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Birthday
• 1991-12-20
Gender
• Female
Location
• The Lonely OC, CA
Member Since
• 2005-04-19
Real Name
• Daphne.

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Anime Fan Since
• :dragon ball:
Favorite Anime
• Full Metal Alchemist, Case Closed.
Goals
• Find somebody to love.
Hobbies
• Reading. Writing. Myspacing. MyOing.

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Madness Mondays
no poetry today. no tyme to rhyme. anyway i'm here to tell you about my day. i had a short energy burst this morning followed by a day full of depression. i got home and had a horrible time trying to get ready for my awards night at my school. my hair was fucked, eyebrows were fucked, outfit was fucked.. FUCK!! then we were almost late (luckily last minute we discovered that it was at six thirty and not six oclock.) anyway, i got four awards, one trophy for citizenship all year (5 or more O's on 3 report cards), one trophy for award of merit all year (4.0 each trimester), a metal for lit lang, and a metal for social studies (cuz i'm just fabulous) haha. not really. but anyway come to find out my dad made it to the awards thingy 20 minutes before it ended cuz my brother todd was immobilized from almost ODing on a shitload of pot/and pills. Later on i tryed to say goodbye to him, but all he said was, "Then go, then.." I'm almost positive that he doesn't give a shit about me. and that makes me sad. anyway, i guess this is goodnight. XOXO
daphne
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Monday, June 13, 2005

   NEW OTAKU LOOK
ITS WHAT YOU'VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR!!!
I'VE GOTTEN TIRED OF MY OTAKU'S LOOK.
THEREFORE, I SHALL CHANGE IT.
BUT, I AM WAITING FOR SCHOOL TO BE OUT SO I CAN CHANGE MY GREETING AND SAY I'M AN 8TH GRADER (TEHE)

LOOK AT YOU, YOU SEEM SO EXCITED!

ACTUALLY, I DONT THINK YOU REALLY CARE.

HEY, BUT WHO CAN BLAME ME FOR TRYING??

XOXO

<3DAPHNE
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   THESE days JUST dont AMOUNT to THE old ONES

in this house where nothing is ever out of place
where flowers are always in a vase
and books are always in a case
i feel like i dont belong

and the clocks
they decieve
the slender hands never move
forever trapped in this state of mind
and akward time for me

and i could see why she'd want to leave
hell i want to go now
this perfection brings me down

how akward do i feel
were in the past
that wasn't real
i remember waving goodbye to her
i always seemed to cry for her

so many haunting memories
blood and tears and a nose full of beads
whatever would i do
if it had not been for you
and even now i miss you
forever wanting Kathy True.

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we were helping my grandma move out today. the poem was about her house. when my parents were getting divorced when i was little, my grandma had custody of me, and it was only for like three months, but that is the part of my todlerhood that i remember the most. and my mom used to visit us there, and i remember playing with her. and i just cant help but want to relive the past. if we only would have known that it wouldnt last.

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Sunday, June 12, 2005

   DEPRESSION OBSESSION

You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.

Unipolar Depression
83%
Borderline Personality Disorder
58%
Schizophrenia
58%
Antisocial Personality Disorder
50%
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
8%
Eating Disorders
8%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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   bereavement of the adolescents celibacy
a young child
he's captivated by her innosence
detemind to capture it
and pervert her perfect mind

and the whole family holds hands
and smiles
and embraces
but behind her bedroom walls
he corrupts her
forces onto her impurities
no longer a child of virtue
a broken girl in her desecrated world

and now she awaits to be saved
forgetting the prayers shes prayed
no longer believing in destiny
regrettful of losing her chastity

and for everyone he destroys
she blames herself
all the wrong things shes done
never telling someone else

and when she did manifest
the truth of her molest
few would believe
he could perform
such horrible deed

and those who believed
did not do a thing
they agreed
they believed
but did absolutely nothing

nothing to help
only to harm
losing her credibility
at the request of her mom

now she doesn't care
whatever or where
sickly and lonely
the obvious human condition
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Saturday, June 11, 2005

FABULOUS FRIDAY

"poetry of the sullen me"

so tired of being me
under aged and overused
and extremely flirty
if i could go back
(and god knows i would)
i would change my past
(if only i could)
the years they pile up
higher then they seem
if i'm not on this planet
i'm sucked into a dream
if only i could become anew
to change myself
for me and you
to replenish myself deep inside
to keep me from wanting to hide
if only i had not done
what were warned not to do
maybe i could be a bit happy
maybe i could be like you
if only there was a god above
who contained my free will
who guided who i had loved
then maybe i would be renewed
maybe i could be like you

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went to an awesome bonfire for marina high schools japanese club. the teacher wasn't there, just the recently graduated seniors. anyway it was awesome, i played football, (imagine that) and this guy tried to teach me to tackle and stuff. I got to see ST JOHN and BIANCA and it was awesome. i was so surprised to find that they were going OUT!! i saw them kissing... <3... i dunno it just kinda makes me wish that i was different, not so sick minded... NORMAL, you know? if i could have a NORMAL relationship, instead of a fucked up one.. haha. anyway i cuddled with this guy i met and made this other guy (whose my bros friend) jealous. I didnt really care tho, cuz the other guy was a total pothead, and i have no use for totally fried peeps. anyway needless to say i had a great time.. i'll check in with ya later..
XOXO daphne
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Friday, June 10, 2005

Thursday's Rival
as my heart begins to pound
that low, hypnotic sound...
i prespire
with love and desire
awaken dreamer
come about
forget within
come live without
experience truth
forget god above
forget your visions
of a one true love
there is no ending
to this long dreadful tale
no knights to rescue you
no truth will prevail
you have been lied to
there is no doubt
mind has been programmed
to ponder and pout
as i turn my head
and look away
i can almost here you say
"bury her body deep within the ground"
...as my heart begins to pound
that low, hypnotic sound...

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just another poem to pass the time.. school is out a week from tomorrow.. i'm glad, but sad. a couple friends are moving away, and i dont really see alot of my friends during the summer.. i get to see my niece jordyn on saturday, and then next saturday i get to meet my mom for the first time in seven years. So i guess you could say i'm really excited/anxious.

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Thursday, June 9, 2005

   EMOTIONS ARE A BITCH

I sit alone in my room
counting all the words i scribe
as i type this message to you
and i know the words are wrong
and i know i shouldn't tell
but i cant stand you not knowing
how i really feel
cuz im rebounding, baby,
so dont trust my actions now,
cuz i'm really kinda crazy,
theres no satisfactions now,
and i apologize for leading you on
because right now,
i'm not so fucking strong
i feel too damn dependant
on someone to help me along
i'm too needy
i'm too wanting
and i'm flirting
and i'm flaunting
so forgive me, for leading you on
I'm not that fucking strong.

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once again, pay no mind to the poem, song, just expressing my current feelings.. anyway i have to jump into bed soon, but i just wanted to tell Jocelyn that i love her.. lol.. G'night

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Wednesday, June 8, 2005

   WELL.. I GUESS ITS SO LONG..
Crazy Days
These Crazy Days
All my vision's in a haze
Losing self
Losing you
Trying to grip
ontto the truth
Losing faith
Losing hope
I feel a need
To sit and mope
My heart
Weary
Skips A Beat
My brain
dreary
Needs to sleep
So for now
I bid you adieu
I'll try to recover
my forgotten endeavors

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my mom set me a bed time because i fall asleep too much in the afternoon. Sadly its fifteen minutes past that time. So i must pass out, or I will be beaten with sticks.. anyway just here to say i love you all, and dont pay attention to the shitty poem above, its main purpose was to kind of rhyme, and i couldnt even achieve that..
~gnight
Daphne
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Tuesday, June 7, 2005

   Just Because It's Monday
My eyelids, weighted down
my lungs have nearly drowned
I'm lost within myself
There is no one else.
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I'm so tired. I'm so bored. And I dont know why, but i really like the word SULLEN.. it just, sounds kewl. but its kinda close to swollen, and that doesn't sound too fun.. anyway i'll be dosing off here in a sec, so i just wanted to say
SO LONG & GOODNIGHT..

Mucho Love,

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