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Friday, February 8, 2008

my emo day
im just really upset today... there were a couple of funny things that happened earlier the other day but im too depressed to even smile at the thought. last night theshinobihobbit asked me if her dad could pick me up at 8:30 instead of me coming at 6 pm so i wouldn't be left all alone and shit. my dad was really unhappy about that idea, especially when he found out that she wasn't even gonna be home until then. prior to that, my dad was already pissing me off. he always tends to insult my friends and doesn't even seem to realize how upset it makes me to hear him say such awful things. even the slightest thing makes me upset especially concerning friends and i was trying really hard not to tell him to shut the hell up already about my friends, he has no right and how would he feel if i said bad stuff about his friend?? he wasn't being serious at all...
i got really upset and snapped at him when he asked me a random question and then he got really pissed off at me and said "that's it you're not going to her house on friday". first i started crying and then i got mad at myself and started punching the wall and i swear i almost cut myself cuz i was thinking about it. and i started crying nonstop until i finally fell asleep.

this morning, my mom found out dad said i couldn't go and treated me to another lecture and basically said that im a spoiled brat who only thinks of her parents as ppl who sit at a desk and make money for me. everything up until then was upsetting but that made me snap. i can agree to the "spoiled rotten" part cuz i know it's true and i have long ago accepted it. but the moment she said that other thing i couldn't stop crying. i skipped choir cuz i was crying for about the entire half of first hour and at lunch i didn't even have anyone to sit next to and animelover12344 kinda made it worse cuz she asked me what was wrong and i only said one sentence and then she pretty much just walked off without letting me finish telling her. and for the rest of the day i felt like crying and when i got home i got so upset i chucked my textbooks across the room and started crying again. and now my dad is probably trying to make me forget about it by offering me mcdonald's and he just doesn't get it at all. he thinks that im just gonna cheer right up if he bribes me or something?? im not pissed at him though... if anything im pissed at myself for not keeping my big mouth shut. if i hadn't said anything to him last night i would still be going. i was looking forward to this for the whole week and cuz i couldn't learn to shut up for once, i ruined my chance to go. for once i didn't smile at all today. but i only act weird and loud to get attention and not get lonely. in truth im afraid that if i don't attract attention then im gonna be all alone and that isolated feeling is one of the most painful things for me to deal with.

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