Friday, October 12, 2007

I won't camplain about anything today.
Damnit my dad stayed the night over (parents are trying to get back together) and this morning he woke me up... It was like an hour earlier than usual. So I was waiting around for an hour and just left to stand out in the cold. Crap I'll finish this later my dad just got here I'm still not suppose to be on.
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Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Um hey... warning this is long as hell. You can skip number 2.
1. I don't know why but I feel like I did something wrong. I'm not exactly sure what it is though. Well the meap testing that were doing at my school could've gone better today but I suck at essays about some bullshit no one cares about. And then the stories we had to read was long as hell. But the best part about it is that in this school district they actually give you more time to do everything. Unlike at my other school where it was like 20 minutes, but here it's like 45. lol yesterday I was in class and I felt like I was going crazy as we were testing. My blood was low (diabetes). So I asked the teacher if I could take my medicine (just wanted to test my blood sugar though). She wanted me to explain of course. My voice was cracked up when I got to her desk so I had to speak louder but I couldn't really tell cause I felt like I was going to fall uncouscious. I could tell everyone was staring at me. But I didn't mind.

2. Ok this right here is weird to me. I have an older sister who is um... 28 and her husband 33 I think. But anyway I have known both of them all my life. Well they pretty much took care of me sometimes and everything. Well how come when we talk it's totally awkward (I finally figured out how to spell awkward heh). I guess it's the same reason why I terrified to talk with new people. But on here well any place where you can chat it's easier to talk. Well I'll figure this out sooner or later.

3. Ok this should be the last thing. I've noticed something in my own observations but I know there like all messed up cause I have no proof even though I've been through both. I won't tell you guys what it is though but it involves my life. If your smart enough you'll figure it out. In my other school kids are more ignorant. They don't care about anything except for having drugs, music, and shoes... yeah shoes. They like to pick on kids who are alone. There more about popularity which is bullshit. The only was I am acknowledge for even being in existence is because I my good grades. And a fight getting started is pretty easy. The teachers really don't care... they barely teach. And probably 80% of these kids won't make it in life. Ok my new school scared my to death. Everyone was nice they all practically smiled. The teachers are like actually... teaching (that's something new). As I sit in the class as were doing work everyone is quite and 90% of the class gets a good grades. When they talk half of the time it's about the work the other half is just about stuff there into that doesn't involve drugs, gangs, and fighting.

4. Ok that's only my thought on everything. Sorry if I put it together kinda crappy. Anyone should be able to figure this out. I don't know how school life is for you guys but it use to suck for me. If you don't get it ask.
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Monday, October 8, 2007

Hey...Eric if you come here delete you pm's
Um yeah. Nothing to say today. Um I'm in 8th grade... yes it's true and I did not flunk or anything. So anyway we had MEAP testing today and it'll be for the rest of the week. I usually do terrible on the meap test but I think this time I did pretty good. I'm really tired right now. Ha I don't get enough sleep. Hmm... at school they do this thing and say blah, blah, blah this is a very important test so sleep and eat breakfast etc. Plus they have posters up about the meap and whatever. But the funny thing is like three kids made up a rap and did it over the intercom once and they had it on the tv another time. It was the most funniest thing ever... well more like stupid but you get it. I'm suppose to be doing homework on "Sir Francis Drake" but his life kinda sucks so well talk about my slightly more exciting suckish life........... *cough* thats the point there's nothing to talk about. Umm... I ate pizza and fries today at lunch. It was awesome, tasty, good yeah that's all I got. Um so Yeah bye everyone.

Hey if anyone wants to make a time line on Sir Francis Drake for me that would be like... I would start crying. lol well it just sounded funny. Yeah I know you guy's don't even want to do you homework. But whatever...
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Sunday, October 7, 2007

Hello everyone
Today I was bringing in groceries. And I started to feel weird. I sat on the steps cause I thought I was going to fall. I don't know what it was but I felt like crying. I could feel me heart pounding through out my body. I could hear it too. When I touched my forehead I could feel it. There was this whistling in my ear. So I looked around me thinking it was something else. Oh but that's my weird thing for today or yesterday... ummm yeah. It's a long way down so be careful.

I have a request for anyone that stops by or is a regular visitor. Haha tell me how you guy's are doing? I don't have time to actually go to everyone's site. Kinda sucks since I don't have time to read everyone's post. If you don't want to that's ok. Um lol my life is boring so of course I haven't been up to anything. And I'm still not going to tell anyone what happened (Eric)yes this is directly at you. Um... I'm going to post another poem on here is a few days or so after I actually sit down and make since of it all. I usually just write a bunch of crap down that means nothing when It comes to mind. But soon as I put it together it's... a poem. Um the way I feel is so happy with the way life is but knowing I'm so sad. I know i'm sad when I'm not laughing with everyone else. When I'm the only one who's thinking and trying to figure out who knows what. lol that's what I do. I like to observe other people when they... I guess live. To see how they react cause I can't. I mostly do fake laughs unless it's someone really important to me who I know is far away. My sister tell me something I don't give a fuck. Cause she talks about nothing important but when it's someone I know is far away I listen and hold on tightly to each word they say. Um I'll get off that. I want someone who can tell me about me, because I don't get me either like everyone else and I get even more confused lol. Seriously I'd think frustratedly over why I felt what I felt and try to get the precise word to explain it. And after I figured it out which can take up to days or weeks I'd get excited. I'd actually wake up one morning and be like now I understand. Ok I'm getting sleepy. Oh yeah I finally finished that book Green Girls. It was good I guess. Now I just need something else to read. I actually got up at 8 in the morning just to read it lol. Then stopped when 4 came around. Yeah I read slow when it comes to NORMAL books. Mangas I just jet through then. Um... Yoh!
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Thursday, October 4, 2007

Hi everyone... since I can't go to each site
Sorry I haven't been able to comment eveey ones site. Today was good. Nothing much happened. Who am I kidding lol. Yeah nothing happened but I still feel like crap. My mom and sister just left for the store. So I'm just having as much fun as I can in 10 minutes lol. I have this story that I've been writing forever. I think it sounds stupid but a few of my friends think I'm pretty good. I think I'm better at poems it only takes 5 seconds to think up some stuff. But I was thinking of putting it on my site. lol I know i won't have the guts to though so I won't worry about it. I thinks there back gotta go.
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Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Don't worry about the last post lol
Today was good. P.E sucked. I can't climb a rope lol whatever. I have no upper body strength. Yep I'm weak. So I sat there and chatted with a friend. We talked about nothing. I'm getting behind in my school work so that really sucks. A friend told me that she blew up a rat. lol ok yeah cruel but funny in a way. I a terrible person. Oh well. Back to the school work. Damnit I suck. I can't concentrate and I can't figure half the stuff out. Well even though I did get an (A english, B geography, C math) I'm usually good in math but still I've been late on most of my work and... I know some of it is my own fault but switching schools really put a dent in me. At my other school the teachers sucked and we barely did work so know everything is alot harder being at this school where we actually learn. But I'll trt my best. C'ya.
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Monday, October 1, 2007

Hello everyone
I feel happy today. Got to look at the hot girl at school. Awesome... *cough* P.E sucked cause I... hate it yeah. I hope it DIES! Um Anyhow there's nothing to talk about cause yes I'm still on PUNISHMENT, LOCKDOWN, UM SOMETHING... yeah. Eric I will talk to you soon, EVENTUALLY... actually I'll just sneak on the phone when I feel the time is right. I'm sooooo (the o's continue) oooooo bored. Um so I guess that's it.

Eric you asked me a few day's ago if one of my friend who was over here at my house kissed me what would I do. The truth is we'd have an awesome time lol without you ha. Dude if I had a camera I would send you pictures lol. I wouldn't be able to stop myself. Even though I may say yes to this but I barely know her and she's a weird... weird... but still cool. Um but don't worry I love you no matter what. Just one of my fantasies. Hmm... It was funny so I thought I'd put it on this post.

Remember the three key's to life...


YAOI
YURI
HENTAI


Sasuke I won't tell you what happened but lately that I've been losing my temper. I may be quiet at school and nice and stuff but for some reason I lost it and like went on a rampage. Well that's what everyone said but it wasn't that bad. I've been doing good so far but that day... hmm I don't know. Oh yeah um I don't think you know that I have diabetes but my mom keeps saying that's the reason I'm going crazy or something. Just think of it this way. Your most favorite food... and you can barely have it. It's not that bad. I don't care but getting 4 shots a day sucks. And eating at a restaurant sucks a well lol. But she thinks that's the reason. And the truth is I know somethings wrong with me but I don't know how to fix it. I'd get mad or sad over the most stupid thing. And feel like crying or I don't know. But then the thing that make me happy is when I talk with you and Eric. Yeah he's not helpful with problems but he's alway's there (in his world). But that's just the way he is. But I feel calm, relaxed and happy.

My mom doesn't have tight security and is barely monitoring me so this punishment is becoming better hehe. I can only watch anything that is educational... the discovery channel but barely. I'd have to beg first. Gotta go.
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Sunday, September 30, 2007

(sneaking on again)
hello everyone. um yeah I've been reading this book for hours now. lol it's the only fun thing to do. I can't read my mangas so I found some book and started to read it. my mom took it away from me but then I begged her to let me have it cause i was ready to do something I would have regretted (body harm). Cause I was losing it not having anything to do looking out the window for a day or so. But reading this book makes me happy. Even if it isn't the best thing ever but it's something to do. It's called GREEN GIRLS. My dad is getting on my fucking nerves. I don't have time to explain but I wish he would just leave me alone for awhile. He keeps telling me what I did at school was bad. Naw... It must be bad if I'm in this much trouble. Umm I can't wait for school. I really can't wait to see her. I talked about her in other post. Since I was in In School Suspension for two days I didn't see anyone. And I really miss staring at her lol. Ok I got to go fold some clothes ad get off before I get into trouble.

Sasuke don't go telling Eric stupid stuff ok. You two are always hiding stuff. I'M NOT SUPID!!! I know you guy were talking about me or something when we talked a few day's ago. Got to go.
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Saturday, September 29, 2007

Hello everyone
Ok I can only stay on for two minutes. I'm on punishment for something that happened at school. For a month. It all started with a manga lol. Um my mom striped my room of my tv, wall strolls, games, books, drawing utensils and anything else that could make me happy. So I've totally lost it I can't even go outside. I'm starting to get scared cause it's only been 3 days and I'm starting to lose it. So I guess I'll talk to everyone in a month. Fuck this sucks lol.

Sasuke talk to you soon. I really miss talking to you.
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Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Damn cold...
I slightly still a cold. Oh yeah I was mad about this at first but after a while it kicked in. Someone stole my gym clothes lol. It sounds funny though. Well in my mind but in the locker was my favorite shirt. I don't know how this happened if it was in the locker but still. This is my second week being here at the school and I finally at lunch. Well if you call eating a bunch of fries a lunch. But still it was awesome well that's cause I was hungry like hell. Whoot I got a 120/150 on my project so that was sweet. I didn't do some of it. And the only class I'm doing bad in is gym lol (lazy). The only thing I will do is laps (haha a lap dance). And health is next for going down. Ok gym may be important but health is fucking stupid. This is opinion. So... I guess that's it. I haven't finished my homework and it's already 7 so that's it. Ha actually I'm about to play guitar hero 2. Yep I'm addicted to this game.
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