Wednesday, October 1, 2003

Dramatic Drama

Well, above you notice a few images. They are links to fanlistings that I have created. I might as well do something with that space. The one with the stars goes to my Microstars fanlisting, for the Apocalypse Hoboken album entitled as such. The one with the boy and teddy bear is my fanlisting for Shmee (the bear), from Jhonen Vasquez's Squee! comics. The television one is going to go to my soon-to-be Tiger Army (a band) fanlisting. So yay.      Anyway, Cinderella is not coming together like I think it should. I suppose it is hard to have unity when one of your main roles is a conceited peice of [expletive deleted]. I hate the Prince... he cannot sing, he cannot act, he is conceited, and I have a suspicion that he is actually a bit jealous by how much more attention I tend to attract from the cast than he does. I do not know... when he comes up to people I am talking to and that he barely does and starts acting like he is their best of friend... it is just kind of awkward and he should have his face cut from his skull. People have even told him to his face that he is arrogant, but of course he does not listen or tries to justify it. He likes to get into talks about "punk rock" with me and act all "elite" about it when he gets his information from a [expletive deleted] magazine and is into bands like Blink 182, New Found Glory, and Good Charlotte. Yet as soon as I mention the Misfits, Tiger Army, the Unseen, Rise Against, or any other band like that, he has nothing to say because he has not even heard of them. He knows of AFI, but simply because of Sing the Sorrow. "Girl's Not Grey is my favorite song by them." Oh please ... Any AFI fan knows that song is pretty weak, even just in comparison to the other tracks on Sing the Sorrow. And he always wears shirts with those dumb little messages on them like, "I did not say you were ugly... I am just thinking it." He likes to call things "hardcore" a lot, too... I want to put his head under a guillotine. I am sure other people would not mind that either...

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Saturday, September 27, 2003

Could I BE anymore vague?

I just love pouring out emotion to people... It has made me feel a bit better (from being rather depressed), and in the end made the other feel better by forcing this person to cry, in a good way.      It is too bad, though... Five bucks says nothing will ever come of it.

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Wednesday, September 24, 2003

Welcome to Chicago mother fucker.

So there is a pretty good chance that in the first week of October I shall be going to Illinois to see AFI... twice. ^_~      It all started back a few months when one of my friends said that she accidentally bought an extra ticket for the shows and asked if I wanted to go. Of course I said "sure", but I would have to check with my parents first. I finally got around to gathering the right amount of information and asking my parents about it. I asked my mom first because I live with her, and she pretty much just said "talk to your dad", as usual. My dad said that I could go under certain circumstances, being: I go to my preferred colleges' websites and find out information about them regarding applications and such, Talk with one of the guidance counselors at my school about essays and resumes for college applications, and seriously start looking for a job.      So far I have pretty much done the first two. I have to get back to this one guy I know about Best Buy. He needs to lead me through the application to make sure I get in... >.>      The shows are in Sauget and Chicago, Illinois. it should be fun. ^_^ This would be seeing AFI in concert four times in five months. o_O ... Craziness. Hey Tony, perhaps I shall see you around? ^_~

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Sunday, September 21, 2003

The End?

This could very well be my last entry here. It is obvious none of you really care until I just come out and bitch like this. I do not know why I have taken the time to make everything on here when there is going to be no one to appreciate it. I might just go back to my original diary, maybe not.      It will probably play out like this, though: I post this up, you all say "Stop being to depressed and angsty. I care and read this all the time.", and then I shall bend and post some more here. Thus, turning the gears to make this cycle continue.      I am just going to take everything away. The MIDI, the border, the background, the images, the font (for those that can actually see it)... everything. The only thing I shall keep is the avatar. The only good thing on this page.

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Q, B, C, D, E, F, G, H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P, A, R... >.>

You know, I am all for alphabetical order, but this time it has gone a bit too far. -.-      Now the friends lists are alphabetized, and Tori (Queen Asuka) is no longer first on my list.      Damn the man! Damn him to hell! Off with his head!      Where is my Royal Executioner when I need him... >.>?

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Pulling Worms Apart

Open up that smile, darling, and gush all over me. Tripping over rainbows, we hardly miss a beat. Candy cigarettes litter up our past, Candy-ass regrets flicker out last. Tucked away is a little boy pulling worms apart. Inside that little boy is a broken little boy heart. Too much too soon already grown up. Who unplugged the electric company? Saturday mornings have turned to kiddie porn. My nite-lite has burned out. The last thing I thought I'd be was a waste of time. All those peel away feelings, Stop the blind from leading the blind. The last thing that I thought I'd be was a waste of time. I'm still seeing trails, and chasers never stop chasing. I guess I'm happy now.      For those of you that do not know, which I am guessing is all but maybe one or two of you depending on who reads this, that is a song by Apocalypse Hoboken. ^_^      Currently I am trying to figure out the tab to it. So far I have the intro, verse, and chorus.      It is one of my favorite songs by them, so I am pretty excited to actually be figuring this out on my own. This would be the first song that I have ever figured out how to play without help from online tabs.      I remember candy cigarettes... I have not seen them around in ages, though. They were like the straight edge way of "being cool", lol. Then you have that one brand of root beer, of whose name I cannot think of right now, that came in bottles. Just think of it! All the social interaction of a smoker and a boozer without the damaging side effects! ; P      Of course some people might get a little suspicious when there is no smoke coming from your "cigarette", and you are not getting drunk of the "beer".      Meheh. >_<;

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Saturday, September 20, 2003

i aRe ellyturit.

Okay, today I realized why I am easily one of the best writers on my staff. A lot of the people we have on staff are F-ing illiterate. They cannot write worth crap. Then, even when our adviser has edited their original hard copy and told them to change it on the computers, they ignore it and say that our adviser "doesn't understand". ... o_O I sat beside him while he was editing the stories in our entertainment section and it was just hideous. I mean, most of the stories at least had some credit to them; the person was at least trying, they just do not know how to write. However, when you have people that blatantly ignore instructions they are given, it is just bad. We had to cut about three-fourths of this one person's review because it sucked. Unfortunately, we are pretty much in a position where we have to put that in. Our main problem with this one guy is that he would use "too" when he should use "to" and vice versa... and he is a senior. He does try, though. He deserves credit for that. He also has the experience to know what he is doing with the entertainment section. He just is not the best writer.      I suppose it is partyl because when our adviser accepts people on staff, he does not just look at a person's grades. If a student has the want and drive to get things done, he will accept them. A person can learn to write better, but he or she has to have to want to do it. The paper's Editor in Cheif two years ago had less than a 2.0 GPA before he started the newspaper and he was one of the best that paper has had.      today seemed like a rather progressive day, though. We all just went home after we were kicked out at 1PM, and are going to work on stuff independently and bring it together when it is completed.      I have some high hopes.

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I am becoming addicted.

*sigh* I love our school's newspaper. This seems to be its suckiest year from what our adviser is saying, but we are still going for it. I mean, when you have eleven people on staff and you are trying to put a F-ing 52 page paper... That is balls. It is getting so hectic though because no one is turning there stuff in. Even me, I am guilty of it as well, but the main difference between myself and some of the other people is that I am at least trying to get done. I mean, the only story I ever handed in on time was my story on the guy that got gassed in Ecuador; and by the way, it turned out to be tear gas, not mustard gas. Though it still remains the dude was gassed. That kind of thing does not happen to you common American teenager. I met the guy too, face to face, he is a really cool guy (and pretty cute, too ^_~ He looks like Abe Lincoln only not as tall and Amish, lol). That story is pretty much gold from what I hear. Though, the main reason I do not hand in my stories on time is because I am trying to make these things good. Even though I handed that tear gas story in on time, I pulled that sucker out of the finished folder before it wa checked so I could add more too it. Even after that I added another page worth of information to the story in Word (double-spaced).      All I have left to do that I have actually been assigned to me are a sports story, in which I still want to get a hold of a couple more students before I put that story in "Layout Ready Copy"; and two briefs on our schools Mock Trial team and Science Club.      What else have I done? There are several editorial cartoons in the paper, maybe five or six, only one of which is not mine. Though I would have done that one, too, which I really should have. I have an illustration that is the part of the main element on the back of one of the sections (with how our paper is set up, the back is a good place to have things be. It is like the front, but not). I have written an editorial, a column, two or three other stories (aside from my sports one), and a breif. I could still do more. Right now at this moment I want to do more. What I have done is not even the most out of anyone, probably far from it. Though how far can you really be when you have a staff of eleven people, of which only five or six people actually give a crap, and you are trying to put out a 52 page paper.      I got some huge compliments on the way home today. I was getting a ride home from our main graphics and layout guy and he told me that myself and this other girl that has been on staff for about two years now are easily the best story writers on staff. He said my editorials and columns are not the best, but when it comes to putting a story forth I am damn good at it. He said that he is sure that by next issue I am going to be right up there with a guy that was the best writer last year (who is now graduated). He also mentioned that he has his portfolio of his layouts online which include the graphics, illustrations, and whatnot. He said that a year ago a guy from the New York Times e-mailed him complimenting him on his layouts and such, and then recently contacted him again saying kind of the same things and also saying that he thought the illustration (that I did) was excellent! I did not even think it was that good at all, but... you cannot really deny someone from such a well-known paper. I mean, I can always, always do better, but it was really good to hear those things. Especially after what went on tonight.      It was kind of a quiet night, people were mainly just getting their stuff done. there were only five people there, including the adviser. At one point my friend and I were hungry so we told the adviser we were going to go get some food and we left for a bit and walked downtown to a pizza place and ate a whole, large pizza; then walked back up to school and continued working on our stuff. Apparently something had happened while we were gone, and then in the other room (the "news room" is has a separate room in it) because our adviser just came storming out saying "That's it, shut it all down, it's over!". So we saved our stuff and shut the computers down. We all eventually gathered around our adviser at his desk and just kind of talked about what was going on. In a rather large nutshell, it is mostly that people just do not really seem to care this year and he is tired of putting up with all of the same drama every time. So we had this big, hour and a half to two our chat about everything. By the end of it everyone seemed pretty content. We were not really happy, but just kind of settled down and on level with one another. It was not the best day for the paper, but hopefully when we get together Saturday we shall have a better time. The school is open from 7AM to 1PM, we are being kicked out at one because of renovations and they are messing with electricity and such. I am not sure if we are going to just go to someone else's house or what, but I am thinking tomorrow should be a better day.      I want this 52 page paper to happen. I want to see this baby shine. I want to take this thing to Nationals and blow everyone out of the water, EVEN THOUGH the people that run Nationals hate us and will place us lower just because we are better and we are damn proud of it. Go ahead and F-ing call us cocky, we have a reason to be.      Last year our paper was placed at 7th. it was pathetic, and we did later find out that the reason we did not get 1st, or at least the top three two is because they do not like us. It was not because that issue we presented was bad. Sure it had its problems here and there, some more obvious than others, but our adviser said that there was no other people there that should have beaten us. Our adivser may be a little arrogant, but he will tell it like it is. If there was a paper there that could have actually beat us, he would say it. JEA (Journalism Education Association), who run Nationals, were trying to send a message by placing us at 7th. We had half our staff quit at the start of this year. They and JEA think we cannot do it. They think that we cannot come back. They think that we are through. Well, even though these times are very trying, we are far from over. We are going to get this 52 page paper out, and we are going to shove it straight up where the sun does not shine. Our F-ing entertainment section is GODLY in appearance. I am not sure what the actual stories in there are like, but the visuals a really F-ing cool.      JEA and the quitters of our staff were tying to send a message by doing what they did, and we are going to send one right back. Our staff shirt this year is themed off of that. We are very in your face. If you try and push us around we shall come back and knock you straight across the jaw.      I want to see this thing take off.

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Thursday, September 18, 2003

   Tori, I thought you would appreciate this. ^_^

I found this when aimlessly lookingaround the web. ^_^ http://www.boyis.com/graphic/photo_000000/girl_705.jpg Enjoy. ^_^

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Wednesday, September 17, 2003

Infested.

Okay, so my basement has became like a haven for flies. It is the most annoying thing ever. I cannot find teh can of Raid that used to be down here, which would make killing them a lot easier, so I am stuck using a fly swatter. Fly swatters are crap against those crazy flies that never feel like landing (though it is cool if/when you hit them out of the air and they fly into the nearest wall). Seriously though, I have no idea where they are coming from, and there are so many of them. I must have killed about fifteen just now. Can I not just type in peace? I think we need to buy a bug bomb and just let it go down here. I swear these thing re-spawn like the monsters in Doom.      Anyway, I was after school working with the newspaper again. I just needed to get some stories done and stuff, which I did. I think that is all for now...

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