Thursday, October 14, 2004

   Some Stuff
Ok i dunno if i really wanna share this with the whole world but i don't know more than half of them and besides who cares anyway right.

I'm not suicidal or harboring homocidal tendancies, just so everyone knows...I wrote this one on October 4. Basikally just don't be concered. Everything IS ok and i mean that.

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DEAR MIKE

I hate you
I want you to die
with evil expression
I enjoy watching you cry

You may not know what is wrong
Over your yelling and cruel intentions
How can you sleep at night

Next to your beautiful wife
my mother, who I love to death
You try to control her and her life
Now a brainwashed like a clone or a zombie
She carries out your plans for destruction

I hate you
I want you to die
Kill yourself
you put this tear in my eye

Control is your focus
and impossible standards
You push us around and claim it is your job
oh how i hate you
you lie worse than a serpent spinning deception

Some people like you
I cannot figure out why
You are a demon
killing goodness and joy

Another thing annoys me, and this is not hard to see
You brag and think you are the best at everything
"I have done everything right" you say
One lie among many
"I love you" you say
Bullshit

I hate you
I wish you were already dead
Kill yourself
put a bullet in your head

Now something that pains me the most
I let you marry her on one condition
You would never hurt her
Too much pain's been in her eyes
You agreed and broke your promise
You've crossed the line
This is it
You've turned all of our lives to shit
Fuck you Mike

You think you own me, control me
That is a lie
You cannot control the thing that wishes you would die

Fuck you and have a nice day

Burn in hell Mike

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This one I wrote right after that one. It is how things are on the inside, not the outside.

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LIFELESS

My life?
Have you seen it?
It has escaped me

I never wanted any of it
Lie upon lie
What I've know turn to shit
I have you to thank

When I see your face
the bitterness returns
I try to restrain myself
from putting you in your place

I remember when things were different
I smiled on the inside and out
My soul sometimes I thought would burst
I loved everyone
Everyone loved me
Life was simple
Cold darkness has replaced my joy

I still smile but it is almost a lie
I still love but very few
Life is a nightmare
I hardly dream
I've lost meaning of loyalty

A twisting knife
dripping red explosions
Don't you love life?
Thunder and lightnig coming from my head

living restless
silent screams
anziety from all directions
turn down your high beams

I cannot bear my life
An hourglass of pain and confusion
Icey inside
I have glass in my eyes

Something is not right
choking on something
the light is not right
so lonly and ashamed

hate has consumed me
Depressed and calling out
this hate is for you
take it and leave me alone

Your cruelty isn't slight
maggots in your heart
I'm running slowly in the night
teary eyes stare into depression

This is not really me
Only what i've become
I try to make the best of it
But hate is eclipsing the corners of my heart

I'm sorry I even care
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