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• Uh ... just call me Lyss; hey, only two letters taken off

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• To make the Symphonic choir at school and to pass all my classes ^^;;; But for my life goal/dream, I want to become a singer or writer ... though I adore singing more
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Sunday, July 24, 2005

   Bleh ...
I don't really know what to say ... so I'll put when I wrote in my [real] jounal today.

July 24, 2005 -- 4:07pm

I'm at my mom's company picnic; pretty boring. I got tired of waiting for mom to walk with me so I went by myself. Found a little nice place in the shade by the water. The sound of the water hitting the land calms me. This guy came by on a bike and started talking to me; creep. So many people are here today -- nothing like last year when Pepp came along. Course, it was raning that time too.

It's so strange ... I feel completely at peace here, and yet I can still feel that hole of emptiness burning inside of me. I think that's why I still have the desire to cut. This place also sickens me a bit though. So many families with their dogs and boats; they're all swarming here. I am so jealous of them ... it makes me disgusted with myself. There are also countless couples walking down the water. The kind of thing you read in romance novels. I am so tired of being alone -- and all I hear is, "You're fifteen!" So what? I am in love with Ed ... a false idenity. I love him to a point where I want to scream and kill myself because he's not real. I know, I know -- I sound completely stupid and naive. No one has to tell me; I've heard it a million times.

Okay, some mexican guys came over but thankfully aren't talking to me. Still, it's making me nervous. Maybe I should go back -- Jesus ... why do I think I'm going to get raped?!

I moved anyway. I'm sitting on a bench now -- there was a sea shell on it! A small clam; still intacted! I'll show it to mom later. GOD! Those baka mexicans walked passed again -- the same one smirked at me. So I moved again. Now I'm at a different piece of water; I'm cold now. And almost crying.

More people came; mom called my cell telling me to come back anyway. God this day sucks.

I ended up dropping the sea shell so it broke. I got soooo sun burnt on my left shoulder ... it hurts.

The only interesting thing at the picnic was sitting at the water and watching Brian do the pie eating contest. XD He won ...

I don't know why I almost cried ... probably got myself depressed. This whole day just sort of sucked. I'm dead tired ... so if sis doesn't get on soon I'm going to bed. And it's not even 7:30pm yet! x.x;;;
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