Sunday, October 16, 2005

   ...
My father is such a fucking asshole. The sooner I get my last name changed, the better.

I can't even think clearly enough to type.

I just hung up with him. I told him that he needs to take Darbie to the vet a.s.a.p. and he instantly says the bill for it will come out of what he gives us. That was his fucking excuse; he also said that Mom made more than him. So he thinks that means we have more spending money?! He does have two people plus four pets to take care of! Jesus fucking Christ.

Then he didn't understand that Sam was upset since apparently she sounded just fine. HELLO!!!!!!! Did'ja ever hear of faking it?!?!?!?! He obviously doesn't understand his daughters. He fucking chose his non-girlfriend over his own fucking spawns!!!

Fuck ... I hate it when I lose it. I am so close to cutting right now. Hopefully since I was just crying, that'll help calm me down. That'll just make me feel weak. URRRR!!!!!!! *screams*
Comments (1) | Permalink

Saturday, October 15, 2005

   I LIVE!!!!!!!
Gomen-nasai for not updating lately. I just ... I don't know. Haven't been in a good mood.

The doctors call Mom and she's fine, but still want to do another test on three months just to ... "be careful". That really doesn't make me feel any better.

Homecoming was last week; it was fun. I got to slow dance with a guy I've never met and doesn't go to my school. x.x;;; His sister is pretty cool though.

That's really the only fun thing that's happened. On Wednesday, I skipped fourth period. x.x First time I've never done that; I was so scared for the rest of the day. We were having a sub and Andi went to class, but came back ten minutes later saying s/he was a no-show. Then Louie came up to me saying the teacher was there and knew I was skipping; so sent her to come get me. It turns out she was kidding. I wanted to slap her so badly, but I smacked her arm. God damn, I fucking hate Danielle! I don't even know why I call her by her nickname. Probably because I have a nice friend whose name is Danielle. But ever since I found out she and Amanda confessed to being behind the "Jake" thing last year to Shadow, all I've wanted to do was rip her head off.

So many things are floating around in my head ... I have no clue what I should put in here.

I'm having a sort of depressing conversation with Shadow. But I won't talk about it here. Just random stuff really.

Oh, yesterday was Dad's birthday but completely blew us off. Sam called to wish him a happy birthday and to tell him she had a present for him. She baked him like three pumpkin pies. But of course, he had to be a bastard. Told her that he was probably going out somewhere with Kim, but he might not. But in any case, if he was, he wanted his day to be free. Here was the translation: I might go out with non-girlfriend, Kim, might not. If we do go out, you can't come. If I don't go out, I still don't want to see you.

Fucking asshole.

Well, I guess I'll go read more of Pepp's comic.

Ja.
Comments (1) | Permalink

Friday, September 30, 2005

   Yesterday and today
Yesterday was the open house at school. Mom and Sam went with me; then Dad came ... with Kim and her son who goes to Mariner ((FYI, Mariner is a high school in my old school district)). I thought that was hilarious. I wasn't really upset, just amused. Sam and I agreed that the son was cute but we never asked what his name was or what grade he's in. XD He kept staring at Sam and me though, it was kind of creepy. At the end, Kim gave me a hug which really freaked me out; I just pretended it didn't bother me. I felt like taking a shower though. x.x When we got home, I wanted to crash but ended up watching tv instead of studying for the *counts* four quizzes I had today. The bio quiz was like a freaking exam! Ms. Penalver has no fucking clue what she's doing. It was worth 60 points! SIXTY!!!

Bleh, at last it's Friday.

Mom went to the hospital for the biopsy today. I was on edge all day wanting to get home, but we won't get the results for a week. The whole thing makes me really uneasy. I had to tell Sam about it, but now she has to pretend she doesn't know about it; since Mom didn't even want me to know. The only other person I told this to ((in person, not this journal)) was Marlo and I know I can trust her about this.

Oh, Sam's leaving. She came over and she, Mom, and I watched Sahara. It was a decent movie; if you like action.

Okee, I ran out of things to say. I'm either going to read a few fanfictions or just to crash. I'm fucking exhausted. x.x;;;
Comments (1) | Permalink

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

   Another day
I stayed home again. I'm better off from yesterday, but still in shitty shape. I'll most likely be back at school tomorrow. I'm sort of going insane not doing anything anyway. XD But I wouldn't be able to go to school with how dizzy I am. Okay, I'm always dizzy, but I'm more so than usual; which is a lot.

I started watching Finding Neverland on On Demand. I haven't finished it but I saw most of it. I'll watch the rest later.

On the episode of Dr. Phil that's on was talking about a "teen fad" where they play a "choking game". The name of the girl that was there was Alyssa. That sort of freaked me out. x.x;;;

Damn, I can't sing right. Yesterday, I could sing fine but today I can't.

Gah, I want to cough but then it hurts my throat. x.x Ow ... note to self: don't cough. At least I'm not sneezing like yesterday. *dies*
Comments (1) | Permalink

Monday, September 26, 2005

   Meh
I stayed home from school today. I couldn't sleep worth shit and just a lot of things were happening that made me feel horrible. I'm a little better now but I can't breathe through my nose that well right now, my throat stings, and I'm dizzy whenever I walk or sit up.

It took me like two hours to get my internet to work. I went online at 2:00pm but no sites would load. It's 4:30pm now and it's finally working.

*Huggles sis* Thankies for sending me Missing! ^^ I already know the song by heart. x.x;;;

Okee, I can't think of anything else so yeah.
Comments (0) | Permalink

Sunday, September 25, 2005

   Bleh
Mom and I just finished watching Beauty Shop. It was okay. Too many "black" jokes if you ask me; total stereotype. But the couples were cute. ^^;;;

Damn, some of the songs I downloaded aren't working so that's ticking me off. That and I can't find the right version of Missing. I got one, but it's the same as Elena's so that's no good.

Bleh, I wanna rp but Elena's not on. *cries* Get onlineee, sis!!!

For the english assignment, I wrote how I dealt with my parents fighting during the divorce; a whole page. Mom read it and cried. I'm not sure whether that means I did a good job writing it or because it forced bad memories to resurface. Either way I hated seeing her cry. I might post what I wrote for it later. The second one I'm not done with but I'm going to have it be a thunder storm. Thanks for the idea sis.
Comments (1) | Permalink

   Random, quick update
Gah, it's all your fault, Elena! You got me hooked on Missing. =P

The instrumental Ascension of the Spirit made me cry. It's like, the entire last six years played through my mind as that song played. It was so incredibly sad.

Um, on happy news, I cut part of the bracelet so now my bracelet for The Cure fits me a lot better. I forgot to put this in the last post that I got it while at the Alderwood mall for Mom's birthday ((Claim Jumper is at the mall)). I got a blue one. ^^ I still need to get a pro-life bracelet like the one that Mom has. We know the site and everything so we just need to order it. I think it's just like $5 so we can afford it.

Gah, I need to finish my homework. *dies*

EDIT ::: HOLY SHIT!!! This entry was posted three more times than it was supposed to! Weird. Probably because my computer wouldn't load the fucking site! >.< God damn, my internet is soooo slow today!
Comments (1) | Permalink

Saturday, September 24, 2005

   Wh00t! Saturday!
Yesterday was Mom's birthday. Sam rented Monster-in-Law and it had a lot of humour. Mom nodded off a few times *sweatdrops* but that's Mom for you. Later, after Sam argued with Lee on the phone about him getting on the wrong bus >.> we went to Claim Jumper. We won't be going there for a long time, since it's so expensive. It was my turn to be tired. I kept falling asleep there. XD I was so exhausted from this week! We got home and I went straight to bed. When I was turning off the light to go to sleep, I saw it was 11:00pm exactly. Mom liked her presents too which made me happy. Since her oil burned cracked, I got her a new one with a freesia oil. She loves freesia.

For english, I made Travis read the paper since I did all the work. XD He actually said he would.

Dad called *mock-gags* I'll update later.
Comments (1) | Permalink

Thursday, September 22, 2005

   BOOMBA, HEY!!!!!!!
I got my ASB card today; I look alright but my bangs are all funky.

There was an assembly in third period; a motivational speaker. I thought it would be boring, but it was quite interesting. I sat with Alyssa and Megan and we couldn't stop laughing. Raven was next to me though. ¬_¬ But the guy was mimicing grade, middle, and high schoolers to a T how we first reacted to liking someone or to raising your hand to just live in general. Then he made us "sing a song". XD Not really. Half of the gym yelled "BOOMBA!" and the other side yelled "HEY!" I was on the "Hey!" side. XDDD So whenever he pointed to our side, we yelled. Lmao, yeah it was stupid but I was having fun. When we left, I was jumping up and down saying "BOOMBA, HEY! BOOMBA, HEY! BOOMBA, HEY!" ^^;;; Hey, I had coffee this morning!

In choir, Mr. Plagueman ((I'm guessing that's how you spell it since that's how you pronounce it)) was trying to teach Sigh No More Ladies to us. Well, not all of us, like me, since we already know it from last year. That's our theme song. XD It disses males so I love it. XDDD But he was teaching is SO FREAKING BADLY!!! I mean, while he was helping one part ((it's split into saprano, saprano II, and alto)), the other two could have been working on it themselves. There's at LEAST one second-year in each section so we could have gotten half-way through instead of just the first page. There was a sub, but if Ms. Cappello was there, she would have broken us up. Told us to work on it in the room or go to a piano and punch our parts. She did that all the time last year and that's a great method to learn the song without much help. We don't even do the right warm-ups. It makes me want to scream.

Well, I have a lot of homework to do so yeah. Plus, ((even though I'm not that hungry)) I believe hot pockets are calling to me. o.o
Comments (1) | Permalink

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

   Mer
Today was almost ... fun. o.O Algebra was fun for me because we got our books that have problems that you actually write on and in bio Ms. Penalver actually wasn't a bitch! We had a debate on if there was any one characteristic that makes humans unique from the other animals. It was hilarious because Mitch kept like yelling from the back of the room how it said blah blah blah in the bio text book. How culture and the ability to learn at a high rate worked. I told him that every being has their own culture; ours is just more complex. Then other animals can learn things at a high rate. Like abes and gorillas learn sign language, dogs learn tricks, etc.

When the first bell ran ((for second lunch to start, not for mine to end)), Marlo and I started to leave but when we saw people were getting their ASB cards, we literally ran for the stage. I didn't get a chance to get mine because the E-G line was soooo freaking long! Marlo got hers though; she looks so pretty. XD So I'll be getting mine tomorrow. I'm so anxious because I want to know how my picture turned out!

Gah, now Mom and I are in a huge debate ... well, not debate but a conversation on why people kill innocent lives like bugs without a reason. If it wasn't for the fact that I wouldn't get to choose my opinion in a case, I'd probably join the Debate club.
Comments (1) | Permalink