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Birthday
• 1990-03-07
Gender
• Female
Location
• Washington
Member Since
• 2005-06-06
Occupation
• Student
Real Name
• Uh ... just call me Lyss; hey, only two letters taken off

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• Was in Winter Guard and ... um, passed all the W.A.S.L. tests with flying colours? o.O I passed my first year of high school too ... does that count?
Anime Fan Since
• Oh God ... since 5th grade at least
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• Full Metal Alchemist
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• To make the Symphonic choir at school and to pass all my classes ^^;;; But for my life goal/dream, I want to become a singer or writer ... though I adore singing more
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• Singing, writing, colour guard, watching anime, reading manga, practically living on the internet or sleeping
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• Singing, writing, colour guard




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Tuesday, July 5, 2005

   Damn it
I feel completely and utterly disgustly right now. I fucking hate my body. Even though I'm just like 113 pounds, I have this awful gut hanging out on my stomach and flab almost falling over the side of my jeans. It makes me just want to take a knife, grab my fat, and slice it off. Not that I would really do that; it's just something that replayes in the back of my mind. Heh, you'd think I'd be anorexic, but I'm not. I love eating. I actually tried to make myself anorexic but it never worked. I could only make myself not eat for like a day and a half. I've always been skinny ... till this year. I could always eat whatever I wanted, no matter how much it was; my stomach was a freaking bottomless pit. It really makes me hate myself more than I already do. Because that was the only thing I was confident about when I was around people, but now I can't be anymore.

Damn ... there I go away rambling off about something that's not really important. I just looked down at my stomach and was instantly infuriated with myself. Probably because I just woke up from a nap (2:00pm to 4:40pm - what a nap, huh?) and that's the only sleep I've gotten. Not to mention it's that damn time of the fucking month which adds to my crankiness. ¬_¬ God damn the world.
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