Thursday, July 14, 2005

Loneliness of my room surrounds me at 1 46 am.
Of course, there would be no ones here. I have finally succeeded to load up my computer again. Somebody had disconnected the cable box where the plugs were located. I finally turned it on after scolding myself for being so idiotic. Now I can finally make journal entries whenever I feel I must. One time is now.

Dearly beloved are you listening
I can’t remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or am I disturbed. The space that’s in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy can you please fill the void
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed
Nobody’s perfect and I stand accused
For lack of better word and that’s my best excuse

‘Tis the lyrics of which have fallen upon my ears at the moment.
After our arrival at the Ingram Park Mall, I felt generous enough to withdraw seventy dollars from my account, to pay for some stuff for my sister, her boyfriend, my boyfriend and I. We made our way to Suncoast, and bought a box of Pocky, along with volume one of FLCL. I heard that Seth-san plans to cos-play as a character from this series. I’ve only seen bits and pieces of the anime. It intrigued me when I saw a big metal object extend from a young boy’s forehead…I still have yet to read the manga. I have been preoccupied with the three JTHM magazines I purchased from Hot Topic. After paying for those and a button with Willy Wonka (the Johnny Depp one, his version of the candy spirited man is much better than the classic), I placed the magazines in my purse. I knew that if mom saw them, she would make me take them back, or place me in a mental hospital of some sort. Enlightened by the pages, these pages that needed “parental advisory”, I began to think. Even though the gory pages made me laugh some, these murderous tasks were logical. Maybe not in the realistic life that we live in currently, but I could see where JNNY would get reasons from. Nevertheless, I did enjoy them. I look forward to buying the next series entitled Squee, once I find it that is. Johnny the Homicidal Maniac is amazing. Now to find an adequate hiding place…I recalled that while at Hot Topic, my eyes fell upon a rainbow wristband. I debated whether or not I should buy that too. The store clerk asked what the problem was with buying it, and of course it was my mom. She says it’s ok with my bisexuality (the guy was stunned because I came right out with it), but she doesn’t really want me to go very public with it. I’m very much ok with it, and obviously, embrace and accept it. To be honest, I don’t care about what others think, and do love that fact and myself. I would be proud to wear it at school. Hell, I’m going to be carrying a little rainbow ribbon from Kandis later in the year from GSA. I’m the new secretary for hell’s sake. I also plan on telling my father about this little issue on “coming out day” Somebody please help me with that. I’m also hoping that Sami will help me out and enjoy that day too. I asked her about it and presented an idea from Walter (the new president). The idea was for her to wear a shirt that says “I love my bi sister”, meanwhile, I’ll be adorned a shirt that says “Kinsey”, and then a six, similar to a jersey.
The group also made our way down to the newly decorated Spencer’s shop. There, I took a while on deciding whether or not I should risk buying a sword necklace. The threat of mother finding that was to get a time wasting lecture on my choice in clothes and accessories. I didn’t need that. I chose the next best ones, a thorn adorned heart, and a decorative cross. It could pass for a visit to the church or for any occasion that calls for informal attire. *Wink*
For a bit of “exercise”, we spent some time at Cyberzone, where I succeeded to waste about 7 dollars on DDR. I did, however, improved my speed as I passed a certain song. I’m still unsure about the title, it’s in Japanese and I’m still haven’t attained an adequate understanding (I’m still trying though!). I know the small subtitle says RevenG. It’s the second song under the “S” category. Needless to say, I kicked Master’s ass at that game. I asked the person who played before me if he wanted to join me for a game, but they refused. I felt very stupid, at first, I couldn’t tell whether it was a boy or a girl, but I figured it out when I looked at his chest while asking for a match.
Recently, I have less and less use for the TV. I haven’t been watching much of it lately. It is only when I stay up late, that I watch a show entitled Roseanne. I’m not sure if anyone here knows of it, but it gets fairly addicting. It’s just an average broken family, solving troubles and becoming fixed again, one predicament after another. To be honest, it is a worthy show for the fact that it does teach some decent lessons. Neat.
What else has happened in the past week that I have not updated…
I saw Seth at Six Flags with her friend Alex and her little brother. I began to wonder who it was that she was talking about in her otaku when she mentioned Alex. I was also informed that Sami, my sister, saw Seth, Yugi and a young man at the mall a couple days ago. According to her, they were heading in the opposite direction, Seth on the phone, the boy beside her, and Yugi was trailing behind them, with her arms crossed. I really didn’t want to hear much more. I sure hope this problem and my friendship with those girls aren’t put into jeopardy. I don’t want to lose either of them. I love them both to death; I would do anything for them. But…I guess you must do whatever you please in order to stay happy, ne?
At home, Mother, Sami, and Victor (Sami’s boyfriend) began a game of Cranium. It is one of the only games in the house that really make you think some. Unfortunately, we lost (I was teamed up with mom), but not by much. We only needed one more move in order to win, we ran to a bit of a problem with the Gnilleps…
It was a great day in any view. I do have to go to work tomorrow at three. I should go to sleep in about an hour or so. I want to finish/begin reading FLCL. At Suncoast, it was on sale. 5.99 or so. I thought it was worthy, and I had money, so I bought it. Seth, good job forbidding Master to not cos-play with you. *Laughs* I’m kidding Maje. You know I love you. I’m doing some research on your character, because I have really no idea what it’s about. I guess that’s it for now. I love you all. My knees have an imprint of the carpet and they are numb, yes, both of them, for I have no chair for the computer in my room. Oh and by the way, I got new red curtains for my windows! I wanted to get a sheer black Bed Canopy fro Spencer’s, but I was afraid that my incense would catch it on fire.
Anyway, as I said, I love you guys, whoever you are. You all know I don’t ever do shout outs, I’m afraid I’ll forget someone and hurt their feelings. *Giggle*wave*
2:32 am

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