyptians would shave their eyebrows when mourning their cat's death.

I reall don't have anything else to say right now. I'm pretty tired, and I'm coming down with a cold.

*sniffles*
Goodnight!

Billie: *hands Maki a tissue*
Maki: Thanks

PS: Happy Halloween.

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Monday, October 23, 2006

giglyblahboabumatadglanakabam Kaka poopoo

Hey....I hear you have a fat cock.
I have a fat cock too.

Maybe our fat cocks should get together sometime....
You...me....our fat cocks.....oil?

So I've been to our footbal games and competitions and stuff....That's what's been taking up most of my time lately. Our band got First Division, which is pretty flippin schweet. For some reason, I was being a dork and really almost started to cry from happiness.

Billie: That's not like you, Maki. You've never done that before...Not even at happy occasions and stuff.

Maki: Yeah, you're right...Well. Nonetheless, they didn't come anyway. They only surfaced, and then kind of retreated back into my "happy tear ducts" >.> Eh..
Anyway, I've got a load of free time today because I just had a Root canal, or at least the beginning of one. The other half is to be done on Thursday. Apparently, I still have my wisdom teeth buried somewhere deep inside my mouth too...I could have sworn they took those out already. Hm...what did they do to me when they put me to sleep that one day?! *ponders a bit*

Billie: *Raises eyebrow in confusion*

Maki: *shrugs* Ah well, no matter darling.

Billie: I'm going back to my room....How could you not be thinking about what they did?

Maki: Oh, it was only the dentist, what could they have done?

Billie: Remember that tool they used today? It looked like a hook and that guy put it on the corner of your mouth....Now what does that remind you of?

Maki:....Why....Nothing. I don't know what you're talking abo-

..............

Billie: *nods in agreement* Yeah, you know what I'm thinking.

Maki: O.O Come to think of it, I did recently purchase a JTHM comic that had him with some contraption on his lips and face....Of course I was asleep last time I went in to get teeth extracted, so what would be the point of torturing me then?
Oh, this is going to bug me for the rest of tomorrow....

Ah well, I'll answer that later.
All I know is that my tooth is just about hollow, they've put a temporary filling in it, and it hurts to bite down.
I'll be fine tomorrow. All ready for school and stuff. I haven't see Beta for more than 15 minutes in the past few days.

Billie: Oi...I worry about you sometimes....

Maki: Well, that's what you're here for, so I don't have to worry about myself. ^.^

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Friday, October 20, 2006

Gonna fix my picture in a few minutes. Peace out
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Thursday, October 12, 2006

Sitting in 2nd.

So bored. Want to draw, trying to draw....

Lemony gave me a pic to copy, but I've found it to be harder than I thought. I used to draw by copying eye to hand to paper, but now I've quit that. Now I draw my own stuff.

We're both trying this thing....It's a lovely picture too. Soon I'll get my scanner and be able to post my pics on Deviantart or something.

Other than that, I've injured my thumb while goofing around with Robert. Now it's hard to spin flags....>.<

Billie: *shakes head*
Oh you silly Maki....Have you see Anon lately?

Maki: Thanks for your concern....I don't think you're going to see much of Anon anytime soon. Sorry about that babe...

Billie: WHY?

Maki: There are little things that need to be sorted out. I have much doubt that they actually will be sorted anytime soon. We'll see, ok hun?

Billie:......

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Wednesday, October 4, 2006

Hopefully, I just fixed a little problem I've just recently been presented with...
I hope it will be ok.

All I have to say is that I'm so sorry....

My heart was beating, palms sweaty, hands shaky, head was warm, dizzy.....I'm so sorry. I never meant to worry you.

<3 I can't wait until Thursday

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Monday, October 2, 2006

Derka Derka....Mohammed JiHad

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Saturday, September 9, 2006

   It's a slope

So.....My brother took me to see The Covenant yesterday....
It was good.




IT WAS AWESOME!!! The music is sweet. The fight scents are hot. The guys are hot. I'm in love with the character: Reid Garwin. He looks like Draco Malfoy...*drool*


Yes...He is sexy indeed. He's one of the only blonde celebrities I have ever crushed on.

Anyway, back to real life.
Things are seeming to be ok. There is still a problem that I am currently working on fixing at the moment. I'm hoping all will be ok. If not, Well, I guess it was just meant to be. I'm feeling very hurt though, as I'm sure he is as well. We both has no idea what to do...

Billie: Is there not ANY good news to report, my dear? You seem so down lately...

Why....yes. As a matter of fact, there is...and you are right. I have been a little bit intellectually(sp?) negative with myself these past week.
Well, Ever since last night, I've had the song "Cowgirl", from DDR Extreme, stuck in my head. I played it on Heavy last night, and messed up. I did get many compliments though, from guys that weren't the best, but they tried their hardest. One guy was a bit awkward and clumsy, and flailed his arms around like a maniac as he attempted a few songs on Standard. I tried to shadow him while he played, but to be honest, his arms and jagged movements were too distracting to look past. Heheh.
I do admit that I think I'm getting better. Yey!

That's all I can think of for right now....There is not much to say about this week or the past few days. The weekend isn't going to be too eventful, seeing as we have a football game to perform tonight. After that, dinner plans with a few friends ^.^ There's most of my night. The rest will be spent writing most likely.
The stress lately has gotten me releasing my frustrations on paper. I haven't done that in a while and it's so refreshing.

I hope everyone has a good day.


Billie: There you go...That's much better...Isn't it?

^.^

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Thursday, September 7, 2006

Oh fuck no
His message:

Well life is not the same without you.
I think about you a lot, And all i wnat is to see you at Onicon.
I just hope. we can spend a lot of time together with oyu me getting to re attacked and never wanting to leave you. I just got like 2 -3 credits at school. Hoping to get a few more.. i still ahve 9 to go << i need to garuate soon. God i love you so much. Read my otaku ?
Hope you dont hate me for wht i did.

I smoked, yes yes bad me.
But, I was uber stressed got bitched at at home and work and school. Erika and I were tlaking she has clover ciggrettes but never smoked one just sucked on it. So, i was like.. why dont we smoke on together.
so we did. each smoked one. And im sorry to say.. i enjoyed it . I felt so calm and relaxed maybe bc i was wiht someoen i trusted maybe it was just the way ti felt i dont know. But i dont think it will happen again.

Please remeber I love you and wnat to be wiht you forever and i hope you feel the ame way.

LOVE YOU BABE!

My response:

I...I can't believe you did that....
I would say that you just lost me. Right then. Right there. You know that I don't date those kind of people. This is one of the exact reasons why I broke up with Cracker....
If you were in front of me right now, I'd slap you. I'm not kidding. Remember the last message I sent you? Well, now my heart is sinking. And I'm literally shaking right now...It's really hard to type this out.
I would be screaming at you. That's all I want to do right now. I want to scream, and shout, and curse, I mean...You've just completely blown my mind away with this Tom. I just can't believe you.
You're acting like this is no big deal: "Yes yes, bad me"
What do you think I'm just going to wave it off?
FUCK NO.
This is some total shit Tom.
I really don't know what else to say. I'm really trying my hardest over here. I know that stress is intense over there. I understand that, but giving in to this type of shit just shows that you are weak. I can't have someone that's weak. You need to fucking pull yourself together, or I will try my hardest not to see you at Oni-con.
That's how serious I am.
And if you really can't handle that, then it will be Goodbye for real. I am not Joking. It makes me cry just to be saying that, but that's what I stand by.
I am not going to let you throw yourself away like that. No. Not the one I love.
And you think that just because you end the message with "Love you babe", I'm just going to let it pass? Well, once again:
FUCK NO.
I care about you. And that's one of the reasons why I chose a relationship like I have with Alex. We never see eachother, when we do, it's around family (can't do anything), he's in College, banned from my school....I'm forcing myself not to get attached.

.....I really thought you had it in you.....
I did.
Now I know that you have some more work to do before you're ready continue on with your life and the hard work that's ahead of you.
Let me know when you are.

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