Tuesday, September 4, 2007

ugh
okay so update!
i know i havnt been on her hardly at all
and dont answer pm's
well for some reason my-o isnt letting me =/ it keeps comming up with errors Dx

anyways whats been going on? well thursday i sent sidnee a message that i was breaking up with her. yeah. things really werent that great with me and her. and i didnt really feel that good dating her. like i didnt feel loved and a bunch of other things. and i was just desperate so i rushed into the relationship with her, plus i felt bad because she made a big deal about things when i was dating alaena. anyways she read it friday and hates me now. plain and simple. she posted a comment on my myspace that said pretty much just and only that then removed me off all friends lists. but its okay i didnt take it hard or something. i usually would because it really hurts when people say that they hate me like that, but i dunno it just didnt affect me a whole lot. i guess i was just relieved that she didnt like go emo or something worse. (lol like anyone would go emo because of me xP)
but um... i also kinda left her for someone else...
a vietnamese/chinese girl
she's a year older than sidnee and lives about 600 miles further. but she's... wow... she's got wow factor. when me and her met it was just like, instant crushes on eachother. we talked a LOT. like way more than me and sidnee ever have and we had only known eachother for a few days. we actually stayed up till 6 in the morning (my time, 8 am her time) just talking on yahoo instant messanger! we found out a LOT about eachother. oh and it was easy to tell that she liked me back because when she was on she would always reply to my messages really fast. as if i were the only one worth talking to, for her. it made me feel really good. we also made eachother a few signs too. then one day, she broke up with her bf (online though. she never had a gf in the real world [like me])
and she was kinda shakey and depressed and felt guilty because of it then she said something like "omg i cant believe i dumped my bf for a guy who's taken" who was none other than myself. that kinda helped trigger what would cause me to break up with sidnee. so yeah we pretty much broke our relationships to start a new one with eachother, but it didnt become official until today. er yesterday for most of you, its still the 3rd for me.
you might critisize me now for whatever reasons you have, but i can assure you, that this girl is worth it. i went camping again over the weekend and i found myself thinking about her everytime i layed down to go to bed or take a nap and i also kept a picture of her in my back pocket the whole time. i also recorded a short video clip saying that i loved her, and she really really enjoyed that. and in return i got some more pics of her ^-^ oh how i love those lol, she's a real cutie. she wrote my name 3 times on a pair of jeans that she has, that have like been signed by her friends and graffitti'd by her older sister. its like the only thing we ever do is make eachother really happy. i just love it!
anyways um... yeah i forgot what else i was gonna update about ^-^' lol sorry. if you have any questions or whatever on whats been going on then just comment them or whatever. hopefully my pm's will start working again soon.
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