Wednesday, April 6, 2005

I went to sleep last night at about one or so. The Daylight savings killed me just a bit. Losing an hour of sleep sucks. I went to school in a good mood though. Mom put some water on the stove for my Chamomile herbal tea. It made me feel better. I got to school and Tatsume and Crystal-koi actually waited for me at the bus loop. I felt kinda special. ‘Twas funny though, Master wasn’t there. Maybe is because he’s got a bunch of shit going on between them. Not shit, just major tensions. I don’t even know why there is such a big deal with them…Actually I do, It’s just really dumb. If Master would just hold his tongue when he has some special comments. And his past…Tatsume…man, would you just chill out with that?

Seriously, whatever happened happened. It’s not effecting us now, so it shouldn’t be a problem. You think you know him better than I do? You don’t talk to him as much as I do. Not even your abilities can reveal what I know. Just close it, leave it and just deal with him. He’s doing the same for you, the least you can do is give the same respect he gives you. Don’t you think that if you really hated somebody, you would try your best to keep them away from you? Doing whatever you can just to knot deal with them anymore? Basically just ignore the hell out of them?

Today, was pretty good I guess, other than that. I actually did most of my homework. The only stuff I didn’t do is the English homework. I haven’t been able to do the homework because JP still has my book. I need to get his book back to him too. But it seems I left it somewhere in another classroom. So I need to get his book number so I can go search for it in those big closets that has books piled up shelf after shelf. Whoop! I fell asleep in English…the only class I fell asleep in today. I passed up two tests...That means I’m going to fail…maybe. I haven’t been able to do the worksheets either. I’m afraid to borrow other peoples books because I might lose them. Bobby lent me his book and I gave it right back to him after class. I did one question from the test.

Dance class was decent I guess. Seth and I just sat there while we had a sub. Then we went outside and sat because the girls were playing that funky hippity hop music. A few minutes later, they migrated outside as well, so then we just gathered our things and headed to B building. Moments before, Chris came from his
Geometry class to give us a visit. I got a quick hug and left. I got a bunch of RSVP’s from my friends.

Yey, I can’t wait until my debut. Almost two more weeks, until it’s here. The thing that sucks is that we have practice for Colorguard the same day of my debut. I can’t miss a practice, if I do, I won’t be able to take part in the Battle of the Bands thing. Mom said that she would call and talk to Mr. H. Hopefully something will work out. I need someone to come over and give me extra practice.

On the way home, Seth and I were so hyper and talked about the most random things. The bus was crazy. Every time there was a bump, we would almost be thrown off our seats.
“Have you ever farted so hard that it lifted you off the seat?”
“YEAH!! And when you’re laughing so hard that you FURT?!”
“Yeah!”

Oh man, the conversations we had on that bus ride…I don’t think we really stopped laughing until we actually got to the school. It was fun though. Fart Knockers are we! I know I didn’t fart, but I’m guessing she did!! And yes, she did say FURT! On the highway, I was waving toe the people in the cars behind us. But they would always change lanes because the bus was moving too damn slow. Needless to say, nobody waved to us back. I had a sign that said “Have and sweet day” and it had a little character from that Love Sugar song on DDR. I looked up out of the window and saw a black duck with something in his beak. It looked like one of those Black Cat Fireworks. We thought it would be funny if he swallowed it and exploded. Seth started making random duck noises with her hand and lips. I tried and It sounded like a retarded duck. We also said that if we feed the duck Alka-Seltzer, it would explode. (Look Seth- I spelled Alka-Seltzer right!) My little duck noise sounded like a fart, and we went back to making farting noises. We were sitting up with our legs on the seat in front of us. I reached in between Seth’s legs and pretended that she had some sort of mutant baby. Yey for mutant babies!!! She found a little hair rubber band thing and I dared her to fling it at Micheal. (his last name is Specker). She missed and it hit Emerald’s window. She freaked out thinking it was some sort of bug. But it was mildly funny. So many things come out of mine and Seth-chan’s mouth when we’re hyper. Like Ian’s painful butt itch. I had one of them’s once… I yelled it out to her right before I left the parking lot. It made me laugh, but mom had a funny look on her face… I think that The bus ride to Alamo Stadium and back was the shizz-nit. It definitely made up for the crap I had to go through today.

It’s so confusing… friends…what to tell them when they’re sad, when every other person has said the same thing to them as you do. Understand that it just takes time ok? I know you can do it. I love you, be strong! The other ones that seem to love you so much…and you can’t seem to give the right amount of love back, because of one minor detail...Sometimes i wonder why i even bothered to make friends...

Also, I talked to my brother a couple days ago. I’m actually thinking of coming out to him. I think it’s a good idea. I think he would give me support. I need suggestions or feedback on whether or not I should tell him when he comes down to visit next week for my Sweet Sixteen. Come on, give me some help. I can’t wait for the Japanese Tea Garden Ceremony. Mom is actually letting me go. I got her to talk to Kandis and now she knows what is going on. She’s coming too. I’m thinking about asking my dad to come too. I’m tired of keeping so much of my family in the dark…Do you guys th ink it’s time to let them know who I really am?
Him: “The moment you get here, I’m never letting you go”
Her: “I hope you never do.”

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