Thursday, December 1, 2005

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11- 23-05
Apparently, I’m not very good at Ship, Captain, Crew…
Haha, well not haha. Someone just broke some glass in the middle of the restaurant.
Spending the afternoon with Ms. Denise and her family proves to be somewhat fun yet irritating. I think the reason why they take so many pictures is because Ms. Denise isn’t here all the time. She lives in California. I usually just suck it up and put that SSDD smile for half a second.. But really, the amount of times they do it, and the places they choose, makes them look like freaking tourists. I love Ms. Denise to death. She’s the coolest. But the rest of her family…ugh…I don’t know. Other than that…
I finally got ot see my baby today! I missed him so much. God I love Raymond so much. I just can’t belive I found someone like him. He treats me so well, and love me so much. He makes me feel like the happiest girl in the world. I love being in his arms, being held by him, feeling his kisses, hugs and warmth. It’s truly like no other feeling in the world…
And then
Ian called
Yes, I did ask him to call back. I wanted to hear what he had to say in the letter. Oi…
Back to goodness: 25 days, 4 months, 1 year until my freedom!!!
Friendships last forever, and I’m not going anywhere yet.

I love Raymond so much, I never want to lose him.

11-24-05
D *draws a row of picket fences*

In just a few moments, I get to see Ray again.
I miss him a lot over the break. Even though we’re going to Amy’s house ( I refuse to call her Aunt Amy) At her house, it’s even hard to just hold hands and stuff. The good thing about it is at least he’s not just moping around, or being inactive, anti-social and stuff. He played poker with my dad, Uncle Alex and grandpa!
“keep ‘em coming baby, don’t listen to your Tia” is what my mom said when I was dealing some cards out for them. Amy was kinda telling me to slow down.
It’s not like I listen to Amy in the first place anyway…Hehe
Uncle Alex was showing me how to work his digital cable thing. There was a thing for a program called “Pornotopia”. At first, I thought it said “Porkotopia”, like for pigs or a food show, something like that. Hahaha. Pornotopia….

Day after Thanksgiving
It’s time for sleep. I posted two long posts on ZenHex. Mom thinks that they are chatrooms. She seems to be getting more and more paranoid over the internet. ZenHex is anything BUT a chatroom. I only go there to roleplay and stuff. I’m only known as a Wolf on that site. NOTHING about my character has anything to do with my real life ((OCC))
The reason why I’m writing in red (I wrote this in an actual journal before I put it to the computer) is that I’m sleeping in my sister’s room tonight. I think she’s scared or something. There’s a lightning/ thunder storm outside and it’s so Beautiful.

“If you spend all your time thinking about dying, life isn’t going to be too much fun, huh?”

Roseanne is great, it’s the episode about babies and death. It’s ironic that Darlene didn’t say much about it
I keep thinking about…
Babies
Little boy babies…
My babies….
I think about who they will look like
When I do have children, when that time comes, I don’t care what gender it would be, as long as it’s there. In wishful thinking, I want a baby boy. After that, a baby girl. No too far apart in age, maybe a year of so…
I hope the house thing will work out after High School. I still have to figure out where I’m going to school after HS. I wonder what Walter’s gonna do. I love Walter so much, my other big brother. I know he’ll take care of me if we do move in together. I wonder about Ray and what he’ll do…
Speaking of Gay (giggle)- I wonder about the amount of people who stopped watching Roseanne whey they find out that Leon is gay.
IT’S NOT A FUCKING PHASE GOD DAMN IT FUCKING ALL!!!
That’s what I say about me…a phase can’t last 5 years

December 1 2005
Don’t listen to creepy music at nigh. Alex burned me a creepy music CD, and I put it in around midnight. The scariest song on that EVER, is the theme song to X-Files. God I hate that song. It came on and the chills went right down my spine as I got up to change the track.
I’m still hearing noises around the place. A few seconds ago I heard a buzzing type noise over my right shoulder. It was like a buzzing/ weak growling noise. At the moment, that’s where Sha’atan was positioned, but I know it wasn’t him…
James proposed to his girlfriend today. This morning. Oh man, it was so sweet, awesome, cool, perfect. It was right in front of the whole damn group! The “anime” group. Ahh…it was great. He didn’t have a ring, but they seem so close and happy when they’re wish eachother. Ray and I have been going out longer than they have I think. For us, it would be four months on the 4th of Dec. I’m getting him a little bear tomorrow as a congrats gift for winning the Hockey Tournament. On the fourth, maybe the fifth, I’m getting him a bigger bear that has hearts on his feet.
One of these days, I want to go to build a bear workshop and make him one with hockey gear, and one with Skate gear. ^.^ That’d be cool. I need money though. I really don’t care if he gets me anything, as long as I’m with him, I’m fine.
I love him so much….


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