Sunday, January 23, 2005

   The Last Emotion

I got to go spend the night at my cousins house... It was acutlly cooler cuz Sami wasn't there to butt into our conversations. It was mean, but it's true.
Sometimes, we have things to talk about between OURSELVES, and don't really need her to know. But It's ok. We fell asleep on Crys' futon. Futons rock my boxxers hardcore. I actually fell asleep sooner than she did, or so i'm told. She just informed me that she heard me snoreing *she's standing right next to me at my house and reading my journal entry as i type it out* We woke up around 7 and ate some doh!-nuts...yum and fatty. Then my aunt and uncle, the crazy ones went and got us that awesomely divine Taco Cabana. Some lady that turned out to be my aunt came over too. And i have some new cousins...he's really smart...he wants to be president and stuff. I'm proud of him and i don't even know him ^.^
Church was cool and stuff. I got to spend time wiht my madrina and she got emotional...I almost cried myself. Confirmation class at St. Anthony's is so much more fun than the other one on base at Lackland. I found this one thing in the bible, reminded me of me a lot...I don't have one with me right now. But when i find mine, i'll copy it down and see what you say. Just don't get offended or anything, it's my journal and stuff. You don't have to read it if you want. I'm Catholic, so i think it will be fine...but just in case, there ya go.
Seth went to Ushi-con...without me. It's ok. I didn't really know about it until too late. I wouldn't have been able to get the money to go. But NEXT TIME...NEXT TIME I SWEAR!!! Seth is just mentioning A-kon as i type actually...I'll have to look up more info on it later. I want to dress up too...but i don't know who to feign. Somebody help me!!! I usually watch DOThack//Sign, play DOThack//Infection, Cowboy Bebop, Trigun, Full Metal Alchemist, Inu Yasha, Case Closed...some more. But i need ideas now, it's coming up on June 3rd i think. I need to make and outfit and stuff.

Where have all my feelings gone?
You seem to have taken most of them away when you took my heart that first day
The rest of the time i spend my life with
Makes me want to close my eyes
My senses are numb as you grew farther and farther away.
I closed my eyes, and visions of you finally spilt a tear onto my shirt
Wiped off with my hand, the salty wetness dripped down my wrist, and stung the red scab on my arm
Licking it like the wolf i am, the bitterness was sweet, and the scent of blood filled my nostrils
I whimpered and curled in a corner behind my tail.
Another hand, presented itself in front of me, open palm and friendly
So gentle, its touch was so gentle
Joy filled my heart once again.
and i fell in love with you
With a few bumps in the road here and there, the level of our friendship will grow stronger
But for now, thank you
I feel everything again.
Stay with me forever, or as long as you can
I love you, and that's the last emotion i needed to fill myself with to be sure i'm ok.

This song/poem could be about so many people i've met this year. There is only one that this could relate DIRECTLY to however. This is the first complete peice of writing that i haven't done on command for a long time...i hope it's ok
That's it for today i guess....now that the comp is upstairs, i might have a better chance of sneaking online at night. OH!! But wait, that means they can hear the typing...Damn! ok well, I'll talk to you silly gooses later. I'm tired.
Oyasumi nasai! *waves and runs off*
=^.^= Maki

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