Monday, September 17, 2007

bleh...
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Soo... me and Angie dont seem so good. ='[
We tend to kinda sorta argue a lot... and even worse its usually over something like whether or not I really love her. Its like no matter what I do I cant convince her enough. (And I really really do
love her) I- I dont get it, I dont know what to do. I make her signs when she wants and when I want to randomly too. And I even made videos for her so she can hear my voice and know its really me and stuff. I have made a complimenting acronym out of her name. I used up 98% of all my phone time with her when I had it. I have her on myspace and gaia profiles. I stayed up till 6:30 chatting with her on Friday, and I even edited together two pics of us to where it looks like we were kissing eachother. (but I accidentally did it with a pic of me with my eyes open so she got upset with that saying that in the pic I didnt really mean the kiss.) Thats another thing is that she gets upset over those little details sometimes. Its like those are the only parts she notices.

Anyways, yeah I just cant convince her, she doesnt believe me when I tell her that I love her, and that hurts. I'll say "Hey Angie, I love you." And when she doesnt say she loves me too she will say, "Are you sure?" or "k.." .
Oh that last one really bugs me. She will set her myspace mood to "Depressed" and she will get quiet in the chats by like delaying to reply when I say I love her or *huggle* her, and often use, "...". But whenever I ask her whats wrong she always says nothing. But I know thats its not nothing, that there is something wrong, but she wont tell me. Like as if she doesnt trust me enough to be able to tell me anything or something, and of course that hurts too.

And now the latest problem is that I'm losing my amount of time I have to be on the internet. School has started and so my mom has restricted my internet time more than being at school already has. I hate it. My mom will simply unplug me from their room too so I'm screwed. And I get threats of losing my computer and its just driving me insane. Thats the only thing my parents say to me anymore, is "Get off the internet" and "What homework do you have. Even if I already informed them that I have no homework and have been on the internet for only an hour. Thats REALLY driving me crazy!

Thats really not helping me with Angie. Tonight I was talking to her then my parents get pissed at me saying I was on the internet all day. (Which is total bullsht because I was in the shed and in the garage looking through boxes trying to find something, and then drawing, then I watched a movie, and then I got on the internet. But of course she wouldnt know that because she was downtown at my sister's ballet studio all day. But yeah they told me to get off before they unplug me , so I told Angie that I had to get off because of them, she got quiet and did the, "Aw =[" . I said sorry and that I dont have a choice, then I said, "Goodnight, I love you, talk to you later. *huggles*" and then she delays a little and finally replies with, "*Shoves*" and then logs off.

So yeah, it sucks...

Sorry about the long posts and such. Hope everything is going with all of you and that you had a good weekend.
-Laters.
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